I've been putting off doing my homework. Before the COVID ordeal, I always wrote my homework reports in the library at school. It was easier for me to do there because it was not at home where there are too many distractions. That and the fact that the school had a printer I could use to print out the reports. My roommate is fucking home all the time. He's not working and I'm like dude you need to get off your fat ass and get a damn job. He's always in the damn kitchen. I love food as much as the next person, especially right now, but goddamn all he does is eat a HUGE amount of food, sleep and shit. Thank God I get to go to work 2 nights a week and this is more irritating because he's home all the time abusing his kitchen privileges. I wish I could afford to live alone, but I can't. I get seriously pissed off because he's lying around doing nothing but getting fat instead of looking for work. So when I get bored and complain to myself about being stuck here with him, I think back on all of the years that I was in voluntary self-quarantine. As long as I had my drugs, I didn't give a fuck. In fact, my room I locked myself into was my castle and refuge against having to deal with other people, even when I lived alone. There would be major advantages to living alone now, but I try to keep positive. I get to have some company once in a while. Otherwise, I pretty much keep to myself, but it would be nice if the two other people I live with had jobs too. I guess it could be worse. I didn't always have a roof over my head when I was getting loaded. A lot of the time I was in my car, couch surfing at dope houses, living with a using buddy in a tent in one of our parks by the dam. The car was a bit cramped at times and dope houses I had to watch my back all the time so that I wouldn't get ripped off. I have credit cards now for emergencies which I haven't had since the 80's, so by my old standards I'm lucky. It was bad enough having to hustle for dope before, but I sure as fuck would hate to have to do it now. Ok now I'm going to do my feckin homework. Peace out.
Wide awake, but unmotivated
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