frostyangel
Bluelighter
Well.. as of this moment.. I believe that I have conquered some of the demons that I hold within my head.. thanks to help from some of my friends. And a few uncaring assholes...
It's funny how some lessons that need to be learned are harder than others and when I wake up I realize that my dreams are a lot higher to reach these days. When the damage from my nightmares leave one less step to recovery.
And even though a little piece of me breaks off.. It changes me some what to make me stronger.. and I often wonder do I miss that old naive me? But if I were still the same person that I was before would I be sitting here today?
I feel like a set of flashcards have been endlessly going of in my head.. flashing through the images I'm trying to see past my eyes that I can not get in order.. just for one second to stop any tears from flowing through my eyes. I blink just so I can wash them painful feelings away.
I've got those memories and feelings that I think and hope and wonder that if every time you hear that song you remember how you grabbed my hand.. maybe the words will just never be the same for you... and in my mind I always feel that silly hollow pit ... why is it that some memories that are created together have two different meanings... mine and yours.
And I've now come to realize, I know how to break my own heart.
I can't quite grasp the fact of one feeling from the next.. when one can feel so incredible...and the other is left to look absolutely ridiculous.
And why is it that there are always words that are better left unsaid.. and in your mind they are just screaming to come out.
And you can't remember the last time you met justification to your demands that you needed to hear.... and memories that you know you should jot down.. because once their gone.. the memory usually begins to fade away with it... and you have to search back to remember all those times you swore to each other that you would never forget.
***
their are a lot of people who think that I have forgot all the good times.. but as one wonderful woman once wrote:
I will remember you
will you remember me
don't let your life pass you by
weep not for the memories
remember the good times, that we had
don't let them slip away from us when things got bad
clearly i first saw you, smiling in the sun
i feel your warmth around me
i want to be the one
and I will say... "I will never forget"
It's funny how some lessons that need to be learned are harder than others and when I wake up I realize that my dreams are a lot higher to reach these days. When the damage from my nightmares leave one less step to recovery.
And even though a little piece of me breaks off.. It changes me some what to make me stronger.. and I often wonder do I miss that old naive me? But if I were still the same person that I was before would I be sitting here today?
I feel like a set of flashcards have been endlessly going of in my head.. flashing through the images I'm trying to see past my eyes that I can not get in order.. just for one second to stop any tears from flowing through my eyes. I blink just so I can wash them painful feelings away.
I've got those memories and feelings that I think and hope and wonder that if every time you hear that song you remember how you grabbed my hand.. maybe the words will just never be the same for you... and in my mind I always feel that silly hollow pit ... why is it that some memories that are created together have two different meanings... mine and yours.
And I've now come to realize, I know how to break my own heart.
I can't quite grasp the fact of one feeling from the next.. when one can feel so incredible...and the other is left to look absolutely ridiculous.
And why is it that there are always words that are better left unsaid.. and in your mind they are just screaming to come out.
And you can't remember the last time you met justification to your demands that you needed to hear.... and memories that you know you should jot down.. because once their gone.. the memory usually begins to fade away with it... and you have to search back to remember all those times you swore to each other that you would never forget.
***
their are a lot of people who think that I have forgot all the good times.. but as one wonderful woman once wrote:
I will remember you
will you remember me
don't let your life pass you by
weep not for the memories
remember the good times, that we had
don't let them slip away from us when things got bad
clearly i first saw you, smiling in the sun
i feel your warmth around me
i want to be the one
and I will say... "I will never forget"
