Why does this happen?

[pillpopper078]

Sometimes when I roll, my eyes get very big. I am not talking about my pupils, I understand those get real big when rolling. I am talking about my eyelids. My entire eye, literally, just doubles in size and it looks ridiculous. I hate when this happens because I get very self-concious and it ruins my roll to the point where I just want to leave because I feel like everybody is staring at me. I don't mind my pupils, whatever, that happens to everybody at the club. But I am always the only person whose entire eyelid is just big as hell. I look like a freak when it happens.

This does not happen all the time. Certain pills do it to me. It will never happen on Molly's because I am guessing it is not the MDMA that causes this, but perhaps the mix of drugs I get in some pills such as speed, cocaine, etc. Could this be the reason? Some E pills do not cause it either, so I am guessing the ones that do have a crap load of cocaine and speed or whatever in it.

Can anyone help me out here and tell me why this happens to me sometimes? I have some purple G Lady's that I am pretty positive are pure MDMA with none of that added crap in it, and I really don't want to have a bad roll because my eyelids got huge. Any help would be appreciated.

 

[Legerity]

I doubt that there is cocaine in your pills doing this to you But if there is something in your pills that is causing this, then it could be that same ingredient that is making you feel anxious and self-conscious. I think pure MDMA for most people would remove the self-consciousness over having big eyes, but perhaps not for everybody.

 

[Seyer]

My eyes get wide open like that every time I have a pill with meth/speed in it. But whenever its a clean pill, it doesnt happen to me. If that happens to you on a regular basis when you roll, it may just be the MDMA causing it. Everyones body reacts differently when it comes to drugs.

 

[pillpopper078]

My eyes get wide open like that every time I have a pill with meth/speed in it. But whenever its a clean pill, it doesnt happen to me. If that happens to you on a regular basis when you roll, it may just be the MDMA causing it. Everyones body reacts differently when it comes to drugs.

Then it has to be the speed then. I figured it could be that, I just needed to see if it happened to anyone else when they got dirty pills like this. I am the same way as you, when I get clean pills, my eyes look normal. I love getting clean pills, my eyes look normal and I roll face and feel great. Do you ever get self-conscious and a bit of anxiety when your eyes get big? Like you feel like everyone is staring at you? Or do you just say "screw it" and not care what people think about your eyelids being huge?

 

[Seyer]

The only way to know for sure what was in your pills is to have tested them with a regeant kit. The only problem I have concerning my eyes is since my iris is light colored, my pupils are wayyy noticeable. When Im rolling I could honestly care less about my appearance. One of the best things about rolling IMO. I dont have self conscious issues or anxiety at all, sober or on any drug. The only drug that I dont like being in public on is meth, but I dont do it that often and I only do it in the comfort of my best friends so its not a problem.