Written With Tears*

[goodnitestar]

im crying as i write this so keep that in mind*
Ive got a ten ton weight of anger
and more heavier still is the pain
and the pain
ive hiden with a mask of mascara
now runs down a face concealed with blush to show
im healthy
im ok
dont worry about this kid
shes a doll
just a fucking doll
never a emotional mess of insanity
with inclinations of death
and lost in a love , that is no longer
and tears stream like rivers , and pour like the waterfall
and shes not looking like any doll ive ever seen
breathing in deep , choked breaths
writting all the while to try and surface the need
to deny all that i feel
this place , its not home
no its just a building , just a few rooms
its nice here , just like a doll house
but its not our house
its so empty and useless
no real beauty
for i cant see your face,
cant cook you dinner
or hold you till i fall asleep ,
wander what your doing now
even though i just heard your voice
as i broke through and called you out of desperation ~ need of a freind
i still couldnt say anything
didnt tell you I missed us
i realized then
you didnt care that i was feeling down
my words softer than usual
and i know now this charade
is falling apart
that this doll is not made of china
but of skin and bone
[ 23 September 2002: Message edited by: goodnitestar ]

 

[TrickyGirl]

*I thought this was really good and I really enjoyed reading it*

 

[plazma]

*wry grin*
This poem is really quite a heartbreaker.
-plaz out-

 

[frostyangel]

Nice work, your very good with expressing your emotions.
Let it out gurl, let it out. Crying to me is one of the strongest moments, because your showing your human, and you might be at your weakest moment, but releasing all those unwanting feelings...gives you contentment.
Every need to cry on a shoulder, im me...god knows we all have spent so many nites in front of these computers crying..
*hugZ*

 

[yoUr bLiSS]

this was so beautiful and honest and real...this was my favorite line...

that this doll is not made of china
but of skin and bone

 

[E-girl]

i was archiving and came across this, and started kicking myself for missing it the first time around.
you don't need to hear me say "i've been THERE before". so let's just leave it at, those sleepless nights sometimes lead to some of our better days... and i'll be waiting anxiously for the next time you write about some fabulous thing that has happened to you so you can look back on this and say "things can only get better."