I've posted now three, 'things' (don't know if they are stories, well one is for sure, the other are sort of autobiographical with some fantasy/sci-fi elements) in the words section, they are all one piece of a whole, there may be more to come, and there may not.
Here are the links:
Anyway, those are all pretty long except the short story. I DARE you to try to read through all of them straight, when you're confronted with the massive walls of text you'll find.
Well, my dad started chemotherapy today. Finally they changed him from roxi 15's (every 3-4 hours) to Fentanyl patches, so he should be feeling a lot better. I bought two benzedrex inhalers so I was tweaking the whole time. Been a bad week, I'm very angry, and Very Alone. Still got one inhaler left for tomorrow, which is good.
I'm also down to taking .875 mg of suboxone a day. For everyone tapering, I really suggest the following when you get below 2 mg. Go from 2->1.5->1->.75 so far this has worked out pretty well for me, though I'm not quite down to .75, but .875. I dose twice a day if you're interested, so I'll do (at 1mg for instance) .5 in the am, and .5 late afternoon. It seems if you keep cutting your dose down by 1/3 or 1/4 there is no drastic difference in terms of the 'effects' you get from your dose (where there is if you say, jump from .5->.25), the only thing I notice when tapering this way is that sometimes between the hours of about 11am-3pm, I'll feel withdrawal symptoms (I wake up and dose around 7:30 am) while I'm adjusting to the new dose. The beneficial purposes of tapering are that a)it gives you a purpose when you have no life, and b)maintaining at micro dosages is cool because you feel each dose wayyy more than you do if your taking 8mg a day, and if you're having a really bad day, you can double your dose and get a chill little buzz going. Nothing too exciting really, and I'll be curious to see if that changes once I get used to maintaining on a SL dose of .25mg 2x day. Basically, I want to see how low of a dose you have to adjust to and maintain on where you can start to feel noticeable agonist effects by upping your dose on a bad day (basically testing out the ceiling). Like it would be sick if I could maintain at .5mg/day, and then once a week take 2mg and get blasted, but I'm thinking I'll probably have to lower it down to .25mg/day.
Here are the links:
- The Age of Narcotic Enlightenment- a manifesto, time capsule and satire in three parts
- A Chance Encounter with an Angel and a Demon
- Confessions of a Speed Freak
Anyway, those are all pretty long except the short story. I DARE you to try to read through all of them straight, when you're confronted with the massive walls of text you'll find.
Well, my dad started chemotherapy today. Finally they changed him from roxi 15's (every 3-4 hours) to Fentanyl patches, so he should be feeling a lot better. I bought two benzedrex inhalers so I was tweaking the whole time. Been a bad week, I'm very angry, and Very Alone. Still got one inhaler left for tomorrow, which is good.
I'm also down to taking .875 mg of suboxone a day. For everyone tapering, I really suggest the following when you get below 2 mg. Go from 2->1.5->1->.75 so far this has worked out pretty well for me, though I'm not quite down to .75, but .875. I dose twice a day if you're interested, so I'll do (at 1mg for instance) .5 in the am, and .5 late afternoon. It seems if you keep cutting your dose down by 1/3 or 1/4 there is no drastic difference in terms of the 'effects' you get from your dose (where there is if you say, jump from .5->.25), the only thing I notice when tapering this way is that sometimes between the hours of about 11am-3pm, I'll feel withdrawal symptoms (I wake up and dose around 7:30 am) while I'm adjusting to the new dose. The beneficial purposes of tapering are that a)it gives you a purpose when you have no life, and b)maintaining at micro dosages is cool because you feel each dose wayyy more than you do if your taking 8mg a day, and if you're having a really bad day, you can double your dose and get a chill little buzz going. Nothing too exciting really, and I'll be curious to see if that changes once I get used to maintaining on a SL dose of .25mg 2x day. Basically, I want to see how low of a dose you have to adjust to and maintain on where you can start to feel noticeable agonist effects by upping your dose on a bad day (basically testing out the ceiling). Like it would be sick if I could maintain at .5mg/day, and then once a week take 2mg and get blasted, but I'm thinking I'll probably have to lower it down to .25mg/day.
