LetOutTheDark
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Mar 28, 2016
- Messages
- 14
Not new to these forums.. Been browsing for aprox. 5 years since high school.. Pretty sure like alot of other recent new members.. Constantly seeking advice and coming across dismissive comments of reassurance stating my problems are petty..
Drug induced epiphany (and withdrawal) has led me to finally register.. To seek advice.. Because this time around, the search results (and my body symptoms) didn't seem very petty... I started something I never thought I could start and am afraid it will defeat me.. Let my own ignorance allow me to as well, even disregarding the warnings from my 7 year middle school sweetheart.. Yeah maturation and this lifestyle should be avoided at all cost..
Damn I never thought I'd be a bluelighter (no offense at all; I love all you users and appreciate the endless input that's informed me of my own problems). It's just the self-aspirations and expectations from my family and everyone I ever socialize with.. Shouldn't even be caught up with this.. But when I browse queries from the dark side, knowing I am not alone brings hope.. however can't post too much here in this introductions section.
Lol I'm so out of it and in it at the same time.. I'm only 19 BTW.. Finishing upper lever bachelor's at a university (got summer and fall semesters left after this one if I make it through and not just say forget life and bomb my classes) while being fully employed.. Besides gas and tithe my parents force me to pay at church to avoid booting me, thank god I'm not under a bridge somewhere with debt/bills. Sorry if I'm either breaching this sub's guidelines or appearing assholish, it's the neurotoxicity. No harm intended.
*Dr. Nick voice* Hi everybody. I'm just here to LetOutTheDark from within me using the Bluelight.
Drug induced epiphany (and withdrawal) has led me to finally register.. To seek advice.. Because this time around, the search results (and my body symptoms) didn't seem very petty... I started something I never thought I could start and am afraid it will defeat me.. Let my own ignorance allow me to as well, even disregarding the warnings from my 7 year middle school sweetheart.. Yeah maturation and this lifestyle should be avoided at all cost..
Damn I never thought I'd be a bluelighter (no offense at all; I love all you users and appreciate the endless input that's informed me of my own problems). It's just the self-aspirations and expectations from my family and everyone I ever socialize with.. Shouldn't even be caught up with this.. But when I browse queries from the dark side, knowing I am not alone brings hope.. however can't post too much here in this introductions section.
Lol I'm so out of it and in it at the same time.. I'm only 19 BTW.. Finishing upper lever bachelor's at a university (got summer and fall semesters left after this one if I make it through and not just say forget life and bomb my classes) while being fully employed.. Besides gas and tithe my parents force me to pay at church to avoid booting me, thank god I'm not under a bridge somewhere with debt/bills. Sorry if I'm either breaching this sub's guidelines or appearing assholish, it's the neurotoxicity. No harm intended.
*Dr. Nick voice* Hi everybody. I'm just here to LetOutTheDark from within me using the Bluelight.
