You know what really grinds my gear!?!?

[psyckokilla]

When i am made to look like a liar because other people want to lie FOR NO FUCKING REASON AT ALL!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

And all when im dealing with trying to clean up my image and fix things in my life. And they could give two shits because they love asking for trouble then crying about it to me. And like a good friend and take them in only so i can get sucked into a fucking mind game that just makes me look like king of the two faced trolls when i have done nothing..whats worse is i can see why people would think that its like fate is fucking with me how i get stuck in these trapped no way out situations...adkasd;lsksakdlda;ldklsa;dkal;dkald;k

IM DONE BEING MADE TO LOOK LIKE A FOOL BY FOOLS!!!


but how do i get away from the people i called family for 10 years..friends that have been there...

ive lost myself and everyone

 

[panic in paradise]

you can get away, in a safe healthy way by going into yourself.

 

[Asclepius]

^True that, knowing yourself is the most important thing.

I've cut off attachments from alot of people/family...certain people just wont help you go in the right direction in your life; they are either toxic or are just not condusive to you being a healthy, creative individual. It is better to maintain some emotional distance in the interim, to gain right perspective(of yourself) and then decide where/what you are going to do, or what is the best way to approach things.
It's awful to feel you are being 'controlled', personally I feel pretty insane in those situations.
Look after the wellness of your own Mind, regardless of what anyone else does/says. Everything else will seem more arbitrary once your own sense of Self is stronger.