work...

so that didn't last long. I ran outta money and haven't had enough gas to get myself to work all week.

I doubt the guy will be very happy with me if I do make it up there at all, I mean I will be trying to, but I have no money so its not looking good. So what I'm going to try to do is just find a different job anyway. I don't like painting at all, so I had all the more reason to not want to make this thing work.

so I'm unemployed again, depressed again, back to "normal" for me it seems. I'm hoping that I will find something I can really get in to soon. I can't stand doing work that I hate for shit money, its just like a kick in the nuts to me.

I dunno, maybe I'm really bringing this on myself. well I know I am to some extent. depression doesn't help but to beat it I know I need to suck it up and just do shit I really don't feel like doing to get over it. maybe one day soon I will.

here's hoping things look up soon.