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mitch1566

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hey guys i had been taking e for the last 3 months almost every weekend the "magic" started to wear off after a while and needed to keep upping the dose. went to a house party and took 2 pills was not really feeling the great effects of it 3 hours later took another and then i started to freak out it my heart was racing like never before and i could hardly move and that had never hapened to me while rolling. from after that night i felt really depressed and anxious and when i would roll again it wouldnt make me feel happy just worse then after rolls i started having anxiety attacks, brocken sleep,depression it was soooo twisted i have since come right (well parcially) after a month of not rolling, thinking positivly, taking 5-htp and taking no drugs. i have smoked weed for 5 years strait not missing a day and whenever i do now it makes me really anxious. i have been feeling down alot of the time and i am normaly a head strong person. these effects are still with me just not as intense will this eventualy go away or stick with me?
 
Aint it scary?

No tellin if you'll ever be bein normal again. Most of which have abused like you have more then likely semi permenant brain damage. Your gonna be messed up for a real long time while your brains trying to wire its axon back 2 normal.

I would no because I ate WAYY moar beanz than you. Trust me I know that I am probably the most bluelighter as eaten even more than that many beanz and its left me semi fucked up for them last 2 months. I still aint even feelin more normal any more.

Best bet, pick up a copy of Halo:Reach, grab a six pack of bud light and a bag of dank herbs, a bag of smoked beef jerkey and some good friends.

You just gotta quit eaten moar beanz and keep on living. Recoverys gunna be slow, yer gonna not want to be anti social and try to stay healthy.

best of luck in your comin months.

-Spinter
 
You'll recover mate but like splinter said, it's going to be slow.
Definitely can't be using anytime soon.
Best of luck to ya
 
I went on a terrible MDMA binge this summer (~30 grams of MDMA in 2 months) and have suffered permanent brain damage. I am now on Paroxetine and Trazodone for anxiety and depression, anxiety wasn't caused by the MDMA use (it runs in the family) but my MDMA use did make it a lot worse, and the depression is thanks to the fact I have completely destroyed my serotonin receptors. Now that I'm on SSRI's, I can never roll again. I can't stress to anyone how important it is to NOT abuse MDMA.
 
You guys are just paranoid IMO....I abused E hard...it took a long time to recover yes and there are a few things that are still around ten years later but IME 90% of the bad effects from abusing will go away.

I abused for 2 years, every weekend and sometimes during the week, multiple pills each session...I was emotionally dead, paranoid, anxiety attacks, clouded thoughts, brain zaps, no short term memory, I heard sounds and voices in my head, random words would leap from my mouth without me intending to speak them, depression, trouble sleeping,....I am sure there are more but I can't think of any right now and this thread is too long as it is :)

After 6 months I could see a significant improvement but it took about 2 years for the bulk of the symptoms to disappear. After 2 years i would say I was 75-80% back to normal and within another year I was 85-90%. The things that stuck around for longer were so minor that they are hardly noticeable...and to tell you the truth could be caused just by the passage of time or other reasons completely unrelated...I just attributed them to my MDMA abuse.

Some take shorter others take longer but for everyone total recover takes a long time. but you will see improvement if you abstain from drugs while you recover. I am sure you could also speed up your recovery with a heaping dose of healthy living and exercise while you are at it.

But to have an attitude that you are fucked for life is just stupid especially when there are people here that have been through this very same thing and are not vegetables sitting in a mental hospital drooling on themselves.
 
matt2012 said:
But to have an attitude that you are fucked for life is just stupid especially when there are people here that have been through this very same thing and are not vegetables sitting in a mental hospital drooling on themselves.
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...but it took you THREE FUCKING YEARS to get back to near baseline. Sure I mean I guess we could just say "no dude you'll be fine abusing, it's only a three year recovery process".

8)

We're here to prevent things like this, not say "it's ok to do it, it'll eventually return to normal".
 
You are right we are here to prevent but in this particular case the time for prevention is long passed and it is now time for helping someone through something that can be a somewhat tramatic and legnthy experience.

but saying you are fucked for life is not true...I have yet to meet anyone who has not made similar progress to mine. I am not here to stop people from doing drugs or even abusing drugs...people are going to make their own decisions no matter what I say. If they are willing to accept years of dealing with the damage caused by MDMA abuse who am I to tell them they can't do it?

All I can really do is relay my experiences so that they can make an educated decision about their use...if they have all the info and still deside to abuse...they made their choice.
 
mitch1566 said:
hey guys i had been taking e for the last 3 months almost every weekend the "magic" started to wear off after a while and needed to keep upping the dose. went to a house party and took 2 pills was not really feeling the great effects of it 3 hours later took another and then i started to freak out it my heart was racing like never before and i could hardly move and that had never hapened to me while rolling. from after that night i felt really depressed and anxious and when i would roll again it wouldnt make me feel happy just worse then after rolls i started having anxiety attacks, brocken sleep,depression it was soooo twisted i have since come right (well parcially) after a month of not rolling, thinking positivly, taking 5-htp and taking no drugs. i have smoked weed for 5 years strait not missing a day and whenever i do now it makes me really anxious. i have been feeling down alot of the time and i am normaly a head strong person. these effects are still with me just not as intense will this eventualy go away or stick with me?
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Hey, that is some hard shit you are going through, chill off the weed especially if you are having anxiety and depression. Get a 9-5, keep busy and try to get stable, good luck :).
 
don't worry too much about it man. i went through something very similar to you when i was 17! for about 2-3 months popping every weekend, sometimes weekdays. for about a year there i was pretty spacey, anxious, and depressed at times. i think it would have helped me alot to know that i would eventually come back to normal. you will!. i still pop sometimes but only at shows... you gotta learn to slow it down. once a month would have never gotten you like this.
 
Yea this is why we need better drug education ESPECIALLY with mdma. You cannot use mdma even monthly like they say to on this website without suffering some negative affects. The best way to use it is have huge gaps in between, like around 3 month gaps in between each roll. I used clean pills for about a year and a half or so about every month and a half sometimes even longer and i still had some anxiety spout out. Mdma releases massive , massive amounts of chemicals in your brain and it takes your brain a long time to re wire its axons and replenish itself. But in the end you will feel better and you will get back to normal or semi normal base lines, it just takes lots of time. Personal experience<
 
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