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I dont knowthe medical opinion to my cluterfuck as they keep adding to my misery. Prescribed by my doctor I am on lorazapam 1 mg 4x, hydroxyzine 25 mg 2 x, sertraline 100 mg a day, loritab 20 mg a day (2 10-325 apap), metropropol 100 milligrams a day lyrica 300 milligrams a day and seroquel 75 milligrams a day. I'm still waiting to see more specialists and what not for various health issues I'm praying they don't prescribe more crap.

Anyway I've managed to maintain the doses of the meds mentioned for 3 straight years, no ups or down of anything. Tolerance has set in to what would floor a lil lady like me (I'm 5'3 about 135lbs-140) just turned 30.

Dont get me.wrong now, I've done my fair share of drugs, coke, weed and lsd In particular.

Lately I feel... worn. Tired, hard to keep up with life's daily chores. I drink as well, I've tried inpatient rehab but always go back to crap. The adage "I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired" is how I feel... but the doctors say I need my meds. I have PTSD, bipolar, anxiety and lupus. I don't know how to feel anymore..... and yes I know I should not drink with the meds I am on, the sad part is I don't even feel the vodka anymore.

Sorry to lay this on all you I would like opinions from you guys as my husband doesn't understand how I feel or addiction, though he takes great care of me. Sorry if I am posting this on the wrong section as well... move my post if need be mods.

Thank you, I hope you all stay safe! Although it may seem hypocritical of me at this point harm reduction is VERY important!
 
I don't know much about your conditions, but you said yourself that you shouldn't be drinking with you medicine. Especially with how many of them you have.

Are doctors allowed to prescribe all of that to a single person? I'm no doctor, but that doesn't look right.
 
Seroquel can make you extremely tired, sleepy and exhausted. I hate this medicine. Can't live my life and have that.
 
Look into DBT and mindfulness meditation for sure. I find seroquel does nothing to me except cause sleep to set in, I never feel it the next day. But I am a very high energy person. Drinking destroys everything IME. Sorry about your lupus!
 
Apparently they can prescribe it devilsgospel. I see a psychiatrist and a rheumatologist, same ones.. for 3 years I've never doctor shopped or anything like that although since pharmacies track thay now I'd think doctor shopping is impossible even if you wanted too

I am currently seriously trying to quit drinking... cold turkey makes me shake so I am "down to" (boy that's sad when I think about it) .... I am down to 3 shots a night I figure one demon at a time... or at least thas my addicts brain speaking.

Erikmen I agree... this was the hardest script of all to get used to. 3 years later I must drag myself out of bed to get going... 20 minutes later I'm awake. I allow myself 30 minutes extra if I have to get up earlier than normal or will cheat for a night and take 50 mg instead of 75. If I do it just once night I do get any mania or a bipolar episode
 
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This is probably a dumb question CfXrx but what does DBT stand for? I have been looking into some meditation routines... I'm not a fan of yoga though I know lots of people enjoy it as well.

Thankfully Lupus has not completely ravaged me since I was little.. like 8 years old little... Dialysis whole nine yards. Luckily i bounced back easily then. Every once in a while s hospital stay involving too much prednisone for comfort is needed. But I have managed to stay off the stuff and immunology suppresives...after my brush with death. I know though I can't keep going how I'm going or I'm going to hit a brick wall and it's not going to be pretty.

I have a beautiful family... I dont know why I can't stop. The amazing part when i think back is when I was pregnant 5 years ago I was the picture of health... and off EVERYTHING... now I'm the complete opposite. Not many woman will say but I really wish I felt like I did when I was pregnant lol

I always think to make myself feel better there must be a reason im here.... but I'm obviously pissing it away.

Sorry I guess that didn't help... thank you all for your responses and listening to me ramble. I don't want to wallow in pity.. I want to get better...
 
Its a behavior therapy designed to help people chill out when they get stuck in their head too much :) Simple stuff like noticing the different colors in the room, and focusing on breathing.
 
Ah thanks : ) I've looked into breathing techniques mostly so I stop the hyperventilation during a panic attack, I will look more into it, thank you for the suggestion, I appreciate it.
 
I seem to be lucky with side effects, I had no real problems on seroquel, just made me sleepy, none of this feeling dumb stuff.

But I was on a low dose, never know though, everyones different'
 
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