White Shadow 92
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Hi guys, this is my first thread ever but i've always used this community as a source throghout the years.
Basically any opiate related drug, including benzos and even pregabalin has always had reduced effects on me, severely reduced, first time i took pregabalin i dosed 300mg capsule, nothing.. I recently purchased oxycodoe 80mg pills without any opiate tolerance, took the time release off and took 10mg, then 20mg then took a line of 10mg then the other 40mg i parachuted in the space of 8 hours, I had a buzz but mostly itching and nothing to write home about, pregabalin effected me more when i railed loads of it, benzos i mostly get side effects i never feel the affect from benzos so i always black out before i reach the buzz, and thats titrating it up in small doses, ive tried etizolam, diazepam (legit pharma, kern, ukpharma etc) zanax (normal ones, red devil 5mgs too), literally the release of feel good chemicals never really hits me. also took 15mg/5ml of cough syrup codeine linctus and i end up drinking so much i itch and get irritated at every minor thing, not a complete sense of euphoric joy.
Now for history i've been a serious drinker for years, been taking uppers like cocaine, MDMA, speed, cathinones, RC's for 10+ years, i've always been a stimulant person, never really took opiates but recently ive sourced pharmaceutical grade and it does help with stim anxiety and hangover anxiety, basically i have an addictive personality and ive abused all kinds of drugs, hallucinogenics, its probally a miracle i dont get the feel good from opiates.
Today is my second day taking oxy, I took 40mg crushed and parachuted and just railed the other 40mg, im feeling it but not like a train very smooth and nothing too special, itching and feeling content. the source i use for the oxycodone is 100% legit straight from the doctor so i know its not fake.
The reason i think my brain can't feel joy from this class of drugs is because when i was 17 (11 years ago) my friend broke his back and had boxes of tramadol he sold super cheap, I got a really nice feeling from them and sniffed/oral consumed them, i ended up taking them for a few weeks and one day i took 10-12, and snorted 17 and eventually went into an overdose, i remember having a out of body experience watching myself getting put in the back of the ambulace and within 1-2 mins of watching people talk and panic i had an imense rush and woke up in the back of the ambulance, time was a distorted for me and clearly i was injected with ephedrine or something.
Ever since that day i have had almost an immunity to opioids and i believe that the overdose created some kind of damage to receptors in my brain that responds to them (I did not touch opiates for years and years after the OD), I really would love some kind of dialogue with people who know what they are talking about, because there are alot of educated smart people here and I really don't know for sure why my brain is like this.
My abuse of alcohol and uppers has led to me finding satisfaction mostly from being on things, i deal with more stress and depression now, but i go through phases like most people, im still social and work, everyone would think i was just a normal person and in many ways i am but i do crave drugs, im functional.
What is not working in my brain? what is causing this prevention? I know if i injected i would get a rush but im not stupid and i wont ever force an addiction on myself, all replies and ideas are welcome, even solutions to enhance myself in feeling the effects, thanks!
Basically any opiate related drug, including benzos and even pregabalin has always had reduced effects on me, severely reduced, first time i took pregabalin i dosed 300mg capsule, nothing.. I recently purchased oxycodoe 80mg pills without any opiate tolerance, took the time release off and took 10mg, then 20mg then took a line of 10mg then the other 40mg i parachuted in the space of 8 hours, I had a buzz but mostly itching and nothing to write home about, pregabalin effected me more when i railed loads of it, benzos i mostly get side effects i never feel the affect from benzos so i always black out before i reach the buzz, and thats titrating it up in small doses, ive tried etizolam, diazepam (legit pharma, kern, ukpharma etc) zanax (normal ones, red devil 5mgs too), literally the release of feel good chemicals never really hits me. also took 15mg/5ml of cough syrup codeine linctus and i end up drinking so much i itch and get irritated at every minor thing, not a complete sense of euphoric joy.
Now for history i've been a serious drinker for years, been taking uppers like cocaine, MDMA, speed, cathinones, RC's for 10+ years, i've always been a stimulant person, never really took opiates but recently ive sourced pharmaceutical grade and it does help with stim anxiety and hangover anxiety, basically i have an addictive personality and ive abused all kinds of drugs, hallucinogenics, its probally a miracle i dont get the feel good from opiates.
Today is my second day taking oxy, I took 40mg crushed and parachuted and just railed the other 40mg, im feeling it but not like a train very smooth and nothing too special, itching and feeling content. the source i use for the oxycodone is 100% legit straight from the doctor so i know its not fake.
The reason i think my brain can't feel joy from this class of drugs is because when i was 17 (11 years ago) my friend broke his back and had boxes of tramadol he sold super cheap, I got a really nice feeling from them and sniffed/oral consumed them, i ended up taking them for a few weeks and one day i took 10-12, and snorted 17 and eventually went into an overdose, i remember having a out of body experience watching myself getting put in the back of the ambulace and within 1-2 mins of watching people talk and panic i had an imense rush and woke up in the back of the ambulance, time was a distorted for me and clearly i was injected with ephedrine or something.
Ever since that day i have had almost an immunity to opioids and i believe that the overdose created some kind of damage to receptors in my brain that responds to them (I did not touch opiates for years and years after the OD), I really would love some kind of dialogue with people who know what they are talking about, because there are alot of educated smart people here and I really don't know for sure why my brain is like this.
My abuse of alcohol and uppers has led to me finding satisfaction mostly from being on things, i deal with more stress and depression now, but i go through phases like most people, im still social and work, everyone would think i was just a normal person and in many ways i am but i do crave drugs, im functional.
What is not working in my brain? what is causing this prevention? I know if i injected i would get a rush but im not stupid and i wont ever force an addiction on myself, all replies and ideas are welcome, even solutions to enhance myself in feeling the effects, thanks!
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