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you're sooooo high right now and want to share? post here

I've been sober for 18 days, and feel more high than I have in 5 years. This is the longest I've ever been (kind of being forced) but I appreciate the time. The high became normality after using for 5 years and bingeing on xanax and oxycontin heavily for 2-3 years, and now that I'm not on anything I feel high. I've posted numerous times in this thread, feel the most abnormal now (after coming to realize what normal feelings are, and many other things I was too fucked up to notice), so I think this counts.
 
^awesome, i think that counts too

As for me, i am feeling happy but the bowls and the wine and the kava probably have a big part to do with that.... and the fact that i just cleaned my whole damn house and the place is a lot nicer. Cleaning is surprisingly fun... or maybe i'm just insane.
 
Synto said:
I've been sober for 18 days, and feel more high than I have in 5 years. This is the longest I've ever been (kind of being forced) but I appreciate the time. The high became normality after using for 5 years and bingeing on xanax and oxycontin heavily for 2-3 years, and now that I'm not on anything I feel high. I've posted numerous times in this thread, feel the most abnormal now (after coming to realize what normal feelings are, and many other things I was too fucked up to notice), so I think this counts.
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congrats, man:)
 
Vaya said:
drunk, coked, benzo'd. strangely, it doesnt even feel good anymore.
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ya know.. i know how you feel. I've been feeling this "pull" just to do more interesting drugs like mushrooms/lsd/and other psych's...

I mean, I love good cocaine, and 1/2 my brain is still saying "No!No! You mustn't say that! We love cocaine!!" and the other 1/2 is saying "yeah, the high is great, but so what?"

It's kind of like (just like MDMA) I've done everything I can and thought everything I could on cocaine.

Benzo high is just "blah". I can get myself that way with 3 beers or so.

GHB well, I still love that - gotta get more!

Opiates... well, I just don't want to go there - the mild/moderate withdrawals I get with benzo's have shown me all I need to FEAR any real physical addiction such as with opiates.

I write this post after a night of benzo withdrawal-induced insomnia. I didn't "wake up" I just "got up". How fun is THAT? :X

And holy shit does sleep deprivation and benzo w/d give weird ass thoughts... Within an hour last night I was *IN* the new Dukes of HAzard movie.. then I was helping an alien race on an alien planet from orbital bombardment.. then I could SWEAR somebody was watching me from outside my bedroom window. Like FUCK, I never got any weird thoughts lkike this from using cocaine and speed for YEARS.

I think benzo's and I don't go well together for anything other than the odd night to knock me out.

grr.. *goes and grabs some coffee*
 
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Well if you're on cloud 9 - i must be on cloud 10 ;)
i am in total bliss on E. =D
Music + E + Cigarettes + bluelight = perfect night in :):):)
 
on the urge to feel alive - 300mg ritalin and i'm, struggling to survive grr my life doesn't come in pills any more where is my meth *pouts* my life is suppose to come in crystal shards not pills argh I hope a bomb gets dropped on me. killl me now. or atleast give me back the only thing I really want the only real thing. *sigh* life is not good right now *cries* IIIII want meth back. I'm going to need more ritalin or something I just want more meth I can't deal with this
 
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-Pdx

sorry thats a lil harsh, but god dam! this kid has been at it for HOW LONG? i know im not the only one on this board that thinks the same way about him. ill post later wen im high. i jus had to say that cuz i know ill forget to say it wen im high.
 
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how long? since 16 with my first 20mg adderall. but aren't you proud? I'm 18 and I only do meth now. see I learn well. all those 200mg adderall days into 300mg adderall days and my couple of 400mg days,my 500mg adderall day or 700mg in 30 sum hours or my 1,000mg ritalin 24 hour rampage or \my 900mg concerta thing, remember all the yelling angry posts, yep yep, then it turned to e e e e but that didn't last long then when I switched to tweak and didn't really think it would last but thennn when it did and now it's all about tweak. see I listened I switched months ago and I didn't start slow I jumped right in. The only thing you could really say is "yes you might do crystal meth all the time but you still have ICE left" that would be a really good come back but I'll be the happiest person living in a lab grr if only I could find someone ahem *puts hands together,gets on knees,"I wish that I will meet somebody with a lab and get to hang out there,with free unlimited amounts forever and I want it to happen now ASAP tonight if possible."

I'm going to put this 300mg ritalin to use and I'm going out and looking for e or tweak.good bye.
 
Tiesto said:
sorry thats a lil harsh, but god dam! this kid has been at it for HOW LONG? i know im not the only one on this board that thinks the same way about him. ill post later wen im high. i jus had to say that cuz i know ill forget to say it wen im high.
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I agree and have been wanting to say something for a long time but never felt it would be appropriate or in the nature of bluelight. Thanks Tiesto for being the first to say something ;).

Ryan, get some help bro. It's really pathetic watching you in this downward spiral. Remember.... what goes up must come down.

Edit- Sorry I'm not high... for what it's worth I'll be doing some xanax later tonight.
 
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RyanM said:
how long? since 16 with my first 20mg adderall. but aren't you proud? I'm 18 and I only do meth now. see I learn well. all those 200mg adderall days into 300mg adderall days and my couple of 400mg days,my 500mg adderall day or 700mg in 30 sum hours or my 1,000mg ritalin 24 hour rampage or \my 900mg concerta thing, remember all the yelling angry posts, yep yep, then it turned to e e e e but that didn't last long then when I switched to tweak and didn't really think it would last but thennn when it did and now it's all about tweak. see I listened I switched months ago and I didn't start slow I jumped right in. The only thing you could really say is "yes you might do crystal meth all the time but you still have ICE left" that would be a really good come back but I'll be the happiest person living in a lab grr if only I could find someone ahem *puts hands together,gets on knees,"I wish that I will meet somebody with a lab and get to hang out there,with free unlimited amounts forever and I want it to happen now ASAP tonight if possible."

I'm going to put this 300mg ritalin to use and I'm going out and looking for e or tweak.good bye.
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You need to get off stims and onto some mushrooms or something. Seriously.

You will be a far more interesting person. (and more probably alive than in the path you are in now)
 
RyanM: I've been watching your posts for a long while and have never commented. This is probably a pointless post, because it looks like you're too far gone, but I'll shoot. I've watched so many kids on the same path you are, that were using for about the same time. God have mercy on a few of them for the things they did to get their meth towards the end of their use. If you don't stop that shit it will kill you, mark my fucking words. It might take you loosing all your teeth, face sinking in around your mouth, being covers in scars, among other things, but it's fucking inevitable. Judging by your use patterns, it might be sooner rather than later. You can only get away with that wreckless shit for so long, no matter what you think. Not preaching, just giving advice based on experience and watching so many friends and acquaintances lives come to an end from the shit. If you have any sense or touch with reality at all you'll start trying to get help for the meth. If not, you'll make fun of this post or continue your use patterns, and turn into another statistic somewhere down the line. It's not a guess, it's INEVITABLE. Anyways, I hope for you the best.
 
you guys should quit trying, if you go back about 10 pages you'll see that we had this 'intervention' for him quite a few times, it doesn't help. He'll never learn.
 
Well, then eventually he'll either almost kill himself and wake up to the realization that he must quit, or the more likely of the two...die. You're probably right though. Some people don't ever learn. It's sad.
 
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