I had my last use up, then went into rehab. They gave me 70mg methadone on day 1, then 50mg day 2 then 30mg day 3, then nothing.
It was the HARDEST thing I've ever done in my life. I was so fucking sick. Lieing in the bathroom puking and shitting, but far more concerned about having massive unbearable physical aches and pains, my legs Killing me, whole skeleton trying to escape my body, pouring in sweat, absolutlely freezing cold, mentally at the absolute limit of unbearableness, can't be even slightly comfortable in any way or form or relax at all. After the puking and shitting stopped, pain feels worse in legs, cant really describe it as pain, but just UNbearable feeling. Like if you were held under water and you get to the stage just before you die and stay at that stage forever. Total fucking hell. 100% awake, experiencing all this for 12 days 24 hours a day, not 1 wink of sleep at all in this peroid. Start to get 20mins to 1 hour of sleep after day 12. ABsolutley NO energy, still restless cant sit down, cant stand up, can't lie down. Cold, weak, achey, fluey, emotional, feeling of doom/despair. Eventually after 21 days starts to get a TINY bit better. Getting a bit more sleep, falling asleep about 4am and waking up at 6am in a cold sweat feeling like shit. Slowly the symptoms go away, like really fucking slowly...
All of this knowing with one quick hit in an INSTANT it would all go away!
I'm 41 days clean now, I am sleeping ok now, but still no energy and a bit achey.
Fuck me, it was absolute hell. Hardest thing I've ever done. NEVER again!!!!!
oliphil what did you think when you took the librium? that stuff saved my life for anxiety.. but i was having to take 4-5 a day towards the end (two weeks) after starting on 1 a day. sorry you had to go through that buddy and i can't believe you're still not 100% better
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Tramadol , i didnt think this drug was really classed as addictive or gave much, if any of a high?. Agree with the depression while coming of opiates, this imo is the WORST part of WD's . If you suffer mentally to start with, obviously its even worse + can make you suicidal to say the least.
Overall i think mental craving part of withdrawals are far worse than the short lived physical symtoms.
^^^So you said in your experience, that you used tramadol to curve withdrawals from other opiates. and then I suppose in turn became physically dependent on tramadol, and then experienced the withdrawals you were staving off with the tramadol once you stopped taking them? If this doesn't make sense, please let me know.
I ask because I am 5 days off of an oxycodone addiction, although the whole time through said addiction I have been taking tramadol, and was dependent on both substances, now just the tramadol. Shortly, I plan on tapering off the tramadol, and don't know whether the withdrawals will be different (I've experienced tramadol withdrawals many times) due to the oxycodone addiction. I've been taking more tramadol to also curve the withdrawal from oxycodone. Sorry if this is post is unclear and unorganized, I wrote it rather rushed.
first of all why did you end up in er twice and how did it help you getting off the 120. im at 105 and still scared120mg Methadone and 6mg Xanax a day, went cold turkey, ended up in the ER twice in the first week.
I was eating one of those 50 mcg fentanyl patches a day for like a month, and shooting morphine once in a while. I went cold turkey. It was fucking Horrifying!!
Instead of the usual 3 day hump, it was the 10 day hump. It wasn't until day 10 that it started to go down. It was just extremely painful. I can't really describe that WD pain. There is always the extra pains that suck, leg cramps, yawning, tearing, nausea etc, but then there is that main WD feeling. That feeling that nobody knows until they have been there. That main WD feeling was huge that time I detoxed. OUCH ><