i have only been using drugs harder than weed for almost 5months now. a couple nights ago a mate of mine found some rocks of H. we justified trying this shit out with the idea that once this is all gone we will not know where to get any more without speaking to stabby stabby azns and low life streeties. ppl whom i do not want to associate with
between 3 of us we smoked approx 1 - 1.5 square cm of wat seemed to be very potent shit. about 1mm square was enough to relax us almost to passing out point and this was after a big night on ice and E.
hopefully most ppl out there will be smart enough as i am really really hoping i can be, to wait at least a month b4 ur 2nd dosage of H. pills and meth i would never go to much trouble to get because i feel next to none addiction to these substances but after just one night on H i am sitting here constantly thinking about why i should/shouldnt have another go at it tonight.
i do believe that this shit can hook any one of you out there but its really a matter of personality. i told myself and all my friends that this was definately a once only thing. a day and half later i find im telling myself well.. maybe ill just wait a while.
in 48hrs i have gone from:
b4 smoking it - this will definately be the 1st and last time i ever have this
while smoking it - mm not quite wat its all cracked up 2 be
coming down - it was an experience, not all that good but was worth trying
24hrs later - mmm i might give it another go in a month or so
48hrs later - arguing with myself about why i should/should not have it tonight
this is the 1st craving for anything i have ever had besides ciggarettes when im drunk/Eing
to put it lightly this scares me
fortunately i do believe in myself when i say i wont give in to temptation. i do not want to become another one of these stereotype "junkies" or "low lifes"
in short i dont think that heroin is EVIL. moderation is the key to everything in life. if someone finds themselves addicted to heroin than its no ones fault but themselves. the choice is yours!