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why do you do drugs?

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MACstar said:
Initially I use drugs (Opiates, Benzos) for self medication. I have depression and anxiety pretty bad and these drugs help. Especially opiates. But it seems to me, once I am medicated and "normal" THEN I want to get high. That's when I will fuck with crack. Love it. But only if I have opiates in my system. I can do H and Crack all fuckin day. And that aint a good thing.

I also use alcohol in a self medicating-esque fashion. It relieves my anxiety and depression just like benzos. But makes me a lil sloppy and belligerent. Booze fucks me up though. I love it but damn, it has wreaked madd havoc on my brain. I used to be pretty sharp. Now, not so much. Sucks.

I wish I could afford Sub. I bet it would be great for my needs.
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Not trying to attack you or anything........but how can anyone smoke crack after all that it has done to everyone that touches it.

It is the most fucked up thing I have ever seen.........I just don't get it. Anyone that has lived around crackheads can't possibly think that it is a decent idea.
 
Why not? They're there and they make for a hell of a time.
Take weed for example. It makes food taste amazing, makes sex miraculous, turns a walk to the fridge into an epic adventure, makes everything hilarious, gets rid of headaches, stomach aches and relieves pain and its perfectly safe.
Why wouldn't you do it?
 
I don't like weed that much, but then, I don't get the same effects you get, it seems.

I do drugs because they add a part to myself, a part which is myself but that I can't reach when I'm sober. And they're so unboring, too. Plus, it's a complete way of life, that may make some distance between you and your "normal" environnement, but also get you to meet really great people. Not always (at all), I know, it must even be quite rare, but it worked for me and I found very precious people thanks to my interest in drugs.
 
Not trying to attack you or anything........but how can anyone smoke crack after all that it has done to everyone that touches it.

It is the most fucked up thing I have ever seen.........I just don't get it. Anyone that has lived around crackheads can't possibly think that it is a decent idea.
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Trust me. It is not something I ever saw myself doing. I did know the dangers of it, and I witnessed the many wacky antics of crack heads. Pretty much it all started when I went to buy 2 grams of soft. I was in a hurry and didn't look at the bag really. I was in a fucked up neighborhood where I scored it and made my escape. When I got home I busted it out and saw yellowish rocks. WTF!?!?!! I was pissed. Called my guy and no refunds, too bad.

I didn't fuck with it. But while I was at work the next day, for some reason I started thinking about it. Wondering what it would be like. Curiosity got the best of me and, well. I liked that shit waaaay better than coke! Mind you, I won't fuckin touch the stuff if I don't have plenty of opiates in my system. It just isn't the same. Speedballin status is right up my alley.

but yeah. Crack is Wack;)
 
Ever since I was a kid I thought about how amazing it would be to see things that weren't really there. Naturally when I found out about hallucinogens and other substances I was curious. I enjoy their effects on thought and perception. Plus some of them make you feel real good.
 
Initially I started taking Valium as self-medication, worked like a charm. Then I got more interested in pharmaceuticals as I had the resources to getting them. Only did weed, cocaine and MDMA before then. Became fascinated with all the different kinds, what they did, possible combinations, potentiations. And now it's just developed to experimental use to test everything out. Not addicted or anything, just recreational fun with friends or to pass time.
 
I've used drugs for every reason imaginable, it all started out in good fun with pot with some friends. This lead to experiments with other drugs. Initially it was all just fun and experimentation.

Ultimately though, after years and years of daily use of Weed and Alcohol then later on Opiates/Amps/Benzos, I realized I was self medicating for depression/anxiety/and possibly most relevant ADHD.

When I realized I had ADHD I was 31, less than a year ago, a few years before that I had realized that taking 20mgs of Adderall killed my desire to use drugs, it was like I had bad vision my whole life and finally got some glasses. I could see everything more clearly and I didn't feel the need to drink or smoke weed etc while on it.

It took a few years and some other events in my life for me to get into a psychs office and actually get a diagnosis but I really believe that I basically used a lot of drugs to self medicate ADD. Nowadays when my meds are balanced I don't feel the need to escape anymore, just a mood lift every now and then is good enough.

Regarding an earlier post, I think it's essential to figure out why you became dependent on drugs if you want to stay off of them. ADD, Depression, Anxiety are the reason I became addicted to drugs, discovering that this was why I became dependent has been a revelation. It's amazing what a good psych can do, if you're addicted to anything and want to stop, get professional help, it's probably the best thing I've ever done for myself.
 
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I do different drugs for different reasons. I do pretty much all drugs for fun/to escape. Drugs make me feel good, so I do them. Simple as that. That's really my only reaspn.
 
mainly to stay away from reality, the "real world" .... and so i forget how much ive fucked up my life lol
 
I use them mainly a stool to enhance my living. I really like uppers b because you can now control when you sleep or eat. Setting you free from the slavery of being a human. Then I do a lot of other drugs for fun, relaxation, learning the same way i would read a book. I will never give up drugs by my own will. its like saying give up watching film, or music because they be bad for you. i like them all to much.
 
I smoke rolling tobacco and take cactus/ayahuasca occasionally, why? i will never know
 
i do drugs to have some extra fun every once in awhile. not a heavy drug user. when i was stresssed and depressed i tried finding any drug i could get but my cousin, who has done just about every known drug, told me "never do drugs to escape depression, do it just for the expierence. the best high you can have is the one your going into already happy" i always stick to this. i take stress and sadness and anger on with sobriety.
 
most drugs to enhance whatever im doing, there fun. mushrooms, acid, and on one occasion mdma as a tool to work out issues, improve my mental health, better myself as a person, and see things in a new way.
 
To escape, but I also I find them fun. Me and another friend who are both miserable in our own ways had a funny conversation about this. He likes the rush from cutting which is his drug of choice. He was telling me that a lot of people are just fine emotionally and mentally and they use drugs as "bonus" Like his dad coming home after making a big real estate sale and has some rum and coke, bonus. A woman just finishes writing a book and goes and get stoned with her friends, bonus. So I said so if you ever become happy and completly content with life and you had a wife and kids and came home from a great day at the recording studio he would be like "I love my job, I love life and now for some bonus*starts mutilating wrists with a hunters knife*" We had a good laugh at that.
 
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