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Your best psychedelic epiphanies

MrGrunge

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I'm sure everybody's had one at some point during their many experiences with psychedelics, but has anyone ever acted on one of these bouts on insight to change their life for the better? Throughout my psychedelic experiments, I've had numerous 'aha!' moments, but until last night I never had one which felt like it might tremendously impact my life for the better. I'm a 20 year-old college student, and for the past couple years I've been living in an existential rut, plagued by anxiety and depression, and not really sure what I could possibly do with my life. I'm enrolled in a Psychology program at a state university (because it's interesting), but I don't see how a Psychology degree could possibly put me in a job I could be happy with, and I don't see how it could possibly justify the amount of money me and my parents were putting into it. But, even though I never felt comfortable in school from day one, I decided to go for two years anyway.

Recently I've been using DXM as a sort of self-therapy tool, as I've found the dissociation to be a great tool for objective self-examination. Last night I was meditating under the influence of about 600 mg of DXM, and I began to think about what makes me happy and how I could use that in the future, and it just hit me straight in the face: Cooking! I've always been a good cook, I like to do it, and jobs are plentiful (not to mention potentially successful). I've worked at a couple restaurants before, but they were of the fast food variety, and while I liked cooking the food, the places were soul-crushingly lame, so it never occurred to me to pursue it any further. There's a local community college that offers a nationally-recognized culinary arts program for a fraction of what I would have paid for this next year of school, and I'm currently in the process of signing up for it. I feel so excited to think I've finally found something that allows me to challenge myself, be creative, and do something with my life. Thanks cough medicine abuse!

Anyway, that's my story. What do you guys got?
 
i think theres already a mega thread somewhere with a similar title, but im not sure if its still around or what. regardless, great story! this is the kind of experience i need as i feel like im in a rut also. DXM isnt quite my cup of tea but im interested in perhaps solo tripping on a good sized mushroom dose and maybe work out the kinks in my psyche, so to speak.
thanks for the inspiration man, and good luck at culinary school!
dont forget about bluelight when youre famous with your own restaurant! lol
 
Just recently, AMT changed my life, after mixing the container up with one full of MXE. Got a huge dose of AMT, amount unknown, and a tiny bit of MXE, rather than the other way around. Last few years have been the harbinger of some hellish experiences, recently took a PTSD self reporting checklist from a psych website, that ended up with the message 'seek help NOW' basically. Now the issues I was being tormented with have been dealt with, instead of being awake for maybe 2-3 hours a day, or every other day, I am full of energy, motivated, and getting my life back on track.

AMT, in me, seems to unlock some wierd, un-speakable effects, catalysing change for the better, does wierd things, seems to always un-lock this strange synchronicity-inducing something or other, not sure how to describe it, but its a fantastic healer, so far, and its done some impressive things and helped me, in effect, find myself again. If that makes sense.
 
^ Nicely summed up! =)


The realization that we are spirits, not bodies.


Also, some really cool pragmatic stuff that actually helps me deal with my anxiety disorder. And revelations about art, beauty, and creativity.
 
LSD definitely taught me that any kind of arrogance is bad for the self, and for interaction with others.
In my early days of use I had a night where I thought I was more than capable of taking acid in most settings, thinking I had it all under control and that was just my inner arrogance that soon taught me a lesson.
So long story short, I dropped on my own at a party full of about 30 drunk people with no one to look after me and had a very paranoid, very terrifying, very evil feeling trip but with further more careful use of LSD, and a lot of reflecting on the experience I ultimately came to the conclusion that all things and all people should be treated with enough respect, and you should never think you're above anyone or anything, but rather just sharing the experience of existence with them or it.
 
the night of the earthquake and the tsunami in japan (march11) i had a few.
i was on 8 hits of blotter, and a friend sent me a msg on facebook saying to turn on the news.
well, i didnt have cable, so on my ipod touch and on the laptop i watched live as a giant wave ripped through japan.
i couldn't really tell what i was looking at at first, then i realized it was water,mud, whole buildings, cars etc... flooding through the land.
i sat on my porch smoking cigarettes, waiting for the end to come.
i swear there was a giant wave coming to take me out, and i was ready.
i then saw a video this lady had posted about the earthquake on youtube, 3 days prior, predicting(i use the word lightly) it and saying it was because of the comet elenin.
that night i experienced the universe in its entirety, to the extent of which that was possible.
id been building my understanding of life and my atheist spirituality and religion and how it applys to me and everyone else for some time, and that night changed everything.
i saw god that night, not a deity, not jesus, but the universe, i felt that oneness, i was ON THE BUS, i'd felt it before, but never like that, not the same set and setting, and it changed my life.
i realized everything about myself, my faults, my strengths, why i was how i was, all that.
i realized that if i kept wasting my life, trying to meet other peoples expectations of myself, i would continue to fail, to hurt and be hurt.
i had a vision in mind of traveling, spreading the love, the experience, the knowledge that comes with not just using psychedelics, but having an open mind in general.
part of me gave up my contempt for the human race, because i realized that life is selfish, while still all about others and the betterment of our species on a whole.
i realized that unless there is a mass awakening, unless we evolve mentally as a whole, we will be doomed to be slaves of our own desires and habits, good and "evil", just and unjust.
i realized we are all guilty, to an extent, even if its only by proxy.
i also convnced myself that some serious shit is going to happen on this planet soon, and to an extent i still believe it.
you don't need a weatherman to know which way the wind blows, and you don't need glasses to see what is right in front of our faces.
the most important part, though, was that feeling of oneness.
it wasn't me and the universe, i was part of it, i was part of something greater, i AM part of something greater.
i will still deny a god's existence, solely on the fact that we as men cannot grasp the ungraspable, we cannot define the undefinable, and because of the evils that religion has brought man. i cannot say there is no god, but i will gladly tell others that "their" god does not exist.
i respect peoples beliefs, but i refuse to acknowledge the presence of something i cannot define,yet that someone else tries to define for me.
logic is the arithmetic of life, and these people continue to tell me 2+2=5. i will admit i don't know, but i expect people to reciprocate the gesture.
anyway, it was a truly amazing feeling, and since then my motto has become "you're not living, unless your ego is dying."
oh, and ive been reading the electric kool aid acid test since then, damn pranksters beat me to it!
i rambled off track a bit, sorry, im always going a mile a minute, especially after all the drugs lol
 
I remember realizing that the royal families of Judea, having continued reproducing until the present day, must account for thousands or tens of thousands of people in the world, being directly descended from David or Abraham or one of those people, and maybe these people tend to still gravitate to positions of power because maybe they do have some sort of special ability or something as the depths of the human mind have never been fully explored though telepathy did once exist, we just don't need to use it anymore. But there are probably people out there who possess special abilities who, themselves, are not fully aware of it.
 
When I was about 16 and took LSA for the first time (a/b lemonade from morning glory seeds) right as I peaked, walking home, I had the revelation that reincarnation is feasible because matter, energy, and virtually any other physical phenomenon you might care to mention follow laws of conservation and consciousness essentially consists of the same stuff as energy and matter.

Also, that (by virtue of existing in our world) nothing is any more or less natural than anything else, since even man-made materials and artificial substances were produced by the same chain of events that put us here, made us creative, and thrust the universe into motion. From the vacuum of space, to the redwood forests, to the modern metropolis, it's all made of the same stuff and it all got here by nature and time. I wonder whether a city growing, from above, in time-lapse, would look like a time-lapse of a crystal formation growing.
 
suffocating sky said:
i realized everything about myself, my faults, my strengths, why i was how i was, all that.
i realized that if i kept wasting my life, trying to meet other peoples expectations of myself, i would continue to fail, to hurt and be hurt.
i had a vision in mind of traveling, spreading the love, the experience, the knowledge that comes with not just using psychedelics, but having an open mind in general.
part of me gave up my contempt for the human race, because i realized that life is selfish, while still all about others and the betterment of our species on a whole.
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That's almost exactly the line of thinking which led me to enroll in culinary school. The only reason I ever went to university was to make my parents happy, and I felt I would somehow be failing them and all they've done for me if I didn't get my degree. I realized that I'm not here to live according to some plan or generally-accepted "path", I'm here on Earth (to quote Vonnegut) to "fart around", and if I can't be happy with who I am, then nobody will. I figure, that if I can do something that not only brings happiness to myself, but also to others ("spreading the love"), then where is the failure? That sounds pretty successful to me. I might not work in a high-profile Psychiatry firm and make a six figure salary, but I could potentially work in good restaurant some day, and it's not unusual for cooks to make 30 - 40k a year, which is more than enough to live comfortably.

I'd like to see the world and experience all of the things I thought were out of my reach. I was always very bitter and jealous towards a lot of my peers, because it seemed they were climbing slowly to the top while I was left in place, waiting for life to come to me. Now, everything seems brighter. Life is still going to be complicated, but I think I've found a way to focus and survive through the rough stuff.
 
Realizing that i am very blessed and very lucky and better off than most people all around the world. That i should be thankful everyday and make sure i dont take anything for granted because many people would die to have the kind of support and security that i am lucky enough to have. That i have opportunities in life and the chance to better myself and i need to take advantage and do my best. All thatt.

Psychedelics are something that i think everyone could use.
 
^In moderate frequency. xD The world would be a crazy fucking place if everyone was tripping acid all the time.
 
TheAppleCore said:
The realization that we are spirits, not bodies.
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Infinite consciousness having the experience of this earthly vehicle :)

Also, that each one of our lives is but a blink of awareness for the universe. so comparatively thin on the cosmic timeline that it barely exist mathematically. but yet, it's all we directly experience.

I can think of more, but I ate a handful of valerian root caps about an hour ago. sooo goodnight.
 
superelephant said:
Also, that each one of our lives is but a blink of awareness for the universe. so comparatively thin on the cosmic timeline that it barely exist mathematically. but yet, it's all we directly experience..
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Woahh this makes me think of into the universe with stephen hawking. He got into seriously the deepest shit i could possibly imagine. I swear my head was hurting after the show. Talking about the the very very beggining of the universe and just taking you through everything. I couldnt imagine watching that on psychedelics
 
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