Sorry if this is not in the right forum but I am new here and couldn't find in the guidelines where to post this, anyway here I go and any help is greatly appreciated.
I am 27 years old and am addicted to heroin. I first tried the drug in high school but it was never a problem until about 2 years ago when I started using daily. I started just messing around once in awhile with it and then before I knew it I was using almost everyday, it has been almost 2 years since the addiction took hold. I am no longer myself, while others may not yet notice any changes in me I DO. I am so sick of living this way. No one except one really close friend knows what I am going through and living this double life is starting to mess with my mental health. I have seen this drug ruin a couple of close friends lives and I am dumbfounded that I didn't learn from their mistakes. I work a full time job mon-fri and pay all my bills so from the outside it may not look as though anything is wrong but they would be wrong. I use to always be out with friends, I was involved in sports which I loved and now I work and I stay home doing nothing but getting high and I am tired of it. I got clean once before in which I didn't use for 7 days and felt great but I started up again. It was the way I felt after those 7 days that I really really want to get back to feeling. I felt things that I hadn't felt in months maybe a year. I felt life! I miss that feeling and am really looking to get back to being sober and experiencing life again. Today my close friend said he can get us suboxone this weekend and those words could not have come at a better time as I feel like going on as I have been is a path that I can not carry along much longer. I know if I can get clean this time I can make it last. My question is how many suboxone pills should I get to ween myself off the H. I am 6'3 300lbs and for the last 2 years have been doing about 3 dubs of dope a day via snorting. I asked for 10 pills for sure and I believe they are of the 8mg variety. I know I must start to W/D from the H before I take any of the suboxone but are the 10 pills enough for me and if not how many should I try and get and how should I break them up for use and for how many days. Please any help you can offer on this would be greatly appreciated. I always believed it was mind over matter with addiction but that was before I got addicted to dope. If I could just lay in bed for a week I could just take the pain but that is not an option at this point.
Hey man read your story that sounds pretty common or heroin addicts we always think its not gonna happen to me or I can control it. We make excuses for why we don't have a problem such as I don't steal like typical junkies, I work for my drugs, or I could stop if I really had to but that's all they are are excuses and things you say to justify your continuing drug use to make YOU feel better in your mind.
I remember my first opiate was one single percocet and I felt like I could do anything once the narcotic hit my bloodstream I knew right away I was in for a world of shit. I was right the pills led me to heroin which felt even better and got me more addicted than I could have ever imagined. Almost ten years later I'm still chasing this high to the gates of insanity Suboxone saved me for now but it only covers up this sickness that lies within me the problem is still there. I've seen so many good hard working people succumb to heroin addiction and are left worthless zombies going through the motions hustle get money get dope get high then repeat they lose family's jobs, entire businesses even putting their family on the streets and still they cannot stop their obsession with this drug. I hardly see any good in the dope game it has brought me a lot of pain and hurt taken away my dreams for the future, damaged my body and most of all taken away my zest for life. But there is a reason we continue using despite all the pain and hurt it seems to bring us like the quote from the movie trainspotting
"People think it's all about misery and desperation and death and all that shite, which is not to be ignored, but what they forget is the pleasure of it. Otherwise we wouldn't do it. After all, we're not fucking stupid. At least, we're not that fucking stupid."
But that's so great to hear your gonna try to beat this remember the hard part is staying off once your detoxed, the detox will be fairly easy if you follow my instructions on tapering closely and don't take the sub for too long. With the subs you got If you have 8mg pills then that 10 should be plenty but you may want to find out for sure but if they are 2mg you could just buy 30 pills or whatever you can cause its the same thing but 10-2mgs wouldn't be enough unless you can get by on 2mgs a day but chances are youll need more . What I would do is get the pills to keep safe then finish all your dope I wouldn't get anymore than 10 I mean 5 8s would be fine
even cause the longer you drag the taper out the harder it is to jump you start becoming addicted to the sub itself which will make things a real bitch.
Ive done many rapid sub detoxes and they work better than slow drawn out month long tapers EXCEPT if the person has been taking suboxone daily for a long time like 3+ months for a suboxone matainance program or whatever. If your going straight from heroin to a sub taper and don't want to take the same dose of sub daily for years then tapering quickly is your best bet to not prolong withdrawls and make the detox at the end easier on you
First once you finish your dope wait till you get really sick this could take anywhere from 6-48 hours depending on your metabolism so don't go by the amount of time someone else waited to induct go by what YOUR body is telling you.
Once you feel sick physically and you just want some relief cause your stomachs acting up/cold sweats happening then that's the time to take the sub if you take it sooner well you already know whats gonna happen then im guessing.
Start with 2mgs under the tounge then see how that feels then if that doesn't work do another 2mgs see how that works and you may need 8mgs a day but im thinking 4-6mgs would work but its important to start small and work your way up so you don't get anymore dependant on opiates then you already were and it also greatly reduces the chances of going into precipitated withdrawal but if you do go into precipitated withdrawl then the lower dose of sub you took the less severe the PWs will be.
say you started on 8mgs a good taper would be
-Day 1: 8mgs
-Day 2: 8mgs
-Day 3:6mgs
-Day 4:4mgs
-Day 5:3mgs
-Day 6:2mgs
-Day 7:1mgs
-Day 8: 0.5mgs
-Day 9: 0.25mgs
-Day 10:Nothing
-Day 11:0.25mgs
-Day 12:Nothing
-Day 13:0.125 (or100 micrograms is close enough)
-Day 14: freedom!!!
If you follow this same taper you will only have slight very minor symptoms that wont need to be medicated only for a few days then you got to figute out a way to stay off the drugs and if you keep relapsing and using dope putting yourself in the same pit of despair over and over and constantly having to detox then you may want to think about going on a suboxone program to stabilize and get your life in order but try this detox and get a support system in place fro after detox or even during as you wont feel bad while on the sub you will feel no symptoms during the taper so going to AA or NA or seeing a drug counsler is possible and recommended during the taper and after to help you find ways to keep clean.
good luck my friend I wish you all the best in this battle to take back your life and truly hope you succeed if you ever want to talk im here just private Message me whenever man and any questions on tapering or about subs/detoxing just give me a shout
