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[BrightEyesIsMe]

Tonight I looked at the world
I saw what I had to conquer
It sent me into a spin
How am I to do this?
With my heart stolen by my love
And my hours stolen by my life...
I have really nothing to fall on right now
I turn around and begin to leave out
I tell you all not to watch because I do not want you all see me fall to peices
It is painful and yet with no more heart inside of me I feel nothing
I feel hot anger rage in my head and it burns my cheeks to pinkness
I feel hate for all of those who betray me and do me wrong
I just want to tear them apart
Make them feel what they make me feel
But I can't, it is not my place anymore
I don't think it ever was my place
I HATE YOU!
It makes me cry and makes me die slowly inside
I pretend to be happy for your sake
I pretend life is on the high
But deep inside I am crying to headaches
For a time there I found my place
But I don't want this
This is not what I supposed to be doing
I am not in the right place
Why did I put myself into a place that does not want me
I don't want it either!!!!!!!!!!!
I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I FUCKING hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I feel so childish and yet I feel like I must hide it in spite of growing up
WHAT IN THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO DO?
I should be so freaking happy
I have a good fam, a boyfriend that loves me, a job that is not half bad
I am just too damn screwed up!!!!!!1
Maybe I just need to go get drunk
Just kidding that ain't gonna help nothing
Well this is the end of my damn write for tonight
Goodnight

 

[LadyWidow]

 

[skjalff]

I liked this, emotional and forceful. Do you think you could just settle for your own (but little) piece of the world, instead conquering it? I think there is at least some degree of contentment in stability.. "Sometimes it's not about getting what you want, but wanting what you get.." I felt exactly like you in this poem at some point (mid teen age..) But then I guess at some point people sorta need to learn to claim whats there for them in the first place and only go after the new desires having a firm hold on what they already have, something that makes them content.

this was prolly uncalled for, but anyway, just my 2c




skjalff

 

[Dekloren]

I am not in the right place
Why did I put myself into a place that does not want me

That line strikes me..As all of your other pieces..

 

[froggygirl]

I tell you all not to watch because I do not want you all see me fall to peices

I like that line.

You sound so confused. I've been in those shoes before... it's not fun. Expecially when you see how perfect your life seems, but you're still not happy... that doesn't make things any better..

 

[BrightEyesIsMe]

Thank you for sharing that you have felt the same. It makes me realize that I am not alone in the world. I am doing better though.