Moving into a huge house with my partner and having the beginning of the life that seemed impossible only a few short months ago is making me happy!
I sat down and had a think about what I really wanted from this life and it hasn't changed since I was a kid, just the general outlook on achieving that life dimmed in recent years.
Crackheads, crackheads, crackheads. If I kept using to the level I once was. I would eventually die from it after messing up my life and that of my family. If I kept in physical contact around friends wheo were not friends but merely dickheads or crackheads then I would never be happy.
My life as it is now is dickhead free. Moving onwards and upwards from the dregs of society has actually been hard though. I don't think too much about previous relationships I have had, friendships that fizzled as they were unhealthy, I think about the good people that have come and gone then come back into my life now I have straightened up.
My best friends from Perth are playing a role again, they are over the moon about my health and my circumstances and I am feeling that I can once again resume being a top shelf mate to my buddies over there.
My Melbourne crew, well, the ones that have kept off the gear are in constant contact and have babies on the way, new houses, life in going ahead. I talk still to those who are using and dealing but its not the same, I don't see them to score anymore so its kinda fizzled out. But I would never drop them, even Jay who is doing okay.
My ex husband is going well, we spoke recently. After 10 years together and a horrible property dispute and acrimonious split- it took time for us to appreciate each other again. He is a great guy, I hope he is happy in his world.
Ben, you are so precious to me. Our home will be filled with love and laughter and the love I feel enveloping me from you so far away right now- is so warm and soft. I wish you were here with me now, but I will see you next weekend for a booty call!!!
SO FUCKING HAPPY!!!!
I sat down and had a think about what I really wanted from this life and it hasn't changed since I was a kid, just the general outlook on achieving that life dimmed in recent years.
Crackheads, crackheads, crackheads. If I kept using to the level I once was. I would eventually die from it after messing up my life and that of my family. If I kept in physical contact around friends wheo were not friends but merely dickheads or crackheads then I would never be happy.
My life as it is now is dickhead free. Moving onwards and upwards from the dregs of society has actually been hard though. I don't think too much about previous relationships I have had, friendships that fizzled as they were unhealthy, I think about the good people that have come and gone then come back into my life now I have straightened up.
My best friends from Perth are playing a role again, they are over the moon about my health and my circumstances and I am feeling that I can once again resume being a top shelf mate to my buddies over there.
My Melbourne crew, well, the ones that have kept off the gear are in constant contact and have babies on the way, new houses, life in going ahead. I talk still to those who are using and dealing but its not the same, I don't see them to score anymore so its kinda fizzled out. But I would never drop them, even Jay who is doing okay.
My ex husband is going well, we spoke recently. After 10 years together and a horrible property dispute and acrimonious split- it took time for us to appreciate each other again. He is a great guy, I hope he is happy in his world.
Ben, you are so precious to me. Our home will be filled with love and laughter and the love I feel enveloping me from you so far away right now- is so warm and soft. I wish you were here with me now, but I will see you next weekend for a booty call!!!
SO FUCKING HAPPY!!!!
