I don't really understand MXE. Its effects timeline is perhaps the strangest of any drug I've experienced. I've used it twice now, 33mg IM and 50mg IM. I have a lot of ketamine experience (though I don't find them very similar TBH--ketamine offers so much more clarity for me, and only positive aftereffects) and have experienced dissociative effects on plenty of other psychedelics. Here's how my MXE experiences have both gone, though:
I come up slightly slower than on an IM dose of ketamine, in a dark room with familiar music playing, my eyes closed with an audio spectrum visualizer on my display flashing light softly through my eyelids. I begin to experience a wonderful semi-anaesthetized pins-and-needles euphoria that is far more tactile than psychological, music is enhanced, I have a cloudy 35-45 minute peak where I experience almost a delirium-like state of happiness and bliss in which I don't necessarily know why I'm happy (nor do I ponder anything of coherent merit)--and then an abrupt 'plateau' which feels more like a long, flat comedown which lasts about three hours and leaves me feeling like uncoordinated, dazed crap. Music enhancement and euphoria ceases immediately after the peak. I'm not left with a feeling of serenity like after a k-hole, but negativity and something more like the feeling of brain-rape one experiences following the end of a moderate to high dose of DXM.
I don't find MXE in the least bit therapeutic, and the bizarrely low peak:combined-plateau-comedown time ratio (1:4) means further trials do not tempt me, despite the exceptional euphoria. The day after offers no afterglow, but rather a mild state of depression and lack of motivation.
In the last MXE thread, I read of people calling MXE the "god" drug, people finding it to be an effective anti-depressant (in admittedly lower doses than I've tried), or in some other way therapeutic or inexplicably "special." I know we all react differently to different substances, but this is simply beyond my comprehension. Does anyone else experience MXE in a similar way?
Just to address this in advance, I'm positive the product at hand is MXE and not tiletamine, 4-MeO-PCP, or anything else.