Well. I followed up with 80mg 60 minutes post first 60mg dose. Though I had ate in between, which I think has effected the results as I quite honestly don't feel any of the expected symptoms of a recreational (140mg) Temazepam dose. Either the time elapsed between doses (60-70 minutes), or the full stomach with the second, larger (80mg) dose reduced the expected effects.
I feel a little relaxed, but not even as relaxed as 20mg Diazepam makes me. I don't feel sleepy. Felt/feel no euphoria. Don't even feel particularly anxiolytic, if anything I'm a little distressed - almost to the point I'm considering popping 10-20mg Diazepam or 2-4mg Alprazolam, because I am feeling quite edgy/anxious.
I also feel some sort of opiate withdrawals (or DOMS from training, or still lingering effects from recent flu), as my joints and muscles are aching, and I feel like shit. So I downed a small OC (20mg) dose.
Overall, I think I'm beginning to realize that Alprazolam is the best benzo for my anxiety - almost instant effect that
always works. In high enough doses it works for my insomnia, which is what I was hoping Temazepam would do, but if 140mg doesn't have me feeling even remotely sleepy, then I'm best off with the 6-10mg Xanax for insomnia treatment (more cost effective, and more importantly it works).
Though I really need to address this with my Psych because I think I need proper insomnia mediaction; Zolpidem/Stilnox/Ambien, any other suggestions I should discuss with him? My weekly appointment is due early next week, and my insomnia is no longer gradually getting worse it is rapidly increasing in both extent and intensity - I am having successive nights of zero sleep that is adversely affecting my academic performance, not to mention familial and social relationships. Some days, the compounding effect severe sleep deprivation due to my insomnia has on my anxiety results in what would be clinically diagnosed as severe agoraphobia as I am afraid to leave my home.
And this injury that has recently resulted in my dependence on Oxycodone has not helped the situation at all. As I now find myself taking OC absent pain, but suffering withdrawals that only compound my anxiety! And have me in serious discomfort bordering on pain - I'm sure many opiate (ab)users here can sympathize.
Argh! Just typing this post has me panicking as I think about this circular nightmare I am currently living
Breathe, breathe, happy thoughts...there is no impending doom descending upon me.
Any and all advice will be greatly appreciated. I am in a state of despair right now, fellow BLers.
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Venrak, you're like a bright shining light of comfort I find solace in on this forum. I can't thank you enough for being here - despite the fact I do not personally know you, and most likely never will have the privilege of meeting you - a calming influence and reassuring voice I find in you, which I need right now.
In all sincerity, thank you, my friend.