gonewiththewindows
Greenlighter
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- Jan 27, 2014
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Okay so I am prescribed wellbutrin and ritalin as well as ativan and ambien. i don't have anything at the moment and i recently gave up drinking because it just doesn't do it for me anymore. i also don't smoke pot. I have major depression or whatever it's called. it was trauma induced. i'm working through it with therapy and stuff and for a few years now i've been taking different antidepressants and wellbutrin seems to be the only one working. ritalin helps too i guess. but i'm out of everything now and i know the withdrawal from wellbutrin is slight compared to withdrawal from other ad's (such as effexor) so i'm not desperate at the moment but i'm also not feeling great. i'll be getting my meds soon but this last week i started messing around with tramadol. i've never messed around with pain killers before because benzos have thus far sufficed (or so i thought.) i took a few tramadol and i really loved the apathy i felt on it. i've eaten a month script worth of ativan(30 1mgs) before in a matter of days and never felt the disconnect that i feel on tramadol. i've never tried hallucinagens and don't really have the desire to. i don't want to mess around with pain killers either, but i have been majorly depressed for 3 years now and tramadol is the only thing that has literally just taken every worry away and left me feeling amazing. i took 7 50mgs last night (spacing them out between every few hours) and now it's 8pm and i still feel wonderful. it's nothing crazy but it's taken away every stress. but i did my research all day today and realized that i lucked out this week not seizing up on this stuff. i don't want to risk my health anymore than i already have. i understand that all meds carry a certain amount of risk, but tramadol seems to carry an excess amount of seizure risk. Are there any other meds like tramadol but that don't carry the large seizure risk with it? i know pain killers in general will probably be the answer but i don't want to deal with anything too addictive. what's a good alternative to tramadol? are there any? and how does it take away all negative emotion? i mean it's a literal miracle drug. it's not like stimulant high where there's a come down afterwards. all week i have felt 'great.' i know its half bodies are long or whatever, and that it's a pain killer + anti depressant. is that the secret? sorry if this post is confusing, i've never posted on this or any forum before but this tramadol has me reeling, in a positive way. And whenever i'm searching for info about meds this site always comes up and helps.
