Well, I came across 33 bucks. I bought a 6 pack of Molson XXX and am debating if I should head to the city for 2 bags of H or perhaps a coupla nicks of weed with the remaining 25 dollars.
My family is watching me carefully. Yeah I'm going to rehab friday but the game hasn't changed. I still need to use to get through a day.
I just need to play this game until friday. How many relationships can I destroy by then? How many bridges can I burn in a few days?
I'm a pretty good addict. I can lie, manipulate and act with the best of them. The thing is, I'm so fucking tired of all the extra shit a broke junkie needs to do to get high.
People (ignorant people) associate getting high with having fun. ITS NOT FUN. Yeah, its momentarily pleasurable but I can't remember the last time it was fun. Its an escape for me. An answer that dulls the feelings, the emotions, the self-disgust.
If I spend this money on drugs I'll need to come up with excuses for why I didn't use it for its original purpose. Also, I won't be able to slam dope until I provide those answers.
My family is watching me carefully. Yeah I'm going to rehab friday but the game hasn't changed. I still need to use to get through a day.
I just need to play this game until friday. How many relationships can I destroy by then? How many bridges can I burn in a few days?
I'm a pretty good addict. I can lie, manipulate and act with the best of them. The thing is, I'm so fucking tired of all the extra shit a broke junkie needs to do to get high.
People (ignorant people) associate getting high with having fun. ITS NOT FUN. Yeah, its momentarily pleasurable but I can't remember the last time it was fun. Its an escape for me. An answer that dulls the feelings, the emotions, the self-disgust.
If I spend this money on drugs I'll need to come up with excuses for why I didn't use it for its original purpose. Also, I won't be able to slam dope until I provide those answers.