CoastTwoCoast, holy shit!!! I knew this was gonna happen bc of those kids. What are they staying for the year? I woulda done the same thing, don't feel bad. That's your house and people have invaded it. You shouldn't have to stay in your room. That shit ain't good for your head. Idk. Maybe they'll be gone soon. Parents gotta come back sometime. Their taking their fucking time though eh? Probably don't want to come home to those kids. Makes me feel lucky I got good kids. Yes, your shrink would probably blame guilt for and ills you may have. That's what they do. I hate your in this situation. I don't know you but when someone posts in thread like this I try to get to know them. Just bc I'm the same as you. Different lives, different diagnosis, yet the same with that chip we have in your head that tells us suicide is the answer. I'm about to go to Wyoming to live with my kids and I'll be happier than ever. But when I'm alone I'll have that chip go off and I'll sit in my place and play the pros and cons game for killing myself. I really hope I'm wrong but I'm not. No medicine or therapy can remove that chip. It's sad but it's my life. As long as I keep telling it no and talk to folks like you I'll live. I wanna see my mom in heaven but not by my own hand. Well, I really hop this shits resolved for you soon. If you got to jut stay in your room. I don't want those kids or granny putting you back. As always PM me if you wanna talk or just post. I wish you the best, really. You're doing good so keep it up. Take care!!