Fellow bluelighters i am experiencing some of the major problems related to Mdma use such as anxiety depression and fear of social situations.Now before u tell me there is countless threads that deal with these issues heres how my situation is unique.The last time i took Mdma was April 2012 but i only started felling depressed and anxious in August 2012.I was a user of cocaine about once a month(half a gram) for maybe 8 months Jan2012 till Aug2012 but i never mixed these drugs.I also drink reguarly at least once a week.I really feel like this depression has come from nowhere as i never experienced anything like it before August of this year.The worrying thing is i have nothing to be depressed or anxious about as i have a job i actually like with a great bunch of friends and a good family unit around me.I am a fairly active person and i had stoped goin to the gym in May 2012 but i started working out again 4 days a week with a good healthy diet to try and combat these feelings and it is helping me some days.My questions are why did it take these symptoms so long to appear after my last use of MDMA and will i ever feel normal again? Can anyone on here relate to this?
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Darksidesam
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i believe im also going through a similiar thing tbh,
Although ive used it more frequently recently, sometimes i get too eager i guess.
Id say you could try a good ol' fashioned Exercise, Meditation (or just chill with your favourite music alone time), sunlight, tryptophan foods,
(Tryptophan + Carbohydrates)
I can totally relate man,,,, totally. Im temporarily going to take zoloft for 4 weeks perhaps, maybe 2 though.
do you smoke weed?
Although ive used it more frequently recently, sometimes i get too eager i guess.
Id say you could try a good ol' fashioned Exercise, Meditation (or just chill with your favourite music alone time), sunlight, tryptophan foods,
(Tryptophan + Carbohydrates)
I can totally relate man,,,, totally. Im temporarily going to take zoloft for 4 weeks perhaps, maybe 2 though.
do you smoke weed?
Streetlight545
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How much molly did you do before you stopped? What makes you sure that your depression and anxiety is related to it? Stopping in April and not having the negative effects until August seems unusual
No i dont smoke weed or cigarettes at all darksidesam i would lead a fairly healthy life most of the time.I would have done Mdma 5 or 6 times a year for 3 years but then in my fourth year it was once a month for 8 months and then i used it once every 90 days 3 times and thats it.Would the use of cocaine have suppressed the feelings as they came on about a month after i stopped using cocaine.If i can add a bit to my original post i dont feel like this every day its probably every second day since i went back to the gym and i suppose im lucky im nowhere near as bad as some of the horror stories ive read on here.Streetlight im not sure theres a link between these feelings and my Mdma use but if there isnt i honestly dont know whats causing it as i have a good life.Reading some peoples experiences were like reading my own life the las few months but the only difference was the time lapse between my last roll and the onset of these bad feelings.Thanks for he replies guys
I think the coke may have contributed. When I was going through this ihad to stop doing blow and even drinking coffee. Stims can send your anxiety through the roof.
I would stay clean and healthy for a few months and try to wait it out. I am better after 6.5 months but I still feel that at times I'm a bit off emotionally.
I would stay clean and healthy for a few months and try to wait it out. I am better after 6.5 months but I still feel that at times I'm a bit off emotionally.
In my opinion I wouldn't contribute this depression to mdma at all. Not if the last time was 4 months ago. I also wouldn't contribute this to alcohol, Nd probably not even cocaine. You are healthy from what it sounds like; eat right, excercise, doing everything in moderation.
I just think you might want to look at what's going on in your personal life maybe home life; relationships; work; family; friends; any of this could bring on stress and possibly leading to depression. Try and maybe analyze what is causing your stress
And making you analyze everything and if possible even maybe see a doc about it if it gets worse.
But keep exercising, eating right, vitamins, and sleep. And getting sun is also good. Keep us updated!
I just think you might want to look at what's going on in your personal life maybe home life; relationships; work; family; friends; any of this could bring on stress and possibly leading to depression. Try and maybe analyze what is causing your stress
And making you analyze everything and if possible even maybe see a doc about it if it gets worse.
But keep exercising, eating right, vitamins, and sleep. And getting sun is also good. Keep us updated!
Renz Envy
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To me, it sounds like you're experiencing a burn-out effect.
While this fact may be "obvious" attributing it to drugs here is difficult due to the time spacing. MDMA typically will have this effect in most for a couple of days to a few weeks. As for cocaine, that is far less potent on dopamine down regulation from what I understand, therefore I'd almost rule it out of the question unless you were mindlessly addicted.
Amphetamine addicts typically experience a loss of will power and depression similar to this. It can get to the point of it being bad enough that the person may not even get out of bed to go to work, resulting in unemployment.
My advice is to quit drinking. Alcohol is a POTENT GABA-ergic drug which is directly linked to developing anxiety. I also believe that continuous ethanol consumption post MDMA use impairs the brain's ability to fully upregulate and become 98-99% as it was before.
If it continues after you quit drinking, seek a doctor. You may have developed stimulant induced disorders such as GAD, depression, narcolepsy or ADD. Like schitzofrenia developed from marijuana, I believe the after effects of a heavy stimulant like MDMA can make underlying mental conditions like narcolepsy or depression more apparent.
From personal experience, prior to my MDMA use, I never understood my depression and lack of will power. After it's use, I realized that my narcolepsy was the cause of my depression.
While this fact may be "obvious" attributing it to drugs here is difficult due to the time spacing. MDMA typically will have this effect in most for a couple of days to a few weeks. As for cocaine, that is far less potent on dopamine down regulation from what I understand, therefore I'd almost rule it out of the question unless you were mindlessly addicted.
Amphetamine addicts typically experience a loss of will power and depression similar to this. It can get to the point of it being bad enough that the person may not even get out of bed to go to work, resulting in unemployment.
My advice is to quit drinking. Alcohol is a POTENT GABA-ergic drug which is directly linked to developing anxiety. I also believe that continuous ethanol consumption post MDMA use impairs the brain's ability to fully upregulate and become 98-99% as it was before.
If it continues after you quit drinking, seek a doctor. You may have developed stimulant induced disorders such as GAD, depression, narcolepsy or ADD. Like schitzofrenia developed from marijuana, I believe the after effects of a heavy stimulant like MDMA can make underlying mental conditions like narcolepsy or depression more apparent.
From personal experience, prior to my MDMA use, I never understood my depression and lack of will power. After it's use, I realized that my narcolepsy was the cause of my depression.
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Agree with the last two posters...
Depression isn't always "linked" to something particular, though it may be related to prior usage... you can't write it off for sure but it's usually really difficult to pinpoint exactly what "causes" it. It could be a combination of a lot of things, and it could be some underlying stuff that you're not facing directly... it could be hormonal, related to the food you eat (even if you're eating healthy sometimes we can still have deficiencies or there can be health problems we're unaware of).
Not to say that MDMA or cocaine use couldn't be the problem at all, but it might be worthwhile to see a therapist for a few sessions to see if there's anything eating away at you that you didn't think about. Keep up the healthy eating & exercise, live clean for a while!
Depression isn't always "linked" to something particular, though it may be related to prior usage... you can't write it off for sure but it's usually really difficult to pinpoint exactly what "causes" it. It could be a combination of a lot of things, and it could be some underlying stuff that you're not facing directly... it could be hormonal, related to the food you eat (even if you're eating healthy sometimes we can still have deficiencies or there can be health problems we're unaware of).
Not to say that MDMA or cocaine use couldn't be the problem at all, but it might be worthwhile to see a therapist for a few sessions to see if there's anything eating away at you that you didn't think about. Keep up the healthy eating & exercise, live clean for a while!