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Your worst ever single hallucination - and what caused it
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I've never experienced sleep paralysis (thankfully)
And oddly enough, despite taking my share of MDMA, LSD, psylocibin etc in years past, other than swirling patterns/colors/tricks in your eye's corner, I never had anything resembling hallucinations/visuals ( Ketamine/DXM being the sole exceptions, I guess those class of drugs worked on me...)
Oddly, the most frightening experience I have had occurred twice, in separate years, but in the same forest grove (eerie!)
One summer home from school I met an old friend to smoke some herb, had a bit more than usual, after the 2nd bowl my vision suddenly went black (we were outside on a bright day).
I could hear/move/talk fine but with my eyes open couldn't see anything. After a few minutes my vision faded back in. I had an injured foot at the time and thought that somehow overloaded my pain receptors.
This theory was marginally confirmed the 2nd occurence (a year or even two later), a mile away; I'd just gotten a fresh shipment of OCs (just 20s I think).
Popped one and hit up my friends, who hand me a bong on the way in the door ... a few minutes later, same result, black vision, yet able to move/hear just fine ...
Scared the f*ck out of me each time it happened, and was quite embarrassing. As the first incident involved cannabis + pain, and the second cannabis + pain-killer, I'm sure I found my culprit (though I know I mixed the two on other occasions with no ill effect).
Guess that's my closest foray into hallucination, or other associated uncontrollable + uncomfortable mental states.
Given my past abuses / MH issues I am more than thankful that I lack any sort of schizophrenic indicators at this point in my life.
As a young psychonaut I was slightly disappointed that I didn't 'trip' like all my buddies ... perhaps as I am not a 'creative' type, I was too busy enjoying the real-world effects.
And oddly enough, despite taking my share of MDMA, LSD, psylocibin etc in years past, other than swirling patterns/colors/tricks in your eye's corner, I never had anything resembling hallucinations/visuals ( Ketamine/DXM being the sole exceptions, I guess those class of drugs worked on me...)
Oddly, the most frightening experience I have had occurred twice, in separate years, but in the same forest grove (eerie!)
One summer home from school I met an old friend to smoke some herb, had a bit more than usual, after the 2nd bowl my vision suddenly went black (we were outside on a bright day).
I could hear/move/talk fine but with my eyes open couldn't see anything. After a few minutes my vision faded back in. I had an injured foot at the time and thought that somehow overloaded my pain receptors.
This theory was marginally confirmed the 2nd occurence (a year or even two later), a mile away; I'd just gotten a fresh shipment of OCs (just 20s I think).
Popped one and hit up my friends, who hand me a bong on the way in the door ... a few minutes later, same result, black vision, yet able to move/hear just fine ...
Scared the f*ck out of me each time it happened, and was quite embarrassing. As the first incident involved cannabis + pain, and the second cannabis + pain-killer, I'm sure I found my culprit (though I know I mixed the two on other occasions with no ill effect).
Guess that's my closest foray into hallucination, or other associated uncontrollable + uncomfortable mental states.
Given my past abuses / MH issues I am more than thankful that I lack any sort of schizophrenic indicators at this point in my life.
As a young psychonaut I was slightly disappointed that I didn't 'trip' like all my buddies ... perhaps as I am not a 'creative' type, I was too busy enjoying the real-world effects.
Most terrifying thing in my life. I'm in the fog of a worn down opiate buzz, go into bed, then I start having a dream, I'm with my brother in some sort of big indoor gym, we're walking around, then we start going down this narrow hallway with wood panelling on the walls, then we get to the end and there is this room, just kind of like a waiting room in a doctor office, with a window you'd go up to and a door beside it, everything is very dark. My brother walks through the door, and then I just kind of felt like there was some evil presence or something, so this is the point where I get scared and start trying to wake myself up, but then you are in sleep paralysis. So then suddenly I feel like a ghost or something there is starting to strangle me, and it's so real, like you actually feel some hand around your neck, I'm screaming, and I don't know for sure, but I think you really do scream there half awake, then I can see, my eyes are open but I can't move and I feel like I fly up to the roof of my room, being strangled to death, and then just boom, you come to, and I'm sweating, tears in my eyes, just trembling in fear.
Just thinking back to it makes me feel a chill. I've had a number of experiences similar to this, they always occur, going to bed after having used opiates within say 2 or 3 hours of going to bed, and it always occurs around 30-60 minutes after falling asleep, from looking at the clock after waking up.
Another thing I think contributed to these experiences interestingly, is wearing earplugs while sleeping. I'm a pretty light sleeper and I live in an apartment with some noisy neighbours at times, so I used to always sleep with ear plugs, and I think something to do with that, being totally cut off from the sounds of reality, adding to your sensory deprivation and really letting the dream feel that much more real, adds to those night terrors.
Just thinking back to it makes me feel a chill. I've had a number of experiences similar to this, they always occur, going to bed after having used opiates within say 2 or 3 hours of going to bed, and it always occurs around 30-60 minutes after falling asleep, from looking at the clock after waking up.
Another thing I think contributed to these experiences interestingly, is wearing earplugs while sleeping. I'm a pretty light sleeper and I live in an apartment with some noisy neighbours at times, so I used to always sleep with ear plugs, and I think something to do with that, being totally cut off from the sounds of reality, adding to your sensory deprivation and really letting the dream feel that much more real, adds to those night terrors.
clara
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Six hours of drug induced Schizophrenia, after being up on a seven day binge. I honestly couldn't tell a difference between reality and delusion. The voices were so real that sometimes i talked back, gestured, interacted with, etc... They had absolutely nothing positive to say, about me or my life, that was a dark, dark, six hours. Gradually it dissipated and I felt normal again.
junctionalfunkie
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My arm and torso melting into pink plastic.
A huge hit of white crystal DMT.
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A huge hit of white crystal DMT.
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dankstersauce
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7 hits of acid that was MUCH much stronger than I expected.
I thought people were banging on my windows and screaming at me. I thought blue police lights were flashing in my windows. I thought wild dogs were snapping and biting at me. I thought rattle snakes were trying to bite me and they kept rattling their tails and slithering around me. All the while there were cockroaches covering the walls. And this happened AFTER I had taken 6mgs of klonopin. I seriously thought I has lost my mind permanently for 4-6 hours. This was just the visual hallucinations....it doesn't describe at all the fear that soaked through every cell of my body like fucking electricity.
At the time I was frying out often on acid and I learned to take set and setting much more seriously.
edit: sleep paralysis is no fucking joke. Definitely had a scary time a few weeks ago but nothing in my experience can touch that LSD experience.
One other time,
I had just OD'ed on heroin and phenazempam the day before, and I smoked around 75mgs of DMT and was all fucked up emotionally (before smoking). I set out on the trip wondering what would of happened if I had died. After exhaling a couple hits, the ugliest DMT hallucination I've ever seen approached me. It was a dark brown and gray cloud like an evil tornado, and it literally knocked me out of my chair. It felt like I had been pushed really hard. Once the fear and clouds subsided I found myself in the fetal position on the floor. I still kinda wonder if some spirit knocked me on my ass, I mean it literally felt like I got pushed HARD and when i came to I was on the floor. Very disturbing and like my other bad trip, the visuals were nothing compared to the fear I felt.
I've also met several very very real spirits on DMT that I still don't know what to think about.
I thought people were banging on my windows and screaming at me. I thought blue police lights were flashing in my windows. I thought wild dogs were snapping and biting at me. I thought rattle snakes were trying to bite me and they kept rattling their tails and slithering around me. All the while there were cockroaches covering the walls. And this happened AFTER I had taken 6mgs of klonopin. I seriously thought I has lost my mind permanently for 4-6 hours. This was just the visual hallucinations....it doesn't describe at all the fear that soaked through every cell of my body like fucking electricity.
At the time I was frying out often on acid and I learned to take set and setting much more seriously.
edit: sleep paralysis is no fucking joke. Definitely had a scary time a few weeks ago but nothing in my experience can touch that LSD experience.
One other time,
I had just OD'ed on heroin and phenazempam the day before, and I smoked around 75mgs of DMT and was all fucked up emotionally (before smoking). I set out on the trip wondering what would of happened if I had died. After exhaling a couple hits, the ugliest DMT hallucination I've ever seen approached me. It was a dark brown and gray cloud like an evil tornado, and it literally knocked me out of my chair. It felt like I had been pushed really hard. Once the fear and clouds subsided I found myself in the fetal position on the floor. I still kinda wonder if some spirit knocked me on my ass, I mean it literally felt like I got pushed HARD and when i came to I was on the floor. Very disturbing and like my other bad trip, the visuals were nothing compared to the fear I felt.
I've also met several very very real spirits on DMT that I still don't know what to think about.
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Ecstasy Hallucination
Coming down off E. My friends had an earlier flight back home so I stayed in the hotel room and crashed for a few hours before my flight that night. I was by myself in the hotel room and kept hearing people talk about me in the bathroom, which there was nobody there. I looked in the mirror and there was this ghostlike man waving at me, so I got off the bed to look closer and ghosts started flying out of the mirror and vanishing in thin air. I jumped back in bed and threw the covers over my head FREAKING out. I called my best friend so she could keep me sane. As I was talking to her, a million tv screens with different shows appeared on the comforter and tiny ghostlike people were doing different things on the blanket. I couldn't get out of that room fast enough!!
Coming down off E. My friends had an earlier flight back home so I stayed in the hotel room and crashed for a few hours before my flight that night. I was by myself in the hotel room and kept hearing people talk about me in the bathroom, which there was nobody there. I looked in the mirror and there was this ghostlike man waving at me, so I got off the bed to look closer and ghosts started flying out of the mirror and vanishing in thin air. I jumped back in bed and threw the covers over my head FREAKING out. I called my best friend so she could keep me sane. As I was talking to her, a million tv screens with different shows appeared on the comforter and tiny ghostlike people were doing different things on the blanket. I couldn't get out of that room fast enough!!
junctionalfunkie
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Yeah, I've had both the most beautiful and the most terrifying experiences of my life on DMT. Last time I took it, I had to escape from entities keeping me prisoner in another dimension beneath my floor. I was literally screaming for help.
It's crazy how it can provide visual, auditory and tactile hallucinations.
When it's beautiful, it's fucking beautiful beyond description, though.
I may never take it again. If I do, it's gonna be a long goddamn time...
![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
Well I am a bit older then most on here and used to do many diff types of some of the best LSD known to man...lol. Not to mention shrooms, mescaline, peyote. I am not familiar with alll the newer hallucinogens as shrooms are about as far as I go now at my age.
Best Hallucination: It was called Red Devil Acid. It was a tiny piece of paper with a tiny little red devil hanging from a pick that was hanging on a tree. I only did one hit.......literally.........was coming downhill towards Lake Mohave and it hit me coming around a hairpin turn about 90 mph. No Joke...........couldnt wait to get to the lake.........got to the lake right at about sunset....and swear to everything holy..........the entire lake turned into a giant bowl of alphabet soup.....lmao........and I went swimming in it....... building words with the letters etc etc hours later on way home here come the red lights behind me. Im thinking oh shit.......we are so busted. and then realized that not a single one of us in the car and there were four......had zero clothing on........I pull to the side....still tripping and naked........and cop keeps going......lmao. Very fun trip watched my best friend turn into Bilbo Baggins......lol
Worst Hallucination.......Again tiny squares of paper, totally purple. I had a LOT of it on me at a bar I worked in. I went into the ladies room to do a little biz and dam if the bottle didn't drop and I had about a hundrend hits of lsd to try to find on the bathroom floor of the bar.. I had already done some, was starting to trip..and then I would lick my finger get it sticky and then pick up the hit with the wet finger......yes i did that till I had them all. Problem wasw that everytime I licked and picked it up, I was licking acid off the fingertip.........an hour later.....
I am standing on the dance floor of the club work in screaming bloody fucking murder at my best friend to get me the fuck out of there and told her what had happened......so her being the good friend she was decideds I should puke....and she will make me puke.....behind the bar is railroad tracks and she drags me up on these tracks and she says looks at me,,,,,and then she grabs me by the head and shoves damn near her whold hand down my throat to make me puke.......all I could see was headlights from the trains coming down on us.....and it just got worse and worse......I got demons, made her take me to a church to pray. made her take me to the high school so I could run laps.....thought it would calm it down....WRONG. lmao. Watched my face melt, screamed at demons all night long. My poor mother........lol. I had to be at work at diff job at 5 am and was still going stromg as hell. I get there, my bosss looks at me and says go home................I dont know what you did or are on, but you aren't working today.......I couldn't work for the next three days. That shit straight fucked me up. I had like burns and blisters and such. It blew.
Peyote.........different world.............entirely...........mescaline........diff world entirely............ Glad I outgrew my psych days. Still smoke dank.....like mad and have been for about 35 years. Never had a problem with it.....
I do think the drugs now are different then they were then.
Best Hallucination: It was called Red Devil Acid. It was a tiny piece of paper with a tiny little red devil hanging from a pick that was hanging on a tree. I only did one hit.......literally.........was coming downhill towards Lake Mohave and it hit me coming around a hairpin turn about 90 mph. No Joke...........couldnt wait to get to the lake.........got to the lake right at about sunset....and swear to everything holy..........the entire lake turned into a giant bowl of alphabet soup.....lmao........and I went swimming in it....... building words with the letters etc etc hours later on way home here come the red lights behind me. Im thinking oh shit.......we are so busted. and then realized that not a single one of us in the car and there were four......had zero clothing on........I pull to the side....still tripping and naked........and cop keeps going......lmao. Very fun trip watched my best friend turn into Bilbo Baggins......lol
Worst Hallucination.......Again tiny squares of paper, totally purple. I had a LOT of it on me at a bar I worked in. I went into the ladies room to do a little biz and dam if the bottle didn't drop and I had about a hundrend hits of lsd to try to find on the bathroom floor of the bar.. I had already done some, was starting to trip..and then I would lick my finger get it sticky and then pick up the hit with the wet finger......yes i did that till I had them all. Problem wasw that everytime I licked and picked it up, I was licking acid off the fingertip.........an hour later.....
I am standing on the dance floor of the club work in screaming bloody fucking murder at my best friend to get me the fuck out of there and told her what had happened......so her being the good friend she was decideds I should puke....and she will make me puke.....behind the bar is railroad tracks and she drags me up on these tracks and she says looks at me,,,,,and then she grabs me by the head and shoves damn near her whold hand down my throat to make me puke.......all I could see was headlights from the trains coming down on us.....and it just got worse and worse......I got demons, made her take me to a church to pray. made her take me to the high school so I could run laps.....thought it would calm it down....WRONG. lmao. Watched my face melt, screamed at demons all night long. My poor mother........lol. I had to be at work at diff job at 5 am and was still going stromg as hell. I get there, my bosss looks at me and says go home................I dont know what you did or are on, but you aren't working today.......I couldn't work for the next three days. That shit straight fucked me up. I had like burns and blisters and such. It blew.
Peyote.........different world.............entirely...........mescaline........diff world entirely............ Glad I outgrew my psych days. Still smoke dank.....like mad and have been for about 35 years. Never had a problem with it.....
I do think the drugs now are different then they were then.
I wish i could have experienced some greater hallucinogens before i fucked myself over but...
DXM - i was having great closed eye visuals and at this point could barely walk, i visualized myself dieing of a heart attack and awoke to every possible symptom of one including the excruciating pain and numbness. It still happens to this day even without drugs.
DXM - i was having great closed eye visuals and at this point could barely walk, i visualized myself dieing of a heart attack and awoke to every possible symptom of one including the excruciating pain and numbness. It still happens to this day even without drugs.
2 times come to mind.
super strong acid and chronic weed on top equalled total loss of reality (for the first time, and my first negative drug experience) heart beating out of my chest so fast and hard and it was stopping and starting while i spewed up car parts, conrods, pistons, lizards. I thought i was going to have aheart attack after 8 hours like this i finally had a grip on reality.
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Big dose of DXM and weed, then terminated the trip with xanax. went to sleep and became lucid in a dream that i was in hell and a voice was listing my sins and chances i had to turn around. I knew i wasnt awake, and it wasnt a dream, so it had to be hell. a few different scenarios like this later and i woke up a quivering mess hugging my girlfriend in tears and telling her the horror, the horror, i have to change, i cant go to hell.
super strong acid and chronic weed on top equalled total loss of reality (for the first time, and my first negative drug experience) heart beating out of my chest so fast and hard and it was stopping and starting while i spewed up car parts, conrods, pistons, lizards. I thought i was going to have aheart attack after 8 hours like this i finally had a grip on reality.
#2
Big dose of DXM and weed, then terminated the trip with xanax. went to sleep and became lucid in a dream that i was in hell and a voice was listing my sins and chances i had to turn around. I knew i wasnt awake, and it wasnt a dream, so it had to be hell. a few different scenarios like this later and i woke up a quivering mess hugging my girlfriend in tears and telling her the horror, the horror, i have to change, i cant go to hell.