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Xanax - First time - Not Very Good & Q's

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Well, my psychologist prescribed me kpins for social phobia along with the 125 mg of zoloft i have been taking for so long, like 3, 4 months. Anyway, I told her I didnt really think kpins were working to good, which was the truth and I wasnt giving much thought to the recreational use.It would be nice if the xanax came with euphoria but thats not really why I wanted it. I heard it actually works better. I asked her if I could try xanax xr. Anyway, my mom rushed to the pharmacy, and she gave the pharmacy the prescription. For some very strange reason the pharmacy accidently gave me regular .5 mg tabs instead of the xr ones i was supposed to get. When I saw it, I didnt really give much thought, and said to myself oh whatevr.

Anyway its Tuesday morning, and I havent had any benzos for like 5 days or so. I take one tab of the xanax which is .5mg. I go to the train station, get on the train, maybe 10, 15 stops pass, about 2/3s my way to school in Manhattan. Thank god I didnt get to there. Anyway, while I was riding on the train halfway through my commute I started feeling it kick in. I noticed it had a similar feeling to which I get from kpins, the same feeling of fatigue and sleepiness and very slight calm,.... but it was muuuuuuuuuuuuuuch stronger. Slowly over a time period of a few minutes I noticed trouble. First my faced flushed with a warm feeling. Then After this for like 10 mins I had huge maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaasive headrushes and I didnt even move. It got so maaaasive that I started seeing everything blurr. It wwas familiar, because I have passed out before from massive headrishes when standing up after sitting for a while. Everything was darkening as if the lights were dimmed and I could only see outlines of people. Still massive headrushes. I was thinking to myself, "Is this the euphoria people talk about?".
And then I knew it couldnt be because I wasnt feeling good. I could barely see anything around me just outlines of figures and seats on the train and doors and maybe a few metal poles next to me.

Heres where it gets really ugly. I started getting nauseas. Very nauseas. I felt like I was about to throwup. At this point I definately realized that I had od'd with .5mg of xanax ( well I didnt have a tolerance). Then it happened. I threw up. Puked. Hurled. Vomited. like 3 or 4 times. In a crowded train.

How embarrassing right? not for me luckily I had tons of xanax in me. I threw up most of what was in my stomach but the last one I was about to hurl, I swallowed it because I didnt want to make too much of a mess! lol, it was really messy anyway. I swallowed that bit which meant I still had a very very little bit of xanax left. Anyway people were not as mean as I thought they would be, at least some. A few people gave me napkins and tissues. I got off at the next stop wherever it was,( it was in downtown brooklyn) and I lay down resting on a column trying to get my self together and not feeling sick. A lady came to me and asked if I was ok and I said i was fine. She asked me if I wanted the station police to come. I said yeah. So the police come bring me to the in the subway police station, and send me to the bathroom to cleanup.

It took about 3 hours to cleanup!:p First I washed off my clothes, which took 15 minutes. Then I left my shirt to dry because it was really wet because it needed a lot of cleaning. That took like 3 hours.

I was lucky I swallowed that last bit of vomit because it some xanax in it which my body used. If i didnt do that, I would be embarassed as hell.

So the police called my mom, then I talked to her. I went home on the train, which was very uncrowded because it was towards the suburbs(sorta a few 3 or 4 story buildings) I got off at my stop. Walked home about 3 blocks. When I got home, the door was locked!!:X :X 8( 8( It took me 30-45 min to open the side door with my metro cart, a metal thingy, and my student id card. I finally got in. When I got in, lol8( my OLDER brother was inside the whole time and thought that some stranger was breaking in and he hid in our bedroom. I got soooo fuckin mad.:X I thought no one was home. Anyway I get home rest. watch tv, of course cleanup and take a shower first, then eat, then like a little more tv, then its been like 5 hours, come down stairs, go on my computer, and start typing this.


What do you think about this? Do you really think I could get that sick with 0.5mg of xanax, generic, with no tolerance. Or was it the zoloft I was taking that caused the problem. Or Was I allergic, is it possible to be? Did I have much of a tolerance or not?
 
Sounds like you had a good time, I've never tryd xanax, its a tranquilizer right? i remember i took a red tranquilizer pill wioth a friend in school once cause i thought it would be like DXM, or ketamine... haha i slept threw all my classes, went home and slept till morning.
 
MikecMikec said:
Sounds like you had a good time
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um is that sarcastic? he threw up all over a subway train

to the OP, i don't really know...not many peole complain of nausea on benzos, so perhaps you ate something else that made you sick? i'd give the xanax one more try (when you're staying at home!) before giving up entirely. also, is it imperative to use while you're at school? benzos can impact short term memory so if you can make it through school without the benzos, that might be better.
 
Thanks, Ill give the xanax another try but with a lower dose, maybe .25mg. Or if I take it at night then .5mg. But the thing is I want it to work while Im at school. Short term memory is the least of my concerns and kpins dont seem to affect my memory. Anyway, ill try a half mg at night to build some tolerance, and see what I should do in the morning.:)
 
well with that low of a dose effect on memory should be pretty minimal

why would you take it at night? do you have insomnia? xanax has a very short half life, so it would be completely out of your system by the morning
 
Thats a pretty weird reaction, .5mg for me just makes my limbs feel a little heavy and a bit more chatty, no head rushes:\

You know how sometimes you stand up to fast and your vision goes blurry and you get light headed, well i think maybe it messed with your blood pressure or something that made you go blurry.

I remeber the first time i had xanax i popped 4mg and felt dandy:D

Nice report though.
 
I don't get any euphoria from benzos either. I guess some people do and some people don't. That's a strange reaction to Xanax, for sure. Generally benzos don't induce sickness, just drowsiness.

You know, it seems to me that the people who get euphoria from benzos have a very high natural tolerance. I've taken xanax at up to 2mg, and it knocked me the fuck out with absolute total memory loss. Absolutely no recreational value whatsoever. 1mg also knocks me out but with spotty memory rather than total loss. Even .5mg makes me very tired, although I can stay up if I stay moving. I can't imagine taking 4mg (in response to the above post).

Anyway, be careful with benzos. Last time I was on a business trip, I was nervous about the plane and was in a bit of kratom withdrawal, so I took 2mg of clonazepam (Klonopin) along with 1mg of alprazolam (Xanax). I'm not sure why I thought I could take that much. Well, my memory is totally gone from before I even left my house that morning. Next thing I know I'm in my hotel room about to leave to go to my company's office. I didn't even notice anything strange until about halfway there, when I realize I'd somehow managed to drive to the airport, park my car in long-term parking, get my ticket, find the right gate and get through security, take the 3-hour plane ride, get a rental car, and drive to the hotel from the airport which was a good 20 miles away, without previously knowing directions. Scary event...
 
Benzos dont seem to affect my memory. Ive taken 1 mg of kpin. Not a thing different about my memory. It was with a small tolerance. Xanax hasnt effected it either. I tried it .5mg at night and .25 at morning. The day went smooth. I had hardly noticeable good feelings, not really that much to even carea bout, during math class. Is that euphoria? Maybe cause I took a low dose. And had a small tolerance there too. I dont think it was the xanax that did that so its alright.

About the memory, benzos dont seem to effect me on it. Even if they did, I can still manage cause I take notes in class.;)

Thanks for the responses.

Next time im gonna make sure I get xr!:X

Oh yeah, im not here just for medical advice. I take drugs for recreational purposes too. And im not a girl. Dont ask. People just assume that all the time.
 
this was a pretty entertaining read for a xanax report :) do you get motion sickness much? i find some drugs on the bus make me wanna blow chunks.

i walked out of my job on 2mg of klons the other day. i took it cuz i hated the job and wanted to relax, but i think the dose put me so at ease that i just screamed fuck it and tossed my uniform in the trash, then took a nice stroll in the rain.
 
Reminds me of what I saw as a teen waiting on a train station.

Train pulls up. Doors open.

BLLLLLLERK!! (someone vomits out the train)

Doors shut. Train drives away. :)
 
Benzos dont seem to affect my memory. Ive taken 1 mg of kpin. Not a thing different about my memory. It was with a small tolerance. Xanax hasnt effected it either. I tried it .5mg at night and .25 at morning.
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That's not really high enough to blot out memory. And Xanax is pretty much the worst for memory loss.
 
Do you have any eating disorders? I have seen something like this happen when I was in rehab, to an older anorexic woman. She was taking .5mg 3-4 times a day on the first day, and she got really sick.
 
Ill definetaly have a blackout if I eat a couple of mgs of xanax. And someone else said that if I had eating disorders. I dont think so, but you never know cause the thing is im a really low weight for my height, almost underweight, and im still losing a few pounds every couple of weeks.Currently 145 at 6 2'', in August I was 155. Im losing more slowly though. I dont know if im trying to lose weight and not eat food, or if I just dont feel hungry cause of the depression I had. But I force myself to eat food.


I think the culprit may be that I have a low body weight, ate a big breakfast that morning ( huuge bowl of special K with lots of whole fat milk, it was huuuuuuge, like a serving bow). Also I had no tolerance. Maybe thats why?

But the more likely theory is that I have low blood pressure. Whenever I stand I get extremely dizzy, and I passed out a couple of times like that, almost did on the train. I think that I was so anxious that I thought that I od'd and I would pass out, or even die but not really, that I vomited from being so anxious. I dont think the xanax kicked in by then. It had only been half an hour to 45 min. Does it start kicking in then? I dont think it does when I eat a huuge bowl of cereal. Dont worry though. I took .5mg at night, then half of that in the morning, and it helped very very little bit, but no nausea. I dont think that the nausea was related.

Anyway, my doctor said she suggests that I stopped taking it, but didnt say I had to. My mom said the same thing.

Oh and yes, I do take at night because I have trouble sleeping most nights.
 
Strange, from only .5 too! The first time i took xanax it was like I went through a time warp. One second I'm sitting there watching tv and letting this new warm comfy feeling come over me, then 5 hours later i'm sitting there, in the same position, wondering what the fuck just happend. I'm glod i didn't go out!
 
I don't know if I have a natural tolerance to benzos but I feel euphoric on high doses. If I am drinking just about any amount will make me feel very tired. On the other hand if I take xanax or valium by themselves or with bud I have a great time. I have taken xanax up to roughly ten miligrams (without a tolerance) before and stayed awake for hours without the aid of any stimulates (caffiene or otherwise).

It becomes unpleasent in the following days not knowing what happened though. I get this feeling that I acted like a jerk to my friends even if I didn't. I'd be careful with using any benzo on a daily basis. They tend to give me anxiety in the following days. Best to use as a sort of parachute for bad days. But to each his own. good luck
 
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Strange, from only .5 too! The first time i took xanax it was like I went through a time warp. One second I'm sitting there watching tv and letting this new warm comfy feeling come over me, then 5 hours later i'm sitting there, in the same position, wondering what the fuck just happend. I'm glod i didn't go out!
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Sometimes I get a veeery dissociative feeling, when im not on xanax or anything, and it feels like as if the whole world is drifting by and everything is happening by itself. Like im not doing anything or controlling my body, and the world goes on. Its not at the point of out of the body experiences, but its weird. Im not sure if its a dissociative feeling or some kind of half-blackout, like you had. I think that its more dissociative, because I can pretty much remember what happened (lacking some details though), but I still feel like everything is going by itself and im just there doing nothing. My body living by itself, my subconscios mind splitting from my conscious one. My conscious mind can see my subcosncious mind living. Although I still feel as if i am in my body, it doesnt feel like I am controlling it consciously, sort of like thefeeling you have when you just start staring into space for no reason, except that I could actually be doing something instead of staring, liking playing video games or cleaning the house, and it feels as that my body just subconsciously knows that Im supposed to do that. Its not pleasurable, but you might say so perhaps, in the sense that its interesting to feel it. It is moderatley common, perhaps every few days or even less, and lasting for several hours.
 
i think it is impossible for someone to od on .5mg of xanax. Me and 3 other friends have taken 160mg oxys with 4mg xanax and none of us had a high xanax tolerance. Most i felt was veryyyy sleepy and thats it, well plus the euphoric feeling that i cant explain. whatever else you were taking mightve contributed to the episode on the train. most likely zoloft. Zoloft is unpredictable when mixed with benzos. So try taking xanax without the zoloft and youll see the euphoric feeling that everyone talks about.
 
But if I stop taking the zoloft it will set back the work its done on my depression and social anxiety. What if I do it for one day? Will it get the euphoric feeling? Will it set back the help the zoloft has done?
 
Wouldn't do it.

One of my professors from College told me that it takes up to 7 days just to get plasma peak levels back to normal after missing just one dose. I happened to remember it because I was taking zoloft at the time. Drugs like that need a consistent daily dosing to be effective. It also why it takes 2-3 weeks to start working. In all reality I don't think it would really screw you up to skip one day, but it's a benzo your trying. It's not like it's OC or some amazing opiate that puts you on cloud nine. I've found most people that abuse benzos are get "euphoria" from them have VERY bad anxiety, and it lets them feel normal and relaxed. It's not really a high or rush as opiates bring.
Just my experiences.
 
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