okay I hope I can type this is is going to be hard
Okay today I only had 90mg during the day so I bassically stayed in bed the whole day literally all day and night sometimes sleeping sometimes not
Well around 11pm I decided to go on a inhalant binge and that included uh car cleaner,air freshner cans,oven cleaner?,glass cleaner,uhh anything in a can that said 'harmful if vapors inhaled' I couldn't get any gold spray paint,computer duster or paint thinner so it wasn't that good
Well then around 12:30am I was done and dealing with rubber skin 'don't ask inhalant users know it's that rubber skin that comes from gold spray paint it feels like that but not the whole drunk I have no idea what is going on after feeling'
well then I called this person and I was like heyy do you have any pot since I did want to smoke since it was just reaction since I did the inhalants might as well enjoy pot tonight but they didn't have any or know where to get any so I got 200mg adderall
took all 200mg adderall at once since they were 20mg tabs
drove around by myself then went to this other persons house and they had uh this prescription inhaler uh 'Albuterol' and I was like 'heyy I heard that word before can I have just a huff?' well that turned into 25 huffs and inhaling as much as could and covering the thing with my hands since I kind of knew how to abuse it
it tasted gross but the 'high' was like computer duster though computer duster tastes better but well I was already starting to feeling the 200mg I took and then I got all shaky which I still am and I could barely drive home because my foot leg kept shaking and I could barely press down on the gas but I made it home
so that's where I am now trying to calm down and I ended by inhalant binge with Albuterol and now it's time to speed a little with 200mg
yep I'm done with inhalants now for another 5 months and later today my main guy gets his prescription refilled with 30mg tabs so back to normal
though taking 200mg around 1am was stupid I realized since I have to work at 430pm but I will just take 300mg when I get them since I am getting 900mg today
*harm reduction-I don't agree with inhalants or advice any one to do them-any of them-no not even nitrous-the main ones over the counter are extremely dangerous and can/did kill with just one use-it might not do anything the first time-or the 10th or the 100th-but it will catch up and you won't be ready for it-then it's too late-and you're dead
*to the comments - yes mr K. I know I was just listening to music at the time-recently on friday I actually had a scary experience with adderall well I know on the beginning friday it was 420mg from the night before then during friday through friday night I took atleast 300mg more and during hte night like in the middle my chest was all hurting and my heart seemed to be hurting or whatever so was my stomach I kind of felt like I was going to have a heart attack,stroke,something but then I fell to sleep and I woke up and I was better so obviously nothing was wrong and I'm back and going strong I'm fine now
hmm I took 200mg at 1am if I get 300mg before 1pm I can say I did 500mg in a 12 hour time frame since the 24 hour amounts don't really count because some adderall already leaves your system so you have to do whatever big amount in less than 12 hours so 200mg 1am then 300mg around 12pm I can say I did 500mg
I will only post back if I get it before 1pm because if I do 300mg even at 2pm it won't count and it will just be 300mg and not 500mg see what I mean?
if nothing else I will post back on november 28th I will be 18 then and I have to work 730amtill2pm so I have to make my birthday count so if I do 300mg at 630am then another 300mg at 2pm I can say 600mg then if I do another 200mg before 630pm I can say 800mg in a 12 hour time frame for my birthday record but if I get to 800mg before 630pm I might as well just get to 1,000mg like I planned then I can say 1 gram adderall 12 hours
then if that happens I will be all done with adderall since there will be nothing more to experience or feel and I will then also quit on my birthday and be done with all this madness FINALLY to finally quit and be done I can only hope
1gram adderall will be the end the amount that finshes this horrible addiction that in the end lead to nothing I wanted or felt and how it all turned into the opposite but at the start it was so great but at the end I have nothing to show for it or say or feel or think *sigh* yep I have been ready
of course if my birthday isn't that good in the mg this all goes out the window and yes I don't c are what I'm getting or the cards or that it's even my birthday just I care about how much I will have how much $ so I can get it my birthday is just an excuse really and a pathetic 'reason,explanation' for this huge amount I am going to waste I don't know the reasons why or maybe it's amphetamine abuse I don't know though on my birthday will be the most dangerous/"happy/energetic/ but yep maybe I'm all controlled by this amphetamine abuse don't ask,maybe if you go through you would know
there is a lot more people who went through deeper than me with amounts kept going and going higher and higher and *yes a one time meth user already beats my adderall use I know so don't tell me* I know there is worse adderall users than me out there who will keep going who probably already did 1gram maybe some who see that as little but 20mg-to 400mg in a day-to 300mg average daily hmm I can say for me I want this to end...I think...hmm after my birthday I obviously need to ask for help which I never seem to get around to or need I still don't need help 56