Well, I found out this week that another one of my friends commiteed suicide.
I never knew at all that he was trans. FTM. I wish I did because I am as well and we could have talked and vented and helped each other as much as wecould and all that.
I knew him as a child, we went to elementry school together, long long ago before I met my current bestfriend. We were not close but we chatted here and there. He was what people would consider kind of a "bully" in school. He teased some kids but never physically hurt them.
When he was older he tracked down the ones he could to make amense for all the teasing he did.
He was living a very poisionous life at home as a young child and so he lashed out alot. Aparently not too long after I left the school Children's Aid aprehended him and he went into foster care with a very nice family who eventually adopted him. They were very nice people from the way he talked. They accepted him when he thought he was a lesbian, they supported him when he came out as trans. They truly loved him.
I lost touch with him 3 months ago, and I finally found out in the past week that he committed suicide 2 months ago after falling into a huge depression after an unknown encounter with someone.
I never asked and really don't want to know how, I have had lasting memories of too many deaths as it is.
He was only 30yrs old. He was a cancer survivor as a kid. He survived many forms of abuse as a kid.
He had sought counseling, he was talking, he was transitioning, he was out and open about who he was, he was a good guy.
I miss him. I just found him again after 20yrs just 18 months ago. He lived a world away but we talked like we were neighbours -- like bestfriends.
I hope he found his peace.
A song for all those who have ever felt down and out about themselves, for anyone who feels shuned and alone, for anyone who thinks they are anything less then "fukin' perfect"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LdW5rei_5gI&feature=fvst
I all you my BL friends....
I never knew at all that he was trans. FTM. I wish I did because I am as well and we could have talked and vented and helped each other as much as wecould and all that.
I knew him as a child, we went to elementry school together, long long ago before I met my current bestfriend. We were not close but we chatted here and there. He was what people would consider kind of a "bully" in school. He teased some kids but never physically hurt them.
When he was older he tracked down the ones he could to make amense for all the teasing he did.
He was living a very poisionous life at home as a young child and so he lashed out alot. Aparently not too long after I left the school Children's Aid aprehended him and he went into foster care with a very nice family who eventually adopted him. They were very nice people from the way he talked. They accepted him when he thought he was a lesbian, they supported him when he came out as trans. They truly loved him.
I lost touch with him 3 months ago, and I finally found out in the past week that he committed suicide 2 months ago after falling into a huge depression after an unknown encounter with someone.
I never asked and really don't want to know how, I have had lasting memories of too many deaths as it is.
He was only 30yrs old. He was a cancer survivor as a kid. He survived many forms of abuse as a kid.
He had sought counseling, he was talking, he was transitioning, he was out and open about who he was, he was a good guy.
I miss him. I just found him again after 20yrs just 18 months ago. He lived a world away but we talked like we were neighbours -- like bestfriends.
I hope he found his peace.
A song for all those who have ever felt down and out about themselves, for anyone who feels shuned and alone, for anyone who thinks they are anything less then "fukin' perfect"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LdW5rei_5gI&feature=fvst
I
all you my BL friends....
