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I honestly don't think I could describe my Mdma experience with words. The music! Oh....My......GOD the music! It's like every song I heard was as if I've heard it for the first time in my life. Even songs I've heard a million times before. They where almost unrecognizable in....the....best way. There is just an impossibly large difference between listening to music, and actually FEELING the music. I don't think I've ever in my life actually FELT the music. I would literally get lost in it as if every song was this beautiful visual array of lights, thoughts, visuals. It was almost akin to how people describe synesthesia. And I had absolutely zero awareness of my body. Just imagine that. No aches and pains. No physical discomfort. No negative thoughts, or insecurities. Just........the.......music.

And I know it may sound like a first time experience. Like I'm over exaggerating. But I've taken Mdma at least 7 times before. And none of those experiences came close to this. Which makes me wonder...... why? Why was this experience was so much more profound???. I really couldn't explain how much love I felt, how impossible good the music sounded. It was like every note sent shivers down my spine in the best way! The base especially! All the other experiences I had where good. Really good. But this was just so much different.

Has anyone had anything like this??? Is this really how good rolling is???? Because my dose was about the same as every other time I've taken it.

I really really wish everyone could experience this though. Because no matter how depressed you are, how much pain you see or experience in this world.. You CANNOT deny that pure unadulturated love still exists somewhere in each of our hearts. And as hard as it may be to access in everyday life, the fact that it's somewhere in there gives me hope. This is coming from a brain that's basically known nothing but depression and anxiety it's whole life. Beauty exists in ALL of us. It's just really really hard to access. lol. But it IS somewhere inside. No matter how depressed, or miserable, or hard life is. There is something beyond it. Something so beautiful that using words might as well be meaningless.
 
There’s a whole thread here about how different batches of MDMA can possibly vary. Yup what you just felt is why rolling is what it is, and people like myself cherish MDMA so much. Welcome :)

-GC
 
G_Chem said:
There’s a whole thread here about how different batches of MDMA can possibly vary. Yup what you just felt is why rolling is what it is, and people like myself cherish MDMA so much. Welcome :)

-GC
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Precisely this. There are a lot of people on this forum and in real life that are in search of the magical quality of MDMA which you describe. It is increasingly rare these days so I would advise you if you can get more of it and you can (easily) afford it, buy as much as you can and treasure it, keep it for special occasions. The last time I ran across this kind of quality, I offered my contact to buy his entire stash for 5 times the going rate and he refused, because he had exactly the same experience as me and decided not to sell a single one of those pills and keep them to himself. This really sucked but I completely understood and would have done the same

Glad you had such a good time. About 10-15 years ago, this kind of quality was everywhere and it was the standard. Sadly that no longer seems to be the case
 
cosmosmariner said:
I so know what you mean. I’m happy for you that you had that magical roll.
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Yah. It literally
BlueBull said:
Precisely this. There are a lot of people on this forum and in real life that are in search of the magical quality of MDMA which you describe. It is increasingly rare these days so I would advise you if you can get more of it and you can (easily) afford it, buy as much as you can and treasure it, keep it for special occasions. The last time I ran across this kind of quality, I offered my contact to buy his entire stash for 5 times the going rate and he refused, because he had exactly the same experience as me and decided not to sell a single one of those pills and keep them to himself. This really sucked but I completely understood and would have done the same

Glad you had such a good time. About 10-15 years ago, this kind of quality was everywhere and it was the standard. Sadly that no loinger seems to be the case
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So it must have been cut mdma this whole time? Omg if that is what people think mdma is actually like I feel so bad. Sure it was always good..really good even. But this was indescribably better. Like a whole different drug. Why is real mdma so hard to get???
 
G_Chem said:
There’s a whole thread here about how different batches of MDMA can possibly vary. Yup what you just felt is why rolling is what it is, and people like myself cherish MDMA so much. Welcome :)

-GC
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There is honestly nothing like it. Just 😍😍😍
 
cosmosmariner said:
I so know what you mean. I’m happy for you that you had that magical roll.
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Thanks. I just think Everyone should experience this though! I can’t see how it wouldn’t change the world for the better. Especially with corrupt politicians, and that like. I really believe it would change so many people for the better if it was used right.
 
Bl42 said:
Thanks. I just think Everyone should experience this though! I can’t see how it wouldn’t change the world for the better. Especially with corrupt politicians, and that like. I really believe it would change so many people for the better if it was used right. It’s just to damn beautiful to allow room for hate and negativity.
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Bl42 said:
Thanks. I just think Everyone should experience this though! I can’t see how it wouldn’t change the world for the better. Especially with corrupt politicians, and that like. I really believe it would change so many people for the better if it was used right.
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Haha reminds me of the streets blinded by the lights "they could settle wars with this , if only they will, imagine the world's leaders on pills , and imagine the morning after, wars causing disaster, but this ain't tomorrow so now I still love ya"

 
Bl42 said:
Yah. It literally

So it must have been cut mdma this whole time? Omg if that is what people think mdma is actually like I feel so bad. Sure it was always good..really good even. But this was indescribably better. Like a whole different drug. Why is real mdma so hard to get???
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We've been debating why for hundreds of pages (First discussion here. Second discussion here. See the second post in the second discussion for a nice summary of the discussion so far). Summarized, we have no idea. Could be that something changed in the process of making MDMA. Could be that there are certain impurities that are in play. In some cases it could indeed be cut MDMA. Could be because of a very technical, chemical reason. Or it could be a different reason entirely. There are also a lot of people that hold the opinion it's due to something that changed in the people themselves by using it too often. But there are a lot of people like you that are relatively new to it and have the same experience. I was firmly in the camp of "it's something with the people themselves and with myself" up until a certain experience a few years ago that completely changed my perspective on it, comparable to your experience. The thing is, a lot of people are experiencing this difference with MDMA 10-15 years ago. We have no idea why. But the fact of the matter is that when I started using MDMA 20 years ago, all MDMA (or better said, all MDMA experiences) was like you describe and if I would have gotten the experience that is mainstream these days from a batch I bought back then, I would have thrown it in the trash and given the person I bought it from an earful. The MDMA of back then changed me as a person and everyone around me as well, for the better, it changed my outlook on life and helped me get out of a dark path I was on. I really miss it. Don't get me wrong, my experiences these days are still very enjoyable but for different reasons and much less earth-shatteringly, mindblowingly, otherworldly amazing. It's exactly like you say, like it's two different drugs
 
Specified said:
Haha reminds me of the streets blinded by the lights "they could settle wars with this , if only they will, imagine the world's leaders on pills , and imagine the morning after, wars causing disaster, but this ain't tomorrow so now I still love ya"

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This is one of my favourite tracks of all times, it instantly takes me back through so many beautiful nights. I always listen to it when I roll at home, followed by Unity - Orkidea. Kind of a tradition for me
 
new2drugs said:
It it becomes legal that will solve all these problems
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I hope you're right. But the thing is, if this difference in quality is down to some chemical reason and GC/MS lab tests these days still say that the MDMA is pure, if they keep making the MDMA like the underground producers these days do but then legally, we still won't get the quality of back in the day back again. We would need to bring this discussion to the attention of the legal producers somehow, perhaps starting by making sure they start from sassafras oil (safrole) as a precursor in stead of PMK and taking it from there
 
Specified said:
Ahhhh it was actually weak become heroes. Even better imo
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Lol, I was thinking "I don't remember those lyrics in blinded by the lights? Must be some alternate version". That explains it. Still glad you made me listen to the first track again, it's been too long. The second one I didn't know yet. I've added it to my library, good stuff, thanks
 
BlueBull said:
Lol, I was thinking "I don't remember those lyrics in blinded by the lights? Must be some alternate version". That explains it. Still glad you made me listen to the first track again, it's been too long. The second one I didn't know yet. I've added it to my library, good stuff, thanks
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Haha Np
 
Bl42 said:
I honestly don't think I could describe my Mdma experience with words. The music! Oh....My......GOD the music! It's like every song I heard was as if I've heard it for the first time in my life. Even songs I've heard a million times before. They where almost unrecognizable in....the....best way. There is just an impossibly large difference between listening to music, and actually FEELING the music. I don't think I've ever in my life actually FELT the music. I would literally get lost in it as if every song was this beautiful visual array of lights, thoughts, visuals. It was almost akin to how people describe synesthesia. And I had absolutely zero awareness of my body. Just imagine that. No aches and pains. No physical discomfort. No negative thoughts, or insecurities. Just........the.......music.

And I know it may sound like a first time experience. Like I'm over exaggerating. But I've taken Mdma at least 7 times before. And none of those experiences came close to this. Which makes me wonder...... why? Why was this experience was so much more profound???. I really couldn't explain how much love I felt, how impossible good the music sounded. It was like every note sent shivers down my spine in the best way! The base especially! All the other experiences I had where good. Really good. But this was just so much different.

Has anyone had anything like this??? Is this really how good rolling is???? Because my dose was about the same as every other time I've taken it.

I really really wish everyone could experience this though. Because no matter how depressed you are, how much pain you see or experience in this world.. You CANNOT deny that pure unadulturated love still exists somewhere in each of our hearts. And as hard as it may be to access in everyday life, the fact that it's somewhere in there gives me hope. This is coming from a brain that's basically known nothing but depression and anxiety it's whole life. Beauty exists in ALL of us. It's just really really hard to access. lol. But it IS somewhere inside. No matter how depressed, or miserable, or hard life is. There is something beyond it. Something so beautiful that using words might as well be meaningless.
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Can you report back if the 2nd or 3rd time you tried this batch lost its magic or was different? Thanks
 
Started raving in 88 and didnt come across a moody pill til 92...I'm pretty sure pmk/saffrole has a major part to play. I had o e of those super strong Dutch pills and to my mind if was shit.
 
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