i started writing this earlier in the week and never got back to finishing it. the crazy thing is that i am now moving very shortly.
my husband got a job offer yesterday and starts in 3 weeks. its crazy to think i was whining about wanting to move earlier this week and not freaking out about how quickly he (we) need to move.
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i am getting really annoyed at people questioning why i want to move. its pretty, i have wanted to leave this area since i graduated college. at the time, i was content to move anywhere that is not here. while that still holds true, i really want to move back to the pacific northwest.
as for the first part, there are lots of things i dislike about living here. one point is my parents. we get along better than i did while growing up but i am never going to see eye to eye with my mother on many things. when i lived out of state, we had far less fights about stupid issues. currently, she likes to gossip to people about my marriage and motivations for moving to seattle. she will get upset when i call them to do something, because i did not call for every inane thing i do. and i've posted on here before about not feeling close to my extended family. i feel just as uncomfortable in a room of first cousins or a room of total strangers.
i also feel really stagnant here. i feel lazy saying teaching is all i can do, but it is for a job i can get with minimal effort. i could try to aggressively market myself for other positions or finish my masters around here. but it won't get rid of my desire to leave ohio. moving did not fix a lot of issues i have, but i still felt more content than i do here.
part of it is from friends. i feel like many friends in ohio see J and as i one person. or accept the other because they are friends with one of us. i feel like the people i know in seattle know just me. and that makes me feel more comfortable around them. which means i feel less odd about hanging out.
my husband got a job offer yesterday and starts in 3 weeks. its crazy to think i was whining about wanting to move earlier this week and not freaking out about how quickly he (we) need to move.
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i am getting really annoyed at people questioning why i want to move. its pretty, i have wanted to leave this area since i graduated college. at the time, i was content to move anywhere that is not here. while that still holds true, i really want to move back to the pacific northwest.
as for the first part, there are lots of things i dislike about living here. one point is my parents. we get along better than i did while growing up but i am never going to see eye to eye with my mother on many things. when i lived out of state, we had far less fights about stupid issues. currently, she likes to gossip to people about my marriage and motivations for moving to seattle. she will get upset when i call them to do something, because i did not call for every inane thing i do. and i've posted on here before about not feeling close to my extended family. i feel just as uncomfortable in a room of first cousins or a room of total strangers.
i also feel really stagnant here. i feel lazy saying teaching is all i can do, but it is for a job i can get with minimal effort. i could try to aggressively market myself for other positions or finish my masters around here. but it won't get rid of my desire to leave ohio. moving did not fix a lot of issues i have, but i still felt more content than i do here.
part of it is from friends. i feel like many friends in ohio see J and as i one person. or accept the other because they are friends with one of us. i feel like the people i know in seattle know just me. and that makes me feel more comfortable around them. which means i feel less odd about hanging out.
