DaveNeedsToTaper
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so i have made posts in the past. and lately heres a quick background story since then.
I've been kicked out of my dads house (i jsut turned 23 nov) just before he found out he has cancer
I lived onm sisters basement/playroom for 3 or 4 months
i now moved into a 2 bedroom appartment with my mom (canada) and she has mental health issues
since we have moved in together she has gone a very very long way in ever aspect of life.
but due to my insane addiction to oxy (from perscription) we are extreamly bbroke and i feel so terrible.
ever swince i found out about her mental state at the age of 12 years old i wanted to be old enough to live with her and help her and support her. now that im at that age im unable to work from my wrist(17 month wait list) and i have a horrible addiction. when i start to withdrawal i get so suicidal and its so hard to hold it back even though my mom suffers major depression anxiety and skizoactive (like skzitsofrinia) and i dont know what to do
today i was supposed to renew my meds and i usualyl got at 9/10 am. i didnt know i needed refill from dr because i jsut got refills one month ago andi usually get 5 refills (refill every two weeks) and when i woke up at noon i called pharmacy they said i have no refills. foudn out my dr closes at 12 on wednesday which left me FUCKEDDDDDD. it took me hours to find a solutions luckily someone i know brought me 2 40s. im perscribed 40 a day but have been taking like 10 40s a day sometimes and i hate myself so fucking much. now we have NO money for groceries like NONE. we both smoke and have 10 smokes left. we dont get paid till the 18th and i feel like such a loser. i wish i could help. idk what to do im in chronic pain, im so depressed. im a loser. aa freaking addict. and i jsut want to take care of my mom. now all her credits are maxxed. her overdraft maxxed. we have souch little food. im so worried and im praying for a miricle. ughh
I've been kicked out of my dads house (i jsut turned 23 nov) just before he found out he has cancer
I lived onm sisters basement/playroom for 3 or 4 months
i now moved into a 2 bedroom appartment with my mom (canada) and she has mental health issues
since we have moved in together she has gone a very very long way in ever aspect of life.
but due to my insane addiction to oxy (from perscription) we are extreamly bbroke and i feel so terrible.
ever swince i found out about her mental state at the age of 12 years old i wanted to be old enough to live with her and help her and support her. now that im at that age im unable to work from my wrist(17 month wait list) and i have a horrible addiction. when i start to withdrawal i get so suicidal and its so hard to hold it back even though my mom suffers major depression anxiety and skizoactive (like skzitsofrinia) and i dont know what to do
today i was supposed to renew my meds and i usualyl got at 9/10 am. i didnt know i needed refill from dr because i jsut got refills one month ago andi usually get 5 refills (refill every two weeks) and when i woke up at noon i called pharmacy they said i have no refills. foudn out my dr closes at 12 on wednesday which left me FUCKEDDDDDD. it took me hours to find a solutions luckily someone i know brought me 2 40s. im perscribed 40 a day but have been taking like 10 40s a day sometimes and i hate myself so fucking much. now we have NO money for groceries like NONE. we both smoke and have 10 smokes left. we dont get paid till the 18th and i feel like such a loser. i wish i could help. idk what to do im in chronic pain, im so depressed. im a loser. aa freaking addict. and i jsut want to take care of my mom. now all her credits are maxxed. her overdraft maxxed. we have souch little food. im so worried and im praying for a miricle. ughh
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