I ate 8 or 9 small poppies and 1,200mg of neurontin a few hours ago. I would not even call what I am feeling a high, the only reason I bothered posting it is because I was responding to another post.
subdefy said:
I'm on 2C-T-7,
I love this drug! 30mg, zero dicomfort, totally clear-headed, very interpersonal, very good! I'll def. be upping the dose next time.
Originally Posted by Tryptamine*Dreamer
When I use psychedelics, it is not for the purpose of escape. I like the extremely altered states of mind they produce. Psychedelics are exciting and lots of fun, most of the time. I do not consider using them for those reasons to be an act of escape. Most/probably all people who use psychedelics do it for fun and to experience the wide variety of mind states they produce.
That's what escapism is! Too much fun and part of that experience is the wide variety of mind states they produce. It says your unemployed aswell. Why should you be given a choice of fun when you don't contribute anything to society? At least go to school or spend your time learning.
so my question to you tryptamine_dreamer: have you found the meaning of life?
I have not found the meaning of life. I don't think there is one. Have you found it?
I always thought of escapism as trying to escape from your problems or psychological pain by using drugs or using them excessively for fun. Most of the time I do not use psychedelics often enough that I would consider it escapism. When I was tripping 2-3 times a week that was escapism but I do not think 2-3 times a month is too much.
I have tripped a lot in the last month but that is because I got a couple of new drugs(DOC and 2c-c) and a couple that I had not used in a long time(mushrooms and DXM). If I had not got those drugs I would have probably tripped only once or twice during that period. I do not plan on tripping again for at least 2 or 3 weeks.
My use of psychedelics is not just for fun. That is the primary reason that I use them but I also do it for self exploration (not always a pleasant thing) and the spiritual experiences they sometimes produce. You asked earlier if I was using psychedelics for the psychonauts perspective. The answer to that question is yes, if I understand the meaning correctly. If you still think that what I am doing is just escapism that is fine with me, I don't care. Maybe you are right but I see nothing wrong with my use of psychedelics.
It says in my user page that I am unemployed. It is true that I do not have any real job but I do have some income. I repair and sell computers out of my house and sell things on ebay. I usually make $400-$700 a month doing this so it's not like I am a parasite living off the money of others. It would probably be more accurate to say that I am self employed part time instead of unemployed.
I have tried to get a job but I have little experience with anything other than computer repair and there is little demand for that kind of work where I live. I spent a lot of time during the summer trying to find a job, going to interviews and filling out applications. The people usually say that they will call back in a few weeks or days if they need you but they never call back. For now I have given up on trying to find a job.
I could get a minimum wage job but I would not make much more money than I make right now. I hope to start college next year, I plan on getting a computer information systems degree. I may also learn chemistry. I don't know if I will be able to afford going to college. It's not like I have a lot of money.