yesterday after that little head rush thing, I took 80mg adderall and went to work at 7am
this morning I took 50mg adderall went to work at 7am 11am break another 30mg on the way home at 2pm another 40mg which is 120mg adderall and I'm off to work in another hour again for 430pm tilll 730pm yep- 9 hours today I'm thinking after work on the way home 730pm another 40mg which willl then be 160mg woah I just realize how much adderall I was doing months ago dude I'm having a hard time getting to even 160mg
months ago I was doing 300mg+ in a day I was chewing up- 180mg p-arachutes one in the morning and one at night woah that's really bad back then I was doing 360mg and I wanted more that is crazy now I see what everyone was talking about but I didn't back then 300mg was not unusual and not that hard to get up to and often wanting to go over even 400mg+ darn kid!
I think you know I might do 200mg today you know just for old times take my chances and hope I get more tonight but what I really want what really makes me excited and happy now a days is m e . . or that other letter *stilll p-aranoid* I'm going after that first tonight.
yeah now I feel slow I think writing this just made me crash but that isn't p-ossible oh this post isn't good I just crashed myself and there for I'm taking another 40mg now so 160mg for 430pm another 40mg after work 200mg at 8p-m. great. just great. why did I have to think of this? I really had a good thinking p-rocess a different way of looking at this it was enough before I was fine with 120mg but some how it's all different now suddenly the old thinking process came back...my mind is split in two..I guess none of this really matters no I know what matters..160mg adderall at 8pm 200mg...grr I ruined it for myself but not on purpose this time...understand? no?well,i'm not suggesting you get to line me up for questioning.