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Kenickie
Bluelight Crew
god damnit i hate you so much i can barely breathe
your soft little girl voice and tiny plump pierced and tattooed body, and how you always know which buttons to push to make me angry, to make me miss you, to make me consider your pleas of run away with me! lets escape together, lets be the fierce and filthy hedonists we're damned to be, unrepentant and with nothing to live for and nothing worth dying for. i hate you, i hate that it works every time, i hate that you're everything that i hate in myself, sensitivity and submission and softness and meekness and everything i hate about women, and not only are you all these things, but you see nothing wrong in flaunting these disgusting faults, because that's who you are. everytime i see your face pop up on my phone i want to beat you senseless. women like you can't exist because women like me exist. you told me today about cutting a hole between the fat on your stomach and your real stomach and letting some guy fuck your new hole. you said you didn't care and you didn't feel anything but a tickle. i was so sick to my stomach i could barely stand or see and i stumbled into my room past my confused boyfriend and shut the door. i bit my tongue so hard i spoke to you through the blood in my mouth and i wished i could put you down like an animal. your sin is repulsive and makes me feel like there is a film over my body, i feel like a whore for being so close to you. for wanting you to be happy. for wanting you to be okay. for loving you. for wanting to protect you, wanting to give you sparkly things and pretty dresses that flatter that marilyn monroe figure that make you look like a gorgeous domestic housewife as you clean up last night's mess and good drugs and brushing your hair. i'm going to burn in hell for you and you don't care at all. you don't give a shit about my life, about where i am, where i'm going, you're such a selfish child to call up after months of silence and beg me to leave my life and start over, for the zillionth time, with you! your flippant comments on my sexuality, my life with a man. i fume and wish i had a cock to punish fuck you with. my bones tingle when i think about hurting you, teaching you a lesson. making you into the nothing toy you say you feel like. leaving you tied up in my room for days. i hate how this all excites me. i chew last nights fentanyl and hope it soothes me -- at least it keeps me from gnashing my teeth. i'd cut off all your hair to shame you, and to shame me, for falling into your trap.
i hate how i am not in love.
your soft little girl voice and tiny plump pierced and tattooed body, and how you always know which buttons to push to make me angry, to make me miss you, to make me consider your pleas of run away with me! lets escape together, lets be the fierce and filthy hedonists we're damned to be, unrepentant and with nothing to live for and nothing worth dying for. i hate you, i hate that it works every time, i hate that you're everything that i hate in myself, sensitivity and submission and softness and meekness and everything i hate about women, and not only are you all these things, but you see nothing wrong in flaunting these disgusting faults, because that's who you are. everytime i see your face pop up on my phone i want to beat you senseless. women like you can't exist because women like me exist. you told me today about cutting a hole between the fat on your stomach and your real stomach and letting some guy fuck your new hole. you said you didn't care and you didn't feel anything but a tickle. i was so sick to my stomach i could barely stand or see and i stumbled into my room past my confused boyfriend and shut the door. i bit my tongue so hard i spoke to you through the blood in my mouth and i wished i could put you down like an animal. your sin is repulsive and makes me feel like there is a film over my body, i feel like a whore for being so close to you. for wanting you to be happy. for wanting you to be okay. for loving you. for wanting to protect you, wanting to give you sparkly things and pretty dresses that flatter that marilyn monroe figure that make you look like a gorgeous domestic housewife as you clean up last night's mess and good drugs and brushing your hair. i'm going to burn in hell for you and you don't care at all. you don't give a shit about my life, about where i am, where i'm going, you're such a selfish child to call up after months of silence and beg me to leave my life and start over, for the zillionth time, with you! your flippant comments on my sexuality, my life with a man. i fume and wish i had a cock to punish fuck you with. my bones tingle when i think about hurting you, teaching you a lesson. making you into the nothing toy you say you feel like. leaving you tied up in my room for days. i hate how this all excites me. i chew last nights fentanyl and hope it soothes me -- at least it keeps me from gnashing my teeth. i'd cut off all your hair to shame you, and to shame me, for falling into your trap.
i hate how i am not in love.
You're a fool.
And your relationships will all play out the same, as long as you stubbornly refuse to respect those around you.
Yours is a losers game. Time will prove me right and leave you alone or with a doormat to wipe your angst on.
Good riddance to you and all those like you.
And your relationships will all play out the same, as long as you stubbornly refuse to respect those around you.
Yours is a losers game. Time will prove me right and leave you alone or with a doormat to wipe your angst on.
Good riddance to you and all those like you.
Dear *
You want to be just friends but I'm in love with you. I don't know what to do and how to do it and it's slowly eating me away. I don't want to abandon friendship but it's not looking like I'll fall out of love with you anytime soon and I don't know how long can I keep trying before I go insane or break contact with you.
You want to be just friends but I'm in love with you. I don't know what to do and how to do it and it's slowly eating me away. I don't want to abandon friendship but it's not looking like I'll fall out of love with you anytime soon and I don't know how long can I keep trying before I go insane or break contact with you.
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ashstorm
Bluelighter
Sonic,
I can't handle your head games anymore.. I may be a pet, but I'm not a toy..
Playing games with a highly submissive person isn't a great idea, and you've put me in a very interesting headspace. I care about you a lot, but I don't like being played and I don't like being treated like a toy. When you decide that you want to play by my rules I'll consider treating you like a real person again..
~N
I can't handle your head games anymore.. I may be a pet, but I'm not a toy..
Playing games with a highly submissive person isn't a great idea, and you've put me in a very interesting headspace. I care about you a lot, but I don't like being played and I don't like being treated like a toy. When you decide that you want to play by my rules I'll consider treating you like a real person again..
~N
Mariposa
Bluelight Crew
Kenickie, you know a girl who cut a new hole in her stomach for guys to fuck? We need to catch up, stat 
I must hear the story behind this!
Dear xxxx,
So you're living out of that piece of shit vehicle "by choice"? More like by way of your choices. You know they're going to tow it again, and I don't have a basement anymore. I know I'm going to run into you tonight, unshowered and defeated. I feel badly but I'm glad I got out in time. You are losing it, and that's something coming from me.
KPR,
Mariposa
I must hear the story behind this!Dear xxxx,
So you're living out of that piece of shit vehicle "by choice"? More like by way of your choices. You know they're going to tow it again, and I don't have a basement anymore. I know I'm going to run into you tonight, unshowered and defeated. I feel badly but I'm glad I got out in time. You are losing it, and that's something coming from me.
KPR,
Mariposa
syymphonatic
Bluelighter
dammit ****,
you've been skating along in our relationship for SO LONG, and now it's too late. you've full on lost me. when i said i wanted to try again, and not breakup like i had said the night before, what i really meant was "i meant to save the breakup for after i graduate this quarter so i won't have to deal with the logistical nightmares of splitting up our 4 year life together in my last quarter of school."
and FUCK YOU for starting smoking again.
you ignored my pleas and didn't take my needs seriously and well - now you got what you wanted.
you've been skating along in our relationship for SO LONG, and now it's too late. you've full on lost me. when i said i wanted to try again, and not breakup like i had said the night before, what i really meant was "i meant to save the breakup for after i graduate this quarter so i won't have to deal with the logistical nightmares of splitting up our 4 year life together in my last quarter of school."
and FUCK YOU for starting smoking again.
you ignored my pleas and didn't take my needs seriously and well - now you got what you wanted.
hyroller
Bluelighter
D,
the fact that women (myself included) have allowed you to punch seriously well above your weight is infuriating beyond all words and comprehension.
you are deceptive. deceptive people are invariably weak and seek to manipulate where the execution of real, self-reflexive intelligence fails them.
what you have is nothing special, or interesting or remotely inviting for those of us that are wise to your self-serving ways.
lastly. if you weren't a part-time purveyor of substances, I doubt many people would subject themselves to a second of your countenance. you are now hovering around the bottom of a long list of options. foolish!
farewell!
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B,
If you hadn't remembered my birthday (albeit belatedly), I wouldn't have had cause to speak to you again.
I was kinda hoping you wouldn't remember.
Strange.
the fact that women (myself included) have allowed you to punch seriously well above your weight is infuriating beyond all words and comprehension.
you are deceptive. deceptive people are invariably weak and seek to manipulate where the execution of real, self-reflexive intelligence fails them.
what you have is nothing special, or interesting or remotely inviting for those of us that are wise to your self-serving ways.
lastly. if you weren't a part-time purveyor of substances, I doubt many people would subject themselves to a second of your countenance. you are now hovering around the bottom of a long list of options. foolish!
farewell!
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B,
If you hadn't remembered my birthday (albeit belatedly), I wouldn't have had cause to speak to you again.
I was kinda hoping you wouldn't remember.
Strange.
ashstorm
Bluelighter
S,
I sit here alone on a friday night, remembering the nights you kept me company so I wouldn't get into this state.. I miss you, you're a good influence on me..
I'm spiraling out of control, I'm devestated that you've thrown me aside again like a toy that you've lost interest in.. I hate the fact that even though i told myself time and time again that I wouldn't get emoitionally involved that I did... I hate the fact that I care about you so much and I hate that I can't let go of you..
I wish you didn't play games.. I'm not a toy to be played with..
-N
I sit here alone on a friday night, remembering the nights you kept me company so I wouldn't get into this state.. I miss you, you're a good influence on me..
I'm spiraling out of control, I'm devestated that you've thrown me aside again like a toy that you've lost interest in.. I hate the fact that even though i told myself time and time again that I wouldn't get emoitionally involved that I did... I hate the fact that I care about you so much and I hate that I can't let go of you..
I wish you didn't play games.. I'm not a toy to be played with..
-N
mdmaftw!
Bluelighter
Dear Andrea,
I used to flirt with you at church when we were just freshman in highschool. I thought I loved you and for some reason I have a connection to you that keeps me looking for your pretty face every day, ever since you left that church my life was ruined, I pray I find you and if I do.. If I see you one day.. I will run up to you and pick you up and hug you for a good 30 seconds to a minute, I know this is probably a fantasy but damn... do I ever just want to have a conversation or even better make love to you so passionately!! Dear Andrea I will always love you.
I used to flirt with you at church when we were just freshman in highschool. I thought I loved you and for some reason I have a connection to you that keeps me looking for your pretty face every day, ever since you left that church my life was ruined, I pray I find you and if I do.. If I see you one day.. I will run up to you and pick you up and hug you for a good 30 seconds to a minute, I know this is probably a fantasy but damn... do I ever just want to have a conversation or even better make love to you so passionately!! Dear Andrea I will always love you.
Rogue Robot
Bluelight Crew
Dear _______,
Posting passive-aggressive maneuvers directed toward me across the site doesn't make me mad; it makes me laugh. I find it rather ironic that you can say these things to the entire world, but you would never, ever be able to say them to my face.
I also find it ironic that you find that you are never at fault about things only to unilaterally place blame.
I urge you to seek professional help regarding the matters referred to above, along with the other issues that you have.
Whether or not you think you are in control of my feelings and well being, the truth is that you are not; I am.
Sincerely,
RR
Posting passive-aggressive maneuvers directed toward me across the site doesn't make me mad; it makes me laugh. I find it rather ironic that you can say these things to the entire world, but you would never, ever be able to say them to my face.
I also find it ironic that you find that you are never at fault about things only to unilaterally place blame.
I urge you to seek professional help regarding the matters referred to above, along with the other issues that you have.
Whether or not you think you are in control of my feelings and well being, the truth is that you are not; I am.
Sincerely,
RR
rangrz
Bluelighter
Dear.....
We where such good friends, and now you have become my opponent? Very well, if that is what you seek. But I think it was better before.
We where such good friends, and now you have become my opponent? Very well, if that is what you seek. But I think it was better before.
Mariposa
Bluelight Crew
Dear nameless,
I asked for time and you didn't give it to me, but it gave me a chance to set appropriate boundaries. Don't go out of bounds again because there won't be a next time. I had to stand my ground for reasons I am not going to say.
Dear other nameless,
Do what is right for you. I'll make up this week's bad mood to you either way. You are a wonderful individual and I promise I am a lot more fun ordinarily. I appreciate your patience.
Dear squirrel outside,
I can't believe you just ate that mushroom. I think you should stick to nuts if you make it through eating that as it's probably poisonous and I don't want to find a dead body on the way to my car. I saw you starting to walk a little funny already. It better be because you are tripping.
I asked for time and you didn't give it to me, but it gave me a chance to set appropriate boundaries. Don't go out of bounds again because there won't be a next time. I had to stand my ground for reasons I am not going to say.
Dear other nameless,
Do what is right for you. I'll make up this week's bad mood to you either way. You are a wonderful individual and I promise I am a lot more fun ordinarily. I appreciate your patience.
Dear squirrel outside,
I can't believe you just ate that mushroom. I think you should stick to nuts if you make it through eating that as it's probably poisonous and I don't want to find a dead body on the way to my car.
I saw you starting to walk a little funny already. It better be because you are tripping.
RareForm
Bluelight Crew
Dear C -
I just want to be on the same page. i want you to feel like you have enough affection from me, and everything else is non-deliberate in it's direction for us -- developing into whatever it becomes. hopefully, it's something fancy. because i like fancy things. except fancy feast (cats can keep that)
I just want to be on the same page. i want you to feel like you have enough affection from me, and everything else is non-deliberate in it's direction for us -- developing into whatever it becomes. hopefully, it's something fancy. because i like fancy things. except fancy feast (cats can keep that)
Pillthrill
Bluelighter
Dude, I'm sorry that you got bused by your wife telling me how much you think about me and how much you want me and what not. I told you that it was a bad idea to speak of such things and that it was creepy but you didn't listen. You told me your marriage was in shambles and you adore me when THERE IS NO WAY IN HELL I WOULD EVER SEE YOU IN PERSON!
I'm glad you wife caught you. Cause either you need to do some serious work or she needs to start looking for someone to isn't thinking about TRYING to cheat on her. CHEATERS GET CAUGHT! Well I can't call you a cheater if you don't think, thinking about sleeping with me and getting your warm fuzzies and whatever else from me and my pics on the net is emotional cheating so... its more like NEVER GONNA HAPPEN WANNA BE CHEATER POS.
"My marriage is in shambles" HA not what she thought! Poor woman.
You have some fast talking to do asshole, but maybe I did her a favor. I told you not to tell me those things...
I'm glad you wife caught you. Cause either you need to do some serious work or she needs to start looking for someone to isn't thinking about TRYING to cheat on her. CHEATERS GET CAUGHT! Well I can't call you a cheater if you don't think, thinking about sleeping with me and getting your warm fuzzies and whatever else from me and my pics on the net is emotional cheating so... its more like NEVER GONNA HAPPEN WANNA BE CHEATER POS.
"My marriage is in shambles" HA not what she thought! Poor woman.
You have some fast talking to do asshole, but maybe I did her a favor. I told you not to tell me those things...
Bella_Luvs_Blues
Bluelighter
Jason,
Everyday you call me from jail and I answer your call,you need money I send it and I have paid almost 10,000 for your lawyer..WHY THE FUCK DOESN"T YOUR GIRLFRIEND TAKE CARE OF YOU...I'm just your bitch on the side and I do more for you then she ever has...Why can't you see that I love you and I deserver you.....You know what...You DONT DESERVE ME...and I'm not going to be second best anymore!!!
p.s. when you call tomorrow i will answer and just pretend as i always do that everything is ok
Everyday you call me from jail and I answer your call,you need money I send it and I have paid almost 10,000 for your lawyer..WHY THE FUCK DOESN"T YOUR GIRLFRIEND TAKE CARE OF YOU...I'm just your bitch on the side and I do more for you then she ever has...Why can't you see that I love you and I deserver you.....You know what...You DONT DESERVE ME...and I'm not going to be second best anymore!!!
p.s. when you call tomorrow i will answer and just pretend as i always do that everything is ok
spaceage4eva
Bluelighter
Ian
Damn, it's been so long since you left, your daughter has grown into an amazing woman and i'm proud of her more and more with every passing day. You meant more to me in the short time that we were allowed than my own father. You did your best to prove to me that you were the right man for my mother when you didn't have to. I wish I could've told you how I felt, why I was such a jerk at a young age, so distant, cold, unthoughtful, disrespectful at times. By the time I started warming up to you, it was too late and you were slowly being taken away from us. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't at least have you in the back of my mind, wondering where our lives would be if you were still here. My life could've taken such a turn for the better with your guidance but I had to grow strong without it and I ask myself what would you do if you were here to help point you daughter in the right direction, but draw no answer. I'll see you when I get there, whenever that is.............
Damn, it's been so long since you left, your daughter has grown into an amazing woman and i'm proud of her more and more with every passing day. You meant more to me in the short time that we were allowed than my own father. You did your best to prove to me that you were the right man for my mother when you didn't have to. I wish I could've told you how I felt, why I was such a jerk at a young age, so distant, cold, unthoughtful, disrespectful at times. By the time I started warming up to you, it was too late and you were slowly being taken away from us. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't at least have you in the back of my mind, wondering where our lives would be if you were still here. My life could've taken such a turn for the better with your guidance but I had to grow strong without it and I ask myself what would you do if you were here to help point you daughter in the right direction, but draw no answer. I'll see you when I get there, whenever that is.............
peter at work,
your a two faced wanker, i see right through you and would love to hammer you, but i cant cause no one else in the company can see you for such a wanker you are.
madeah, you are so damn sexy, its bad to look but i cant help looking... stop burning my eyes!!
your a two faced wanker, i see right through you and would love to hammer you, but i cant cause no one else in the company can see you for such a wanker you are.
madeah, you are so damn sexy, its bad to look but i cant help looking... stop burning my eyes!!