Will I ever be okay?

[poptarts69]

I’m diagnosed maybe mild schizoaffective. It is unbearable.
tearing me to shreds. I feel so awful on meds I’ve tried SEVEN.
Zylrexa feels like heroin but it makes me fat within a few hours
I feel so good without meds once I get past insomnia.
But for my high stress corporate job it does help somewhat.
I noticed zyprexa dulling one side of my face- it is doing damage to my nerves and brain.
I’ve tried them all.

Leo far only healthy diet exercise and spirituality help me. But I still deep down feel disconnected.
I can achieve feelings of my old self on medication- but they are so fleeting that being off them is better.

I need a biological solution. There is something going on with my brain. I need some stem cells, homeopathy, something.
Medication makes my life worse for certainty. WHAT DO I DO I don’t even feel I have this disease or any. I don’t hallucinate or have delusions.

there is something happening with my brain. MRI and ct scans are clear.

lit I get really healthy I can notice a disconnect on the left side. HELP!

 

[bow-viper1]

Really sorry to hear about the trouble you're having.

Can you clarify what you mean when you say that Zyprexa feels like heroin but makes you feel fat?

I'm curious to know if that's just a feeling it's given you, or if you've actually gained significant weight. For what it's worth, I also hate the weight-gaining aspect of most antidepressants and antipsychotics.

I've been on Lexapro (escitolopram) for my depression for over a decade, and I have put on a tremendous amount of weight. It's awful, but I can say with little doubt that I probably wouldn't be here today without it, so I've basically accepted that I'm going to be fat.

I'd say that if the medication makes you feel pretty good, but that it gives you some body-image issues or even if it does cause you to gain weight, maybe it's still worth it. It has been in my case, but we're all different.

Have you reported this issue of the dulling of one side of your face to your doctor?

 

[Shady's Fox]

That's sad but it's not the end, it's 2020 and now there's meds for this shit. I am sorry and wish you the Sky but schizo it's like diabetes it can be kept under surveillance but not cured. I have this experience of mine with a stranger who said and I also asked one of his friends + the shaman that he had schizo and after the ayahuasca session he was cured. I dunno what to say as I am not a doctor nor anyone else here or if it was it's very risky to throw something out there for such situations but if everything fails -- consider ECT

 

[Shady's Fox]

Or minocycline

 

[poptarts69]

I just want to be cured of this.
No doctor doesn’t know about left side of face
But I’ve seen two neurologists about it they don’t have anything to say
Zyprexa is unhealthy I’ve yet to find a worthwhile antipsychotic after 7 tries
Could never do ect

 

[Flynnal]

I just want to be cured of this.
No doctor doesn’t know about left side of face
But I’ve seen two neurologists about it they don’t have anything to say
Zyprexa is unhealthy I’ve yet to find a worthwhile antipsychotic after 7 tries
Could never do ect

I feel your pain. I was in your position before I tried high dose (60mg) mirtazapine and then added low dose carbamazepine (300-400mg) per day. It works for me with at least some effectiveness but I guess it's not perfect. The carbamazepine lowers my appetite so seems to counteract the appetite stimulation from the mirtazapine.