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[mashead testing]

All I ever ask myself, is why
nothing by my side
nowhere to run nowhere to hide
im forever being denied
No trust,
my heart rusts away
covered in pain
but why?
The only word
I will never understand
the only emotion
I can never save myself from
Too many doubts
no sense of happiness
in my heart
why wont this end
Bring myself back to where I was
never ending questions
there never will be us
fooling my eyes will ruin me
But its almost too late
though ive said that before
almost to late
but just what for
Im too weak to do anything
no energy no ambition
and no love to bring
why cry when the tears have died
Too many answers
to the possible questions
I dont know what to believe
nothings right
Its all lies
even the lies are lies
and from my heart
my soul just cries
....nowhere to run nowhere to hide.

 

[MDMA desciple]

{{{{{{{mashie}}}}}}}

 

[rm-rf]

you can always just take life meekly and ignore the fact that there will always be questions, yet not always answers...

 

[E-girl]

i follow your posts in Social quite regularly, you always seem to have the ability to make me smirk... i dont know if its just because you're witty, or because your bluntness is just humorous... but out of 30,000-some members, doesnt it feel good to know you're noticed?
this is a side of you i rarely get to see. i think a lot of people in social hide behind their identities. that's ok. but in this forum, i've noticed that the true people come out. they let raw emotion take the form of beautiful words. they tell the story of their lives, and put it out there for everyone to read.
you have a beautiful life, my dear. your sadness, your obvious pain, your scaredness, your emptiness, come out so vividly, so brilliantly, in this piece. it completes the mental image i have of you, and makes you a little more real than just a s/n in my mind.
all the feelings you describe, especially the hollowness, hit home for me. there are a lot of questions i'm always searching for the answer to also... and often forget what the questions were in the first place. but i believe whole-heartedly that eventually, something comes along in our lives to fill that void... and it makes all the searching worth it.

 

[mashead testing]

:D
Hey, thanx for that E-girl, I think if people see my posts all over the board they will see every part of me hopefully, I am a eratic person very up and down but generally im fascinated by people and the world. I like to think if you read my posts then you are seeing me, an exact representation of how I am feeling at that time or how I see things.
I love to write, I love words and most importantly I love the world.
However, loving myself isnt always easy, but im growing and learning everyday
Take care, Robert.

 

[liquidocean]

I agree, mash, you are an interesting, complex person.

 

[nephil]

Your mind amazes me as well, complex and scattered, yet secure and independent. I am very interested in what lies inside. :D
You know you are unique!