......I have contridicted everything I have said. Yesterday, I ate half a blotter of LSD just for a minor head change. I then figured I would try eating the DOI instead of snorting it. I took out a little bit, yes unmeasured....and licked it off my desk. I took it around 1pm. After 2 or 3 hours went by I figured I just wasted some more LSD and DOI. I went to a friends house to smoke my last blunt before the navy and then I felt as high as I've ever been. I drove back to her house and was going to give her a ride to work. While I was watching tv, around 5:30pm, I started to hear warbling from nowhere and a few seconds later.....BOOM I was tripping unbelievably hard. My heart started POUNDING and I the whole room was moving. I was so scared I was going to have a heart attack. I told my friend that she would have to take my car to work as I could not drive. She left and I panicked, I didn't know what was going to happen to me. I really thought this was it, I was going to die from being so stupid. I got some paper and proceeded to write some final words to my love. It seemed as if I were posessed and the DOI was writing, painfully teaching me a lesson. "DOI! I don't really know how much I took." I had to call my girlfriend and ask her to come get me. I was so lucky I caught her a minute away from work. She came as fast as she could. I knew I was in for a hellride. My heart was beating so fast that I couldn't even count it. I was contemplating going to the hospital because I was trulyworried about my heart. It stayed elevated for about 2 hours and then started to go down. Waiting in a parking lot near the hospital, I started to come out of it. I told her how sorry I was and I really should have listened to the more knowledgable people on bluelight. She took me to her house and I felt much better. This was around 8pm. We were going to play cards in a nice cool place in her basement but when we about to play, I was thrown right back in. With my heart starting to beat fast again I had to go outside and get fresh air. For some reason, I wanted to sleep outside so she set up a cot for me and I laid outside, under blankets. We stayed out there untill about 11pm. My heart was much better but I still had trails everywhere. All of a sudden a skunk popped out and I ran, which brought my heart back to throbbing. We cleaned up and went back inside to hopefully fall asleep. I laid in her waterbed with so many thoughts running through my head. She's taken care of me so well and I was extremely grateful. I watch as the clock goes by, minute by minute. My girlfriend falls asleep as I watch from 11pm untill she woke up around 10am. I did not sleep one bit. Now it's early afternoon, 12:30pm, and my heart is still slightly elevated. I felt that I should post this to express my sorrow for my ignorance. To say sorry to fellow bluelighters trying to keep me, and everyone safe. I have many years of sobriety ahead of me with the navy. I look forward to it as maybe it will spark a new me.