Elvis'LittleHelper
Greenlighter
Over a couple of years I've had a huge addiction to codeine by taking nurofenplus. It got to the point where I was taking 64 tablets a day. Obviously with such large amounts of ibuprofen I developed an ulcer which turned into a bleeding ulcer. On the 9th Dec the ulcer burst and perforated my stomach. I had to get an emergency operation and was in intensive care for 5 days. My family, who had help me lots of times during previous withdrawals, were extremely worried but were optimistic at the fact this may be my turning point and may give me the motivation to stay away from N+.
A couple weeks later I had really bad cravings and could not stop thinking about it and glorifying my past use. The thought of taking pills made me feel nervous and excited and every time I told myself 'NO!' I felt sad and disappointed less than a month since my operation I gave in and relapsed. Fast forward to now and I'm using everyday and taking 32 tablets, sometimes more. I don't get high anymore. I occasionally get a sore stomach but it feels fine I take omeprazole which helps and don't take any pills on an empty stomach
my family have found out and are at their wits end as I can never stay clean more than 2/3 weeks.
I guess i love taking codeine too much to stop. My family and I don't understand why I'm willing to risk my health. I have no life and because I work with my family's business so at the point where I could lose my job.
They have worked out the fact that I don't want to stop. I want to want to stop but can't imagine life without it. I'm only 20 years old but been abusing opiates since I was 15. I had a seizure from tramadol addiction when j was 16
also quickly ill summarise my family life.
'My dad was an alcoholic and growing up I saw him climb out windows, beg, vomit, lie, steal etc. My mum threw him out when I was 14, his mum and dad became aggressive and horrible to my mum who then had a breakdown. My dad died when I just turned 16 and my mum became a completely different person. Also I moved out into my grandparents as my mum and I didn't get on.they asked me to leave exactly a year ago due to my addiction and now I'm back home with my mum now sleeping in the livingroom.
Please help me.
A couple weeks later I had really bad cravings and could not stop thinking about it and glorifying my past use. The thought of taking pills made me feel nervous and excited and every time I told myself 'NO!' I felt sad and disappointed less than a month since my operation I gave in and relapsed. Fast forward to now and I'm using everyday and taking 32 tablets, sometimes more. I don't get high anymore. I occasionally get a sore stomach but it feels fine I take omeprazole which helps and don't take any pills on an empty stomach
my family have found out and are at their wits end as I can never stay clean more than 2/3 weeks.
I guess i love taking codeine too much to stop. My family and I don't understand why I'm willing to risk my health. I have no life and because I work with my family's business so at the point where I could lose my job.
They have worked out the fact that I don't want to stop. I want to want to stop but can't imagine life without it. I'm only 20 years old but been abusing opiates since I was 15. I had a seizure from tramadol addiction when j was 16
also quickly ill summarise my family life.
'My dad was an alcoholic and growing up I saw him climb out windows, beg, vomit, lie, steal etc. My mum threw him out when I was 14, his mum and dad became aggressive and horrible to my mum who then had a breakdown. My dad died when I just turned 16 and my mum became a completely different person. Also I moved out into my grandparents as my mum and I didn't get on.they asked me to leave exactly a year ago due to my addiction and now I'm back home with my mum now sleeping in the livingroom.
Please help me.