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worst heartbreak you ever suffered through

To bring a little light into this thread, my ex anna and i recently started hanging out again. We shared a deep passionate kiss and she told me the spark was still there. Were probably going to the zoo tomorrow (gotta love the free zoo in st louis) and im gonna ask her out again :)
 
Serotonin101 said:
To bring a little light into this thread, my ex anna and i recently started hanging out again. We shared a deep passionate kiss and she told me the spark was still there. Were probably going to the zoo tomorrow (gotta love the free zoo in st louis) and im gonna ask her out again :)
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Yay! Keep us posted. I think that spark is lost for most people, especially when a lot of time goes by, so good on you for getting your love back. :D
 
Damn n 2 think I was guna tell a break-up story... doesnt even compare 2 half of wat uve been thru...i kno its much easier said than done but stay strong, ill b praying 4 u <3
 
Update: her and i ended up hanging out downtown on the loop in st louis. Shared a delicious smoothie :) and waited with her til bus came (her bus stop is in the hood, and were both trying to stay clean and safe). Then as she was getting on the bus, we shared a very passionate kiss, she said she still loves me, and agreed to be exclusive :). Sorry ladies but Sero is off the market, though feel free to pm phone numbers anyway ;) (joke!)
 
My first and only true love ripped my heart out and kicked it back to me through the dirt in a million little pieces :!

I invested 4 years of my life into this man, he even moved in with me at one point. He was madly in love with me, more than any guy Ive ever met in my life. He would have done ANYTHING for me, always was there for me when i needed him and treated me like a queen and in return i treated him like a king. He was too lazy to help himself and after a series of unfortunate evens began secretly using drugs behind my back for a couple months. looking back i should have seen the warning signs. The night before our 4 year anniversary, someone posted a pic online of him with another girl. needless to say he can go suck a diseased filled dick. I have so much trouble trusting men now after him.
 
Don't direct your anger towards God. Instead you should see it like the evils of this world are because God isn't present enough in it. And we are also responsible for that.
 
First love. Oh man, it still hurts so bad. We only broke up like 6 months ago and I'm still distraught about it. I've never felt this way about a girl, yea we had a lot of problems, many shit stemmed from using drugs together. Whenever we were clean though we were so great together. I wish I didn't fuck that relationship up, or I wish she would just give me the chance to make up for all my fuck ups. I'm so sorry for any pain or trouble I put her through. I just wish I could sit down and talk to her and kiss her and tell her that I really love her. It's weird, when we were together I did stupid shit. It was my first relationship and I didn't know what I was doing. I ended up cheating on her which just broke my heart, I can't even imagine how it made her feel. I just felt like we had a connection stronger than I've ever felt before. It was weird, when we were together I'd think, "Do I really want to marry this girl?" and now that we've broken up I think "Fuck maybe I would marry her if I had the chance." I don't know I've just been lonely. It's so hard because she started seeing another guy like a month after the break up. and I haven't seen anyone. So now she has this new guy to give her all her wants and needs and like won't even talk to me. It just hurts so fucking bad, I can't even explain it, so many nights I just lie in my bed and think of her and what could of been. We had such good sex together so it's like I just think about the old days when we would fuck until 6 in the morning. We would have to stop because she would start to get raw and sore. I miss that shit so much. It just literally tears me apart when I think about her fucking another guy. Like my heart actually gets sore and it gets hard to breathe. I hate it, I feel like I've had no closure. And she won't just sit down and talk to me, so I'm just left hanging, wondering what the fuck I should do. Anyone have advice?
 
Finding out the girl I doted on was cheating every other day, emotional abuse then being perfect 5 minutes later. Left me without reason, then told me she had a miscarriage which caused me to attempt suicide, horrendous self-harm, guilt, self-loathing, depression beyond words. Left college, left home, dedicated my life to ensuring she got through it while I was dying inside. Then to find out she never had a miscarriage, she lied about losing a baby - nothing has ever more.
She ruined me, I'm still recovering 2 years later, she sent me to the brink of Hell, I bear the scars both physically and mentally of letting someone in, I can no longer trust anyone, or anything.
She broke me then left, and the worst part is I still miss her.
 
This was when I was 16 I guess...and it was soul-crushing at the time but now I can laugh about it haha...^_^

My first boyfriend/love/sex/etc. and I had been dating for a year and I was grounded for sleeping at his house and he went to his first rave/first time with MDMA without me even though I begged him to wait so we could go to our first together. I let him go eventually and told him to have fun for the both of us so he made out with about seven girls and fingered random ones on the dance floor then told me three days later (three days where I snuck out of my house at great risk of being murdered by my mom to hang out with him and fuck him) along with the news that he didn't want to be together anymore so he could pursue rolling, more raves, and hooking up with girls, in these approximate words. Also, he told all his friends before he told me so I looked pretty foolish... He then informed me as I sobbed into the phone that I should still fuck him, and I could even come over right then if I wanted and he would come out to my car and fuck me. And also, if I wanted, and this would be ideal, I could remain loyal to him and not see anyone else, but allow him to hook up with/fuck anyone he chooses. Cool guy, eh?

It hurt so badly at the time and I couldn't see what a ridiculous joke it was because I was 16. I didn't have many true friends, just party mates, in high school so it was lonely to lose him even though he was a douche. My sister helped me through it though and I'm so thankful. We even burned this big stuffed penguin he gave to me and threw it in the swimming pool and she posted incessantly about him being a cheater and having hep c on Myspace for a week. I love her <33 Glad to be rid of that one and glad I can smile thinking about it now.
 
I officially don't give a damn about my ex anymore. I've wasted too much time on her... it was her decision to end things anyway. Lost time is never found. Ben Franklin said that.
 
I cannot wait to the point where I'm like "I don't give a fuck about my ex." I honestly never thought a break up could be so shitty. Getting with another guy like a month afterwards is what really killed me. Like hey, I know we dated for 4+ years, and the guy before me dated you for 5 years. So you haven't been alone or independent in almost a decade. So I can't really blame her for hooking up with someone so quickly, when you're co-dependent that is what you do, you look for someone to fill those spots that are missing. It just sucks, like she even told me the dude she was seeing was "a rebound," like for real if you're going to say that then you gotta recognize that you're not dating him for love or any logical purpose. Fuck it just hurts me really bad. If I saw this dude in person, I would be tempted to take his ass out side and beat the fuck outta him. It would be different if he deserved her, but from what she's told me, he doesn't deserve a girl as good as her. It just fucking sucks. We started dating when I was 18 up until 22. When I first started dating her I had no idea how to treat a woman. I learned that treating a girlfriend and treating a woman are completely different. This girl was 3 years older than me, and she still loved me with a passion, and I should have treated her like a woman. but me, being my stupid, inexperienced self, I treated her like a girlfriend. Some of my happiest times were with her, and probably some of my hardest, but isn't that what makes a relationship great?
 
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So many, I would go into a fatal depression if I talked about them.
 
yeah, my mother died of cancer when i was 19. that was some fucked up shit, even though we didn't get along well. changed me in a lot of ways.
 
Childhood love has always been my major heartbreak, one in particular. In a way, It kinda emotionally detached me from any relationships after said occurrence. I remember it vividly.

I was 17 dating a lass who was 21, imo she was beautiful and so desirable. The sex was amazing and I felt so content around her. We were intellectually matched and the conversations we would have were so interesting. At the time, I felt she was my soul mate. As I was young and foolish, as a lot do, I thought she was the one and had so many plans. Need-less to say, I wasn't enough for her and she cheated on me on valentines day. I was distraught.

Shaved all my hair off (because she said she loved it so much), would break down and cry in the shower. A few times considered the old heave ho out of this world.

Only real thing that cured it was mindless self-indulgent sex.

Looking back I feel a bit silly for getting so obsessively attached.... though you really can't help the way you feel.
 
i happen to feel almost exactly about my ex. i wish i could say i was a better man and forgave her, but fuck it, i simply am not.
 
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