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Worst thing you've done during drug use or to get drugs?

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What is the worst thing you have done while high? Or what is the worst thing you've done TO get high? Or both.

I think my absolute worst thing I've done TO get high was swoop some pills from my fiance's stash and then play stupid when he asked me if I had taken them.

While high? Probably be overly dramatic during an argument to the point of feelings being hurt.

I will say that I'm EXTREMELY cautious to the point of being paranoid about being careful with my use so I won't have "out of control" moments that effect others...lol.
 
I've worked the same job for 15 months straight, so pretty much supported my fairly new heroin habit. :/ I haven't had to engage in illegal activities...yet.

However, an old man in my neighborhood wanted me to roleplay while I cleaned his house. He's para waist down in a wheelchair. So I dressed up like red robin hood, he was the big bad wolf, and we RP'd. He paid me 150$ to clean his house in that outfit. Lol.
 
Worst thing I ever did to get high would probably be when I was in high school I smoked weed from various disgusting contraptions (printer paper joint, soda can, tin foil pipe, etc).

This isn't really bad, mostly just trashy, but one time I was very drunk and high and I had sex with this girl in my friend's bed while there were 3 other people passed out next to us, including her cousin. I also shit myself while on DXM, which was pretty unfortunate.
 
Your basic sexual favors to someone you'd prefer not to touch. Usually under the pretense that I just wanted to be hanging out and partying there anyway, but I'm sure we both knew what was really going on with it.

What i felt more regret about was that by doing that shit, i was cheating on someone I really was falling for. I knew treating him right should've been more important than my bad habit was.
 
I was thinking then I saw the dxm reply above, I remember one time taking a whole pack of mucinex it was around 1700 dxm. I remember throwing up neon orange
Shitting liquid fire. The next day my left arm was twice the size of my right. I met some guy and smoked a few bowls of hash. Then sat in a park for a few hours. Everything was like super Mario Bros. I Def don't miss dxm, but sometimes it seems like When I'm throwing up this bile it's almost the same. I can't believe I spent like 30 mins to find an empty bottle, anyways sorry for this drunk rambling , I'm just upset after throwing up some bile
 
Oh ya, the makeshift pipes...I once made one out of PVC pipe that I melted together with a torch. It was massive and I have no idea WHY I decided that was a great idea as tinfoil and pop cans were readily available.

I once went to a party where I proceeded to get shit faced. The owner of the house who was throwing the party was attempting to get in my pants the entire night...ended up hooking up w someone else in house owners bed. HA

LMFAO, I've never shit myself...however I've puked all over myself and is arguably worse. Also, I once filled up a vase with vomit and set it back where I had quickly removed it from.

Realizing I'm a classy lady.
 
Broke into my grandmothers safe and stole her dilaudins and percs.. hate that I did it, I've apologized and we made our peace.. still impressed that I cracked a safe though.. I had those addict superpowers that day
 
When I asked my parents for money to pay off money I owed to these dealers because I was smoking meth and then using what I had being given to pay the debt off and buy more when they said I had to come home but I decided to stay on and just buy more and ask again for more money. I spent it getting high and chasing that ultimate state of toxicity and when that eluded me just keep at it in the hope of finally getting. Did'nt want to go home and wanted to keep doing it and so I think I top the list here so far. I was a complete cuntbag and put my folks through hell like complete fuck head piece of shit and I know that. My parents have aged a lot more and both suffer from health problems so my fuck acting was something that should not have happened. That episode of my life only makes me frustrated annoyed and feel completely ashamed. I still have not gotten over that episode like I should acknowledge shit and move on.

What I mean is that I should have finished with drugs but if truth be told I cant imagine thinking and going through life without thinking oh cant wait some gear and save some green for it.
 
theMerovingian said:
When I asked my parents for money to pay off money I owed to these dealers because I was smoking meth and then using what I had being given to pay the debt off and buy more when they said I had to come home but I decided to stay on and just buy more and ask again for more money. I spent it getting high and chasing that ultimate state of toxicity and when that eluded me just keep at it in the hope of finally getting. Did'nt want to go home and wanted to keep doing it and so I think I top the list here so far. I was a complete cuntbag and put my folks through hell like complete fuck head piece of shit and I know that. My parents have aged a lot more and both suffer from health problems so my fuck acting was something that should not have happened. That episode of my life only makes me frustrated annoyed and feel completely ashamed. I still have not gotten over that episode like I should acknowledge shit and move on.

What I mean is that I should have finished with drugs but if truth be told I cant imagine thinking and going through life without thinking oh cant wait some gear and save some green for it.
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I did shit like that too my folks too man,, I'll never forgive myself for it either...I would lie and steal from the parents,grandparents Aunt uncles any of my family..I've made apologizes and been forgiving after getting clean and it's been years since that, everyone trust me now.. But Im always on edge around family now, I NEVER sit in someone's house, he'll another room, by myself. I don't want someone to think I'm gonna steal there meds or cash again, I know I wont, just never wanna feel that distrust from family again.
 
Severe recovering alcoholic here ... I lied to my boyfriend about how much I was drinking nearly every time. We are very honest with each other, but when I was drinking heavily those lies would effortlessly slip out of my mouth. We worked through it after I cleaned up...but I had damaged the trust in our relationship.

He enabled me by buying cases of wine. He didn't realize he was...I knew he was and I never told him it was making my addiction worse.

I would get wasted and he said it it seemed like I was a different person. I would instigate petty, groundless arguments ... apparently my norm when getting wasted. Which was most days for three years.

I had had so many blackouts those three years were a blur. I obviously knew I was drinking too much but I didn't binge drink. I'd start drinking early in the day, but surely and steadily would continue until very late. So,ehow I justified this and didn't realize how drunk I was until it was pointed out to me. I'd say ok and go refill my drink.

I got the wake up call when I started physically withdrawing every six hours. I was waking up abruptly in the middle of the night withdrawing and had to gulp alcohol to stave off DTs. I truly was surprised and I went to detox the next day. I was troubled my insight was so poor.

I became lax lax on my recovery post-detox. AA wasn't a good fit for me. I just decided not to drink. I didn't know that wasn't enough. I relapsed AGAIN with lying until it was obvious...I detoxed AGAIN. Finances in a shambles and I felt like such a failure.

One thing I did "right" was not drive and had no affairs/cheating. Otherwise, what a train wreck and my SO stuck by me to this very day. I'm grateful. But I still hate how I let myself get addicted. Biggest screwup of my life. I am done! No more. Cravings still happen. PAWS. Sober Life is the right place for me...yet I'm just feeling dead inside. I don't know if I'll ever have a zest for,life again. But it's my fault.
 
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Stealing from the mall, ripping my friends off, lying to my parents time and time again. And how careless I was with needles.
 
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