Xanax and Alcohol

[mamamia69]

I don't take her calls anymore, but emails is something I can't avoid. But still the fucking divorce is done, i am not out of the woods.

 

[pally pete]

I don't take her calls anymore, but emails is something I can't avoid. But still the fucking divorce is done, i am not out of the woods.

Apologies if i sound patronising but you can block her emails quite easily

I started low dose infrequent Benzo use nearly 3 Years ago.

I hope your will power is massive and your life situations improve sooner rather than later.

Because here i am 3 Years later in the biggest hole of my life i would not wish on my worst enemy!

To say each Day/Night is a struggle is an understatement of epic proportions, i have some amazing Family and Friends and the love and care im shown by those close to me is unbreakable at times, without it i dont know if i'd still be here, even in my darkest of dark moments where im literally crawaling the walls or wanting to throw myself out of my window i try and try to hold on to the thought of those i care for and even if at times when i dont believe it (Which when you suffer crippling Anxiety/Depression) You find it hard to believe that others care for you (IME) I wouldn't want to cause pain to others and besides i want to see my life, my friends and my families life to the natural conclusion... for example ' I want to see how the story ends' is the way i put it.

Sorry about the ramble, good luck to you and everything in your life, i just worry for others who begin using Benzos due the state my own use/abuse has left me in.