okay I was on 180mg before I left for work *thinks* 2 pills,3,2,2,2 uh 11 more rits so 30x11-330mg+180mg 510mg ritalin I guess for now
blahblahblah I didn't get x just 40 more ritalin but they are 10mg so yeah those will be gone tomorrow uh I have some 30's left too which I will probably snort tonight I don't know I don't keep track really so it's not a concern
blahblahblah "no,seriously,listen,I won't spend it on drugs,it's for my car savings,seriously,I knew you since 5th grade,blahblahblah" hopefully I get $40 from her,uhh tomorrow, hmm we'll figure out something,hopefullly get atleast some amphetamines 20 or 30 adderall something of that sort, uhhh lost my train of thought *thinks-don't call at 2am for nothing* hmm luckily I get paid friday but that's too far pft I don't know or really even am seriously thinking ahead I have uh probably 50 ritalin pills left so i'm not worried tonight,tomorrow day,tomorrow night,uh if it leads into tomorrow morning, probably get worried,I should count,*holds* 2 30's,41 10mg, 470mg ritalin left,not worries *sigh of relief* if I'm on already 510mg ritalin and I have 470mg left *thinks* I'll probably beat my 900mg concerta thing in 30 hours wayy back,leave it up to me to snort 500ishmg ritalin and not even noticed till I actually add it up but yeah I'm not going to get into the keeping track habit 3 pills here 2 3 2 2 2 2 every 30 minutes is only 2 pills in all cuz the other pills r gone, in the past,this makes me remember when I read more now again months ago Elizabeth with her 40 pills of ritalin a day habit,kind of shocked then,but I see now how easy it really is to go through that many,throw a couple,crush,snort hmm 15 minutes uh blank,oh! throw couple,crush snort, what else is there to do then to crush and snort more? yeahblahblahblah218amnothing to do no plans this minute,or for hours to come,welll no use bothering to think later,present219amnothingnoringingnoplanssnorttwomorelay down till phonerings or any thoughts occur till then lay down,music,snortwhennecessary
I have a question orr not, hmm insolence-poison well will be my theme song for the night,*you can break it down but it still makes no sense,this is my brain,so sick science can't even contain,Is there any thought process that remains?* oh I found my question all in all in all in all I'm aching i'm beggging for a speed overdose cuz that seems exciting because i'll be getting more speed or something,one night it made sense while we couldn't find any some how we worded it right something about aching for a speed overdose but not deadly but so much you are hanging only by an inch then stroke or heart failure is your safety net, kind of like, if you do 1 thing wrong or breathe wrong or get up take too many steps I don't knowI can't remember but it made perfect sense that night our main point was 'we would be speeding so much! it would be great!' we needed more.