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The Sad Thread (Anti-Snoo) 2 - Tory Britain in Flames

Of course I am as arrogant as I make out to be. Everyone on the Internet is exactly who you think they are. It is known. Didn't you know?!

In all seriousness, everyone I've known (not many people, admitedly) who has done coke has turned into noticeably more of a cock on it than they are normally. Guess you don't notice if you're on it at the same time yourself? ;)

And thanks, but I don't need psycho analysing, I'm pretty self aware as it... plus I have an A in Psychology A level, which obviously makes me an expert.

OFF TOPIC ALERT, OFF TOPIC ALERT so...

On a sad note (since existential crisises aren't allowed apparently), ASDA didn't have any sweet potatoes left earlier and as I needed some for dinner it was almost enough to make me cry. Still don't think I've quite recovered.
 
StoneHappyMonday said:
Pretty sure psychoanalysing was used as a euphemism for sex earlier on this evening in EADD. OK, maybe that was just my interpretation but hey...
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Isn't everything a euphemism for sex on EADD? Pretty sure that's all everyone really ever talks about... apart from me that is, I am innocent ;)

If you're right that makes SPs comment mean something very different though.
 
SummerSerenade said:
Of course I am as arrogant as I make out to be. Everyone on the Internet is exactly who you think they are. It is known. Didn't you know?!

In all seriousness, everyone I've known (not many people, admitedly) who has done coke has turned into noticeably more of a cock on it than they are normally. Guess you don't notice if you're on it at the same time yourself? ;)

And thanks, but I don't need psycho analysing, I'm pretty self aware as it... plus I have an A in Psychology A level, which obviously makes me an expert.

OFF TOPIC ALERT, OFF TOPIC ALERT so...

On a sad note (since existential crisises aren't allowed apparently), ASDA didn't have any sweet potatoes left earlier and as I needed some for dinner it was almost enough to make me cry. Still don't think I've quite recovered.
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I understand what your saying, but my superior knowledge of the human psyche doesnt allow me to not psychoanalyse. When one receives a U in their AS level psychology exam, one can not just sit there and read such jargon.

I too like to think that i am quite self-aware and have done since i was a teenager, but as i got older (only by a year or 2) i realised i wasnt quite as self-aware as i originally thought. Be happy with the way you are by all means, but at such a young age its hard to fully understand yourself. Im in exactly the same boat, being only a year older than you.

Please dont take this as me having a go or anything, cos thats absolutely not what i intended. Just saying dont define yourself when youve still got so much personal growth ahead of you.

Sorry, i dont know whether that came out as complete shyte or not haha - it was meant with the best intentions though %)
 
I think it's maybe 16 days since I left my house (this is not a personal record or a particularly new thing) but I am stuck. Usually I cane a load of drugs feel better and find strangely that it was cathartic and a positive. Hmm that didn't work. Have been sedated pretty much with a nice healthy mix of zopiclone, valium, amitriptaline, xanax, etz and codeine for last few days-when one stops working just swap em around-I seem to have been awake a while.
I have been fed, watered and held while sobbing by my beautiful ever patient and loving man for most of that in-between time.

Now what?

Have been ordered by friend to go to Doc and get some SSRI's-fuck that a mood lift in 6 weeks time and inability to orgasm or do decent drugs-sigh.

Little whinge and a moan finished. Maybe some fresh air and a cup of coffee in real world with real people in a place where there is more noise than horses neying and owls screeching may just be the answer....the alternative is not an option.

Answers on a post card....oh and Knock came up as 'friend' you may know/wish to add on FB today..sadness deepens and privacy settings tightened, sigh,

What a wretched moaney old cunt -but if I can't shpeel it here where can I ?
 
Hard luck. I feel for you.

The self-medication train only reaches one final destination though, and as you well know, that destination lies somewhere off the rails. Especially if you're adding benzos and z-drugs to your (from what I can gather) regular stimulant intake purely in order to 'function'.

Don't want to sound preachy: I've been on the same train, and was for some time. Don't want to sound smug: It's a battle for me sometimes not to just drop the meds and go back to my old ways. Fucking hell, it's a battle. Let me tell you.

SSRIs aren't perfect, but at least you'll be giving your brain and body a chance to recover, and the important thing to remember is that it doesn't just stop at SSRIs if it turns out they're not working for you.

As for recreational drugs, I feel for you there too. My choices are restricted, but luckily some of my favourites aren't off the menu. Maybe it'd do you some good to lay off the stims for a bit though?

Good luck. :)
 
inflorescence said:
I think it's maybe 16 days since I left my house (this is not a personal record or a particularly new thing) but I am stuck. Usually I cane a load of drugs feel better and find strangely that it was cathartic and a positive. Hmm that didn't work. Have been sedated pretty much with a nice healthy mix of zopiclone, valium, amitriptaline, xanax, etz and codeine for last few days-when one stops working just swap em around-I seem to have been awake a while.
I have been fed, watered and held while sobbing by my beautiful ever patient and loving man for most of that in-between time.

Now what?

Have been ordered by friend to go to Doc and get some SSRI's-fuck that a mood lift in 6 weeks time and inability to orgasm or do decent drugs-sigh.

Little whinge and a moan finished. Maybe some fresh air and a cup of coffee in real world with real people in a place where there is more noise than horses neying and owls screeching may just be the answer....the alternative is not an option.

Answers on a post card....oh and Knock came up as 'friend' you may know/wish to add on FB today..sadness deepens and privacy settings tightened, sigh,

What a wretched moaney old cunt -but if I can't shpeel it here where can I ?
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Sorry to hear you're feeling particularly rubbish inflo, but glad you've got someone looking after you.

Have you tried lots of different SSRIs or any SNRIs? Apparently the potential for sexual side effects are less on SNRIs. As Sammy says they're far from perfect, especially as the huge amount of choice can make it difficult to find one that suits your needs, but they can be very helpful in getting you level and giving you some mental space.
 
I've heard that of all antidepressants bupropion has the fewest sexual side effects so that could be worth checking out. I don't know from personal experience though, my GP never wanted me to have too much fun. 8)
 
Buproprion is worth a try, it is stimulating and also inhibits dopamine re-uptake somewhat like cocaine.
It works rapidly, with stimulation etc already in the first hours.
It can be combined with a SSRI to add a serotonin component but those take longer to kick in (though usually not as long as 6 weeks)


Pregabalin/gabapentin is pretty effective mood-booster/stress-relief for me and works quickly. May be a suitable replacement or taper tool for the benzo's and codeine?
 
Thanks all. <3
Been on this rollercoaster ride for 15 years now so hard to change things but have managed to make it out the door today..only to the shop..but tis a start. Think when the big worries about upcoming hospital tests are dealt with will sriously start to try and address some stuff. Sorry about out pouring off self loathing and misery. I seem to even be dressed -operation 2 getting a brush through huge ball of unkempt hair and a bit of mascara..tis the night that brings the horrors. I am awake it's daylight..I have bouncy music on and bleakness not quite so bleak.

<3
 
I just saw one of my cats having a seizure. :(

We know it happens & the vet pretty much said there wasn't much that could be done other than reducing the frequency... which there isn't much point doing since they only happen every few months. First time I have seen one that was bad... seen him afterwards once or twice but he was full on having convulsions etc.

Kind of makes me worried that one day something bad will come of a seizure... :\
 
Chatative said:
I just saw one of my cats having a seizure. :(

We know it happens & the vet pretty much said there wasn't much that could be done other than reducing the frequency... which there isn't much point doing since they only happen every few months. First time I have seen one that was bad... seen him afterwards once or twice but he was full on having convulsions etc.

Kind of makes me worried that one day something bad will come of a seizure... :\
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Never witnessed a cat having a seizure before but as a fellow cat owner I can empathise with your concerns :( I hope he gets better soon! <3
 
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