yeah music

Soja everything changes https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4IshazvspKI

God I really miss my old friends. I just feel alone right now for some reason. Rationally I cant complain but I still feel sad about it. I just feel lost on this Saturday. I keep wondering what can I do to be a better friend, son, and just person. I try to be honest thoughtful and loyal but I come up short sometimes. I don't know what else I can do. I miss the past. I miss Electric Forest. I miss New years eve sound tribe. I miss Panic in the rain on good roll. I miss it all yet it cant happen again. I am sure I will have another time when I feel that stable and connected. I just wish it was now. I wish I could just call up my friend and go hang out. I wish things where not complicated but they are. In my heart I know its tears over spilt milk but I still feel it strongly.

 

It would do you a world of goof to read up on Buddhist philosophy. You aren't separate from the past. The here and now is all you have, and by dwelling in the past, or future, you cannot be HERE NOW. I'm not perfect at staying in the present, as you can see from my posts here, but the practice of meditation and studying from Buddhist philosophies has been the best thing I've ever done, and I see improvements frequently.

That said, I do miss my past as well. I miss my friends- my adventures with them, my music festivals. It;s a shit feeling for sure. I'm always questioning whether my old friends ever even think of me or miss me as I do them.

 

Oh man yeah wondering if they ever think of me drives me crazy too. Also wondering if our friendship ever meant as much to them as it did to me.