Hello everyone lets analyze ganja anxiety, paranoia, psychosis and compare storys as to who have experienced this and overcome it and those after many attempts who cant couture that magic of the old Mary Jane again,
Ok heres a little bit about my experience,i always took drags off of pot as early as 10-11yrs old just a puff emulating my uncles and cousins it was always around they never kept it to secret I would grab a roach and play around never inhaling it properly just looked at as simple tobacco never got high from doing It never did it often as well.I started smoking pot truly around 14-15 that's when I truly understood it and loved its pleasant effects but little did I know how it would make me act in the future so after a year of heavy pot use I started to become a slacker in a big way became very akward weird shy never changed clothes that much acted strange in public became very uncleanly and just a plain weirdo to be honest,but I didn't care I chased weed like crack literally and I never did a hard drug ever in my life to this day IM 28.i mean I would steal sometimes from family just to cop a bag of smoke my mom kept hi grade pot all the time and sometimes she would one up me and put it in a good place were I couldn't find but 95% of the time I was able to find it and pinch a 15-20's worth and toke up to that blissful heaven all while looking like a complete disaster just dirty bummy I did shower though, so as I became and older teenager in high school I was the quiet weird guy in a thugged out school people either thought I was a skitzo or some kind hardcore silent killer so I didn't get bothered much but I felt the uneasiness as I walked in to class rooms so Anyways I became so introverted and non social i blundered many of friends with weird statements forced conversations i alienated just about all old friends really didn't care at the time the pot made me numb and not give a shit so as i became an adult still smoking strong still weird i got my first job were i just freaked everybody out playing a tough guy saying stupid things doing odd things for 3 months i literally walked out the job and didn't say hi goodbye to anyone not even the boss this bitch would turn red as the devil when she saw me she was so ashamed people treated my like a weirdo my uncle got me the job i was such a stoned introvert i caused him to rip me in front of everybody as i left i gave him the finger we hate each other till this day we have a silent war going on. so after being humiliated by my weirdness many of times losing close cousins because of it,after i quit after this old lady drilled me on the job pot started to do something strange when i would smoke its like i would focus on my weird embarrassing behavior and the humiliating behavior i showed and i would drop down to my knees shaking pot usually made me say fuck it now its telling me you big weirdo what have you done to yourself people think your the biggest weirdo on the planet which was probably true at the time then i realized pot done something strange to me i can only compare it to a mental schizophrenia like situation but temporary crazy so i continued to smoke while get horrible self analyzing panic attacks until a full blown freak out were i did a day n a half in the hospital and was prescribed Risperdal for THC paranoia,but it wasn't paranoia it was reliving the screwed up akward things i done, so i stopped smoking and became a little more normal still flash backing about my horrible embarrassing mistakes which still happen sometimes today but after getting blitzed off of good pot from 14-20 it has left me with OCD,social anxiety,delusions of some sort and anxiety i have been on every ssri and anti-psych med there is and i cant recapture my old normal calm cool relaxed self i don't know if the pot re wired my brain or am i not even sick at all just terribly ashamed of what my life has become i have lost all respect with some family members they hate and taunt me today.
so what happened am i a whack job naturally and the pot brung it out earlier,did the pot make me a whack a job because i have a terrible addictive personality ,or what am I just weak minded can anyone relate to this? pot and the weird things I done has killed me up to this point i have never gotten back to myself just stuck in rut popping psych meds to no avail.but the strange thing is i have never stopped craving pot i wish there is a strain out there that what let me get high with normal effects i wish i could put myself up for study and find the miracle strain for me if possible or am i done forever with Mary Jane idk i wish they would legalize so it can be openly studied.
anyone ever heard of a situation like this,has it happened to you or someone you know please elaborate
bezel
Ok heres a little bit about my experience,i always took drags off of pot as early as 10-11yrs old just a puff emulating my uncles and cousins it was always around they never kept it to secret I would grab a roach and play around never inhaling it properly just looked at as simple tobacco never got high from doing It never did it often as well.I started smoking pot truly around 14-15 that's when I truly understood it and loved its pleasant effects but little did I know how it would make me act in the future so after a year of heavy pot use I started to become a slacker in a big way became very akward weird shy never changed clothes that much acted strange in public became very uncleanly and just a plain weirdo to be honest,but I didn't care I chased weed like crack literally and I never did a hard drug ever in my life to this day IM 28.i mean I would steal sometimes from family just to cop a bag of smoke my mom kept hi grade pot all the time and sometimes she would one up me and put it in a good place were I couldn't find but 95% of the time I was able to find it and pinch a 15-20's worth and toke up to that blissful heaven all while looking like a complete disaster just dirty bummy I did shower though, so as I became and older teenager in high school I was the quiet weird guy in a thugged out school people either thought I was a skitzo or some kind hardcore silent killer so I didn't get bothered much but I felt the uneasiness as I walked in to class rooms so Anyways I became so introverted and non social i blundered many of friends with weird statements forced conversations i alienated just about all old friends really didn't care at the time the pot made me numb and not give a shit so as i became an adult still smoking strong still weird i got my first job were i just freaked everybody out playing a tough guy saying stupid things doing odd things for 3 months i literally walked out the job and didn't say hi goodbye to anyone not even the boss this bitch would turn red as the devil when she saw me she was so ashamed people treated my like a weirdo my uncle got me the job i was such a stoned introvert i caused him to rip me in front of everybody as i left i gave him the finger we hate each other till this day we have a silent war going on. so after being humiliated by my weirdness many of times losing close cousins because of it,after i quit after this old lady drilled me on the job pot started to do something strange when i would smoke its like i would focus on my weird embarrassing behavior and the humiliating behavior i showed and i would drop down to my knees shaking pot usually made me say fuck it now its telling me you big weirdo what have you done to yourself people think your the biggest weirdo on the planet which was probably true at the time then i realized pot done something strange to me i can only compare it to a mental schizophrenia like situation but temporary crazy so i continued to smoke while get horrible self analyzing panic attacks until a full blown freak out were i did a day n a half in the hospital and was prescribed Risperdal for THC paranoia,but it wasn't paranoia it was reliving the screwed up akward things i done, so i stopped smoking and became a little more normal still flash backing about my horrible embarrassing mistakes which still happen sometimes today but after getting blitzed off of good pot from 14-20 it has left me with OCD,social anxiety,delusions of some sort and anxiety i have been on every ssri and anti-psych med there is and i cant recapture my old normal calm cool relaxed self i don't know if the pot re wired my brain or am i not even sick at all just terribly ashamed of what my life has become i have lost all respect with some family members they hate and taunt me today.
so what happened am i a whack job naturally and the pot brung it out earlier,did the pot make me a whack a job because i have a terrible addictive personality ,or what am I just weak minded can anyone relate to this? pot and the weird things I done has killed me up to this point i have never gotten back to myself just stuck in rut popping psych meds to no avail.but the strange thing is i have never stopped craving pot i wish there is a strain out there that what let me get high with normal effects i wish i could put myself up for study and find the miracle strain for me if possible or am i done forever with Mary Jane idk i wish they would legalize so it can be openly studied.
anyone ever heard of a situation like this,has it happened to you or someone you know please elaborate
bezel
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