It Is True.so, accordingly, i am keeping a running tab of how many times I use recreational drugs in the year 2009. for this, if I, for instance, use cocaine and dope on the same day, this still counts as one use day. basically, when I use a recreational drug during a day, no matter the quantity, I'll count that day as using.
so far I've got 16 use days since January 1, 2009.
one month I used four times. two months I didn't use at all.
16 / 9 (months so far) = little less than two per month.
At the end of this year, I will post a use total, mostly for my own bookkeeping purposes. But, in conclusion, at least this far, I am very glad at my number. I attribute a great deal of my success in not getting roped into an ongoing habit on my prescription of Subutex. It's been a godsend for me. I cannot imagine my life without Subutex---it means that much to me. Yea I plug it almost everyday to catch a little buzz, but who gives a shit, I'm only human. The drug has successfully done what it is marketed for: it's allowed me to lead a normal lifestyle without constantly wanting that next fix.
I am so happy with these numbers. So far, with Subutex, and with my parental/rehab safety net in place, I have been able to chip right along. A word on chipping: it, for me, really is the way to go. One cannot win over heroin, you cannot continue to achieve great kickass highs if you continue to use. Tolerance is the bitch on every junkie's back. Using approximately once every two weeks has afforded me enough great hits to leave me perfectly content---and I'm only happier knowing that I am using heroin/oxycodone in the best possible way: occasionally. Word up to that. I, for one, never thought that was possible.
