Hey sorry you are having a bad day
When i detoxed I had no more than four hours of sleep for almost five months.. It will get better. I also had pains that would move around and get better an worse. I had a patch of the icy sunburn goosebumps that sailed around my body like a drunken pirate ship, for this time as well. The worst for me though was the fatigue.. it lasted the longest out of all the symptoms. I would have the old bipolar days and hours and sometime minutes.
I would not turn to the benzos as you will likely find yourself developing a whole new problem with those.. many have the opinion that benzos are harder and worse to kick than opiates.
Now that you are past the bad acutes I would really recommend at least 30 minutes of aerobic exercise 5 days a week. It will help with the sleeping.. on top of withdrawals making it hard we are often so used to inducing our sleep with a nightly dose of chemicals that we can forget that it helps ever so much if we are actually physically tired. It will help with the fatigue, it will help with the anxiety, it will help with depression. It can also help immensely with the stress. Exercise also promotes the brain chemistry to return to balance.. natural sleep also does this.. Its really hard to get the system to level back out if we continue to try and solve all our symptoms with the addition of an outside chemical.. the chemicals of the brain are seeming related, I mean that is pretty hard to go in and try and manipulate a specific target with out having it affect other aspects. Since we are looking to have the brain stabilize and return to homeostasis so we can finally find some really strong relief and positive occurrences I would think about going drug free for a year or so or at least until you slip out of the very end of the tunnel. The time period I was told that this happens, by a pain doctor, was into the seventh month, but it keeps getting a little better each and every day, can be kinda slow but I remember being able to see that the week I was in was better thatn the week before and way better than four weeks before.
Another huge thing we need to do to make our trip through the paws as peaceful and enjoyable as possible is to learn how to and implement changing the way we think.
A strong thing to do is to focus all your thoughts in the moment and the day. If we slip into yesterday we can get hit with strong guilt, shame, anger, resentment, if we slip into tomorow we can get slammed with fear, anxiety, frustration, anger, hopelessness, self doubt.
So it good if we can break up whatever we want to do into really easily achieved parts.. then we just keep it simple and keep focused in the moment, search out and find the beauty and amazement in life at all times.. it always there but we so often choose to make ourselves miserable by deciding something sucks or we decide that we are having a bad day.. just playing around a bit and not makeing light of your struggle or yourself
. This may seem crazy at first.. like NO motherfucker i dont think you get it im really having a bad day.. but it really works, and its not as crazy as deciding to be miserable which is what i used to do so often. Now I no longer judge anything as good or bad. well wait I strive to no longer do this. of course I slip.. I know I slipped because i suddenly find myself unhappy, distraught, angry, depressed, anxious.. so basically when ever I start to feal like shit I back track a bit and see where i am fucking up in how I am choosing to perceive the world, fix the thought process and return to pretty at peace and far from hating life.
If you choose to try and alter your thinking I would just say that its not as hard as i thought it would be.. really the hardest part for me was just realizing we are able to do this.. then it sorta takes time and practice.. but its kinda as easy as every time we feal negative in any way we can just go back and look where we are choosing to be miserable and look at it in a different way. These new revelations just become more and more natural to us as we we work at this and replace our old ways of thinking.
So there are a few things that have helped me out a great deal when I fought the PAWS, as I still humble my addiction, and in life really.
Here are some lesser known people than me that must have traveled forward in time and stole my original ideas to bring back with them.
He who lives in harmony with himself lives in harmony with the universe.
Marcus Aurelius
You have power over your mind - not outside events. Realize this, and you will find strength.
Marcus Aurelius
When you arise in the morning, think of what a precious privilege it is to be alive - to breathe, to think, to enjoy, to love.
Marcus Aurelius
Confine yourself to the present.
Marcus Aurelius
Our life is what our thoughts make it.
Marcus Aurelius
The happiness of your life depends upon the quality of your thoughts:
Marcus Aurelius
The soul becomes dyed with the color of its thoughts.
Marcus Aurelius
The universe is change; our life is what our thoughts make it.
Marcus Aurelius
Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment.
Buddha
We are shaped by our thoughts; we become what we think. When the mind is pure, joy follows like a shadow that never leaves.
Buddha
The mind is everything. What you think you become.
Buddha
We are what we think. All that we are arises with our thoughts. With our thoughts, we make the world.
Buddha
Peace comes from within. Do not seek it without.
Buddha
You, yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection.
Buddha
Life is how we perceive it.
Our perceptions are based on our thoughts.
We control our thoughts.
So in essence we control how life is.
So much of life we have no control and will never have control over,
but we are in total control of how we choose to perceive what life throws at us.
NSA
Hope this makes sense and helps you if you choose to try and alter your thinking.. junkie enlightenment is quite the thing.. dont forget the Buddha was a wealthy prince that drank, ate and fucked himself silly as a younger man.. then he realized that all that shit doesn't make anyone happy the more that you get the more that you want.. so he looked inward and found the answer to the greatest riddle.. how to be at peace and and enjoy life.
So maybe the
The road of excess leads to the palace of wisdom" can certainly be true if we learn what is needed on the road.
You're doing great.. it get better quick.. and it well worth it
