you werent supposed tor read this (plz critique)

[colicolo]

indicative of every cold story my soft ears hear
is your complete lack of self respect

dont bother to attempt to diagnose me as "old fashioned"
"no one cares anymore"
what have i been fighting for?
a dying breed is not a cancer
careless hearts are not the answer

with certainty i consciously care
theres more to life then the bed you share
if i were the one and only
life wouldnt feel more lonely
i doubt no one would try and save me
we all have to pay our eternal fee
i'm not that far gone yet... again

if wet n wild didnt sell tickets
they would relocate to between your thighs

"if everyone self prescribed like..."
it still wouldnt make it right
i will uphold this uphill fight
you dont trust that i've paid my debts
memory riddled with screams and regrets

what level of suffering do i need to pursue
you'll never understand what i've been through
to transpose from hypocrite to role model

getting over it isn't as easy
as rolling off his chest

i'm glad you feel the need to protect him
by not adding him to your list of "experiences"
couldnt you see that the jealousy would kill him
he was left with the heavy burden of your sin

was he was too special to become a meaningless fuck
was he was too meaningless to become a special fuck

growing up doesnt just affect your nipples