redhaze use to be my personal jesus of course he left too
so impressed with all you do-tried so hard to be like you-flew too high and burnt the wing-lost my faith in everything
Now okay K'dOUTinAZ is right I heard all of the cries I saw people crying in real life I heard the hate the whispering the rumors the lies all the attempts to help failed hate forced fed with love nailed down in an attempt to stop
I don't need any more jesus attempts or love attempts or help attempts-taste the wealth of hate in me
Don't you get it? This Machine Is Obsolete-Made the choice to go away-drink the fountain of decay-fuck the rest and stab it dead-broken bruised forgotten sore-
poisoned to my rotten core
in the back off the side far away is a place where i hide where i
stay tried to say tried to ask i needed to all alone by myself where
were you?
how could i ever thinnk it's funny how everything that
swore it wouldn't change is different now just like you
would always say we'll make it through then my head fell apart
and where were you?
how could i ever think it's funny how everything you swore would
never change is different now like you said you and me make it
through didn't quite fell apart
where the fuck were you?
whoops! I'm on 220mg Adderall now because I just got 15 30 IR
but on a good note before this day all the days were only around 100mg!
I need like 100 personal jesus's to save me lol
I should really seriously get back into smoking pot because it's just more fun
Oh what are we going to do with me? argh tomorrow needs to be no adderall super high pot day
because on saturday I will need 200mg because I have to work a double
maybe sunday will be 130mg since I don't have to work a double only in the morning
oh well I think I have around 800mg adderall left but now I'M BROKE!
*sighs* if I run out before next friday I will have to dig into my car money again
pretty stoned right now, smoked 2 blunts while watching reservoir dogs tonite then got back to school and ripped a bing with some girls from my dorm. all in all a good nite
DOOFDOOFDOOFDOOF - not really high anymore, just got home from Ministry of Sound Hard NRG tour at one of the better nightclubs in town (The Family, Brisbane) - awesome night Pill had a great peak, ended a little earlier than I had expected but was still well worth it. Now to get some sleep
It is no wonder that you haven't found anyone to love you. Not even like you.
Poor kid. It's not really your fault either, although it gets hard to think that at times.